Mind Controlled Sex Slaves and the CIA

[Octahedron]

ShadowRunner[/color]]....
great post. i don't even think the nwo families really comprehend what the heck they're involved in with all the rituals, torture, trauma, sacrifices ect ect it is just something they MUST parktake in as they are indebted to astral demons and reptilian gods. my favorite way to describe the elite is to compare them to the 'rainman' yes the character in the dustin hoffman movie. when he does not get exactly how 'HE NEEDS THINGS TO BE' he literally cannot function. this is the same with the powers that be. if they don't get their rituals, numerology, they go kookoogaagaa.

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Thanks, yes I think also: "they have to be fed". Simple.

"They" operate in the astral and trap us there by manipulating and imprisoning our minds to control our (subconscious) actions in hyperspace in this indirect way to get our energies they need. 

with technology, trauma, alters, symbolics, implants, fear etc.

[MC]

HeadSpace[/color]]Found a site which sells extremely cheap ones:P Have an order in for 10 HHG's and 10 towerbusters, not sure what the last one is though:?

I thought I should start with that, I've got a lot of space to cover, I'll get myself some of those pretty ones soon:D I'm looking forward to having them around. I've been fighting very heavy elf for a long while without any protection at all.

Sleep very poorly as well, when I'm about to fall asleep it's like someone harassing me with a flashlight or something, a flash of light out of nowhere. That and a lot of buzzing, humming, swooshing and you name iticon_afraid have had some sexual ritual stuff going on lately too, not fun. Found an alter today or something, a sexual one. The worst thing is I did not feel it was that uncomfortable either. I read in the 13 cubed book about the dragonfly program and that these people would be willing to do anything, anywhere at any time. That and they recover very quickly after orgasm.

Sad to say, this fits more than I would like to admit. I'm not saying I'm a nymphomaniac or whatever that's called, but very flexible sexually. I felt like a child.
I was very emotional and seemingly full of love, but I'm not sure..I felt strange, like I was a fragment of myself, which is probrably true. Like a living stuffed animal or somethingicon_lol it does have a darker side with denial, anger and resentment..But thats like the other side of the coin or something. Very strange.


The positive thing is that I have found some form of sexuality which seems to be healthy:)

I know the attachment is involved in that alter. And it is present now too.

Also, it has a way of making me feel really frustrated to the point where I would like to rip myself to shreds. Literally. Sometimes, I can get very cold and mean, and a lot of physical strength beyond my physical capacity. Rage too. Where it can get hard to speak properly because of the energy:?

When I'm angry, it gains acess and control.

I wonder how MC dealt with this stuff.

Ah,ok,so you wanted my opinion.I understand everything you've written here.I personally  do not have these problems.I have had to work years on myself.The entities are a problem.People with these have to work on themselves extra hard.Rage produces the color red around us,which is an astral energy,and these are astral beings.You activate the left hemisphere and your reptilian genetics kick in,that's why you feel cold and mean and unemotional.Did you ever ask anyone whether they have seen you change your appearance?Because,what you have described is a prelude to changing your appearance and hosting the entity.In my case,with my programming,they will usually find another programmed person who will antagonize the hell out of me.

[HeadSpace]

Thank you:)

I have not  asked anyone, but I am pretty sure I do not change apperance.
Never liked red, not at all. I see red when I close my eyes:? Also I see red in my visual field as something that might look like riffs in a rock. If I focus it expands and eventually develops a beepattern. I did meet some creature in that red at one point. It told me it's name was the big L, but I guess everyone does that..

I recently heard something that might imply that it was back. It has happened before too. I heard "you married me", something which the entity in the red mud asked for.

I dont think theres is any validity to that hypothetical marriage though.

If that state I described is reptilian in nature then I certainly do not like them:) I was pretty sure that I did not like them already.

Would really like to change that red to royal blue:) 

It's adept at manipulating emotions too, thats annoying.
For me I feel like I have one foot in astral and one foot in physical, for some time I enjoyed it especially with music:D But now I have become very tired of it.

I also think the attachment may be messing with my sexual energy sometimes.

Hope it works out with the annoying one:)