02-24-2006, 02:32 AM
Silver Infinity, Believe in yourself...you're an awesome artist...you designed all the graphic computerized archetypes on this forum. I know you could do this on paper as well. It takes practice. If not you have some other awesome artistic talents that you have yet to tap into or rediscover..or become reacquainted with..its possible you once knew how to create other things. Most powerful creative part of yourself is your mind..which is essentially you(right?). Anyway I see that you're also a good writer too. :o)
erm..even if I could draw you guys a spiral staircase and paint it in green I would have no way of scanning it for free..unless I scrounge around for some high tech peers.
I noticed that when I do visualize myself in green that I immediately bring up past issues but these are memories I could remember..nothing blocked. I've always been able to remember most things in my life except..obviously for those programming torture sessions..but I figure that if I was programmed from many other existences its possible that they didn't need to make me endure these painful and traumatic sessions..they just needed my parents and other "instructors" to reinforce feelings of shame and guilt for me...yeah erm..i didn't always experience a glorious time with my parents..if you want to know i'll email it to you. i tell too much of my personal life on here anyway.
erm..so yeah my point is...SI is a good artist...and that green really does take you to the past..just visualizing this staircase for a long amount of time or myself descending it is difficult.
someone said something about a green ball..how does that work?i'm wondering if computer of the mind has a windows media player...maybe i could erm...utilize the media player on my computer of the mind and access torture/ritual memories of this lifetime wher ei fragmented...so i could work on proactively self reintegration..man i think too much..but odn't act enough. okay i'm working on correcting that. peace. and good luck to my fellow deprogrammers.
erm..even if I could draw you guys a spiral staircase and paint it in green I would have no way of scanning it for free..unless I scrounge around for some high tech peers.
I noticed that when I do visualize myself in green that I immediately bring up past issues but these are memories I could remember..nothing blocked. I've always been able to remember most things in my life except..obviously for those programming torture sessions..but I figure that if I was programmed from many other existences its possible that they didn't need to make me endure these painful and traumatic sessions..they just needed my parents and other "instructors" to reinforce feelings of shame and guilt for me...yeah erm..i didn't always experience a glorious time with my parents..if you want to know i'll email it to you. i tell too much of my personal life on here anyway.
erm..so yeah my point is...SI is a good artist...and that green really does take you to the past..just visualizing this staircase for a long amount of time or myself descending it is difficult.
someone said something about a green ball..how does that work?i'm wondering if computer of the mind has a windows media player...maybe i could erm...utilize the media player on my computer of the mind and access torture/ritual memories of this lifetime wher ei fragmented...so i could work on proactively self reintegration..man i think too much..but odn't act enough. okay i'm working on correcting that. peace. and good luck to my fellow deprogrammers.