02-23-2009, 07:52 PM
Hi all. I am writing this here as a kind of cathartic release for me. Last night I had a horrible dream. It had a lot to it and Richard had to wake me up at least once because I was yelling out in my sleep. But the part that I remember the most and that was the worst, was where I was in a bedroom, (I guess maybe trying to sleep?) I don't really know why I was there, but anyway, all of a sudden this older, heavy, nasty man was standing by the bed I was in and began to rape me. I kept saying NO, get away, but he just smiled horribly and proceeded in doing what he was doing. I guess that I moved enough where it seemed like all he really got was my side and sheets. I remember that after he was 'done' and left, I got out of the bed and was disgusted with the wet sheets, and I wiped myself off vigorously. I woke up shortly after that.
I think that this is the first time I remember that I actually went through the actual 'rape' in one of my dreams. Usually I wake up before it happens or I know it happened but I didn't experience it. I still feel 'dirty' even now from that dream.
I think that this is the first time I remember that I actually went through the actual 'rape' in one of my dreams. Usually I wake up before it happens or I know it happened but I didn't experience it. I still feel 'dirty' even now from that dream.