I think that sometimes you do need ââ¬Ësomethingââ¬â¢ to take you off the world and enable you to escape reality occasionally when going through emotional trauma, but that something so easily becomes a habitual dependence, which can become an even greater battle than the one you were trying to escape in the first place.
Octahedron,
I would never doubt that it must be a constant battle to reflect all that Orgone, but do you find it hard to change your mind pattern in such a negative place. I know when I left the suburbs for the trees it took many years for my body to rest into the energy transformation, I held that anger within me like a sleeping bear just waiting for some sign/trigger to awaken that energy.