Polly Wrote:I was doing a bit of psychotherapy/deprogramming on myself by revealing the info about my sometimes reaction to caffeine. It was something I never mentioned to anyone and I was breaking the inner command to not tell by posting it in this thread. Also, it was a fairly recent development (last three years or so) unless I was completely unaware of the correlation before.
Polly, I think you can really applaud yourself for having gotten to that realisation. Anything that helps us become more aware of our own inner mechanisms (however which way we would 'coin' or choose to call it) is worth being acknowledged as progress & a step in the right direction.
I strongly feel that this is part of the unravelling...and, although I may not necessarily refer to it as 'programming' or 'command system being in place', I would just as much feel that if I recognise an aspect of myself that has been 'exposed' unawereness to something on a level that makes me '
re-'act in a seriously peculiar fashion, it is good to at least
understand [color="#0055aa"]
why something is the way it is[/color]... Just my humble opinion & speaking from my own life experience.;)
I liken it to peeling an onion...there layers upon layers upon layers. So we have to keep 'peeling away' at our
levels of unawareness (& therefore, no genuine understanding of why we do what we do) to get to
[color="#0055aa"]the core of what something is as well as what something is not[/color].
It's a process of [color="#0055aa"]
be-coming[/color] that allows us to grow beyond from where we started off ... or, put differently, you are coming more into your
own sense (& sensibility) of who you
really are rather than what someone told you over & over in different ways, different manners or different words...including implanting of real or 'suggested' means.
You're moving away from that old Self - akin to leaving an old shell behind that you have outgrown...you're getting rid of an old coat, metaphorically speaking...
And the more you keep at it, the more you return to who you were meant to be at the original point of departure in the spectrum of the 'All-That-Is'....
Spirit coming alive again in its biggest expression, free to be who
we want, choose & desire to be...
in spite of our past or whatever we have gone through. In this instance then, it can (if we grant ourselves the space for it to do so) truly be a motivating energy & force that helps us bring the change we desire yet are similarly afraid of or [color="#0055aa"]
in denial of really wanting to 'stay put' & "comfortable" in our 'familiar misery'[/color] - better the devil you know than actually reclaiming &
owning our Spirit, our Soul...
Yet, if we allow for the positive energy to keep us moving in the right direction & not get beaten down at the first sign of resistance, by that very notion, we eventually can
allow ourselves to grow wings & fly:).