I can play martyr too.

[projectiles]

she would give up all her money to be able to walk and feed herself.

Still, without dollar bills, there would be no way to keep yourself alive. Your only water source would be a public restroom, or water fountain. All is rigged to be for sale

[Andrea]

Very true but having all of your physical capabilities allows you a potential that is not as limited.

With normal physical capasity you can work to gain money. You can dig your own well and grow your own food. You can run away to a place where you can suffer in freedom of choice... if you choose to suffer.

[projectiles]

Very true but having all of your physical capabilities allows you a potential that is not as limited.

With normal physical capasity you can work to gain money. You can dig your own well and grow your own food. You can run away to a place where you can suffer in freedom of choice... if you choose to suffer.

You can only work if someone chooses for you to. Digging a well requires tools, you've also got to somehow find an aquifer, which is underground. What food can you grow? An orange tree? Mint? Tomato vines? Who's giving you seeds in the first place? And whose private property is it on? Are you going to wait three months for plant to grow from a seed? You can't eat plant matter for very long, you need animals too,.. unless you can mix the correct order of plant proteins with the exact vegetables. Where you gonna get all the corn, grain, and variety of vegetation for that?

How are you going to kill a hunt without weapons or traps? And where do those resources come from? And who says there's even any wildlife in the region? You can bypass animals and eat bugs,, do you know how to identify toxic bugs? How can you even know if you'll catch just one? And how will you catch anything, with a stolen flyswatter?

It just goes on and on eternally

And just 'running away' to sulk in your own misery,,, that will last 2 seconds and is not even an option

Everything is rigged to fall apart without money

[Andrea]

You definitely have a point. But it is a point I choose not to recognize for myself. I suppose its a matter of half full vs. half empty. I don't limit myself. I have my moments of feeling down but I guess my initial point was to say IT CAN ALWAYS BE WORSE. I focus on the positive. Because however f-ed up it is, it Is, what it is, but its also what I make it.

You could give me a million scenarios of how messed up life could be, but my personality is as such that I will gain joy in figuring out how to overcome them. If there iust is no overcoming them I will gain joy by focusing on how my children can far exceed me. Or whatever... my life is what I make it and its all relative.

That's a problem I have now. people seem jealous of me and I have much less than they have. Not as much money, not as pretty, not as great a job, on and on. I realized they look at me and say " what is she so happy about? She doesn't have what I have but she seems happy and I am miserable". What I have and who I am may not be much to them but its all I have….so I don't have much choice....I'm not gonna kill myself so I chose joy in the face of sorrow.

FYI~ Napolean Hill was a rich man by many accounts (bank & wisdom) he said "your most dominant thought becomes reality". Think and Grow Rich is the name if his book.

[projectiles]

I'm aware of Napoleon Hill. He's got a series of books from the 1920's ..'The Law of Success'.. it's quite good. Mostly just his theories, but worth reading

[Andrea]

Yep, that's him.