03-04-2007, 05:26 AM
At this moment I feel so privileged to be where I'm at today. I feel deep down that this particular period of time marks the beginning of the gradual re-alignment with our true selves. The number of people who open their minds to these possibilities may be low at this time, but I can tell that the number is definitely growing.
Ever since around two and a half years ago, I have had sudden spates of positive, uplifting thoughts. These thoughts bring immense feelings of realization. I take a brief break from repeatedly convincing myself of the solidity of my physical reality and begin to try to understand my own existence. Eventually I begin to realize that no matter what I do, or say, or think, I will always be connected to this wondrous energy force of which I am experiencing. Despite the experiences, the past couple of years have been some of the loneliest of my entire life, which has been very bittersweet. On the one hand, I have more time to slow down and listen to my own thoughts, my own beliefs, and my own instincts, and on the other there is a difficulty in improving my social skills. Interestingly, I've found that my natural inclination is to isolate myself from others as much as possible because I fear that if I speak to another person, I will not be myself. I will act like them, emulate them so that there is absolutely no conflict. I suppose I do have a fear of conflict, and have not yet managed to know the source of this problem within me. I am confident that if I continue encouraging myself to think without restriction, the answer to the problem will come to me. In a way, I am grateful that I have a problem to work out. If I had absolutely no problems in life whatsoever, I'd imagine it would be blissful for a time, but then it would gradually become irksome.
Do you think that the re-connection to the energy of oneness is never eternal? That there will always exist a problem and a solution simultaneously?
Ever since around two and a half years ago, I have had sudden spates of positive, uplifting thoughts. These thoughts bring immense feelings of realization. I take a brief break from repeatedly convincing myself of the solidity of my physical reality and begin to try to understand my own existence. Eventually I begin to realize that no matter what I do, or say, or think, I will always be connected to this wondrous energy force of which I am experiencing. Despite the experiences, the past couple of years have been some of the loneliest of my entire life, which has been very bittersweet. On the one hand, I have more time to slow down and listen to my own thoughts, my own beliefs, and my own instincts, and on the other there is a difficulty in improving my social skills. Interestingly, I've found that my natural inclination is to isolate myself from others as much as possible because I fear that if I speak to another person, I will not be myself. I will act like them, emulate them so that there is absolutely no conflict. I suppose I do have a fear of conflict, and have not yet managed to know the source of this problem within me. I am confident that if I continue encouraging myself to think without restriction, the answer to the problem will come to me. In a way, I am grateful that I have a problem to work out. If I had absolutely no problems in life whatsoever, I'd imagine it would be blissful for a time, but then it would gradually become irksome.
Do you think that the re-connection to the energy of oneness is never eternal? That there will always exist a problem and a solution simultaneously?