10-11-2007, 09:18 PM
I put this under Esoteric Knowledge because I feel my experiences that relate to trauma, laws of attraction, behaivor manipulation, is more approriate than for General Discussions. I leave out my experiences with occultic entities like reptoids and ghosts that I had seen unless they are beneficial.
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Psychic Experiences--
synchroncities:
During my strolls around the day, I don't usually pay attention to my surroundings 100% of the time. And these tangent thoughts that I had no motivation to think about pop up and they entertain me as I walk from place to place. Then in less than 20 minutes, usually less than 5 minutes, a synchronity shows up. What I entertained, I could hear from some random, even up-close conversation, a bulletin, etc.
Hypothesis (I think it was my intuition predicting future events, because those were tangent thoughts.)
releasing:
I used to dream this entity that always tried to hurt me in my dreams. Then I visualize those hyperspace archetypes in 6 am the morning one time to get rid of it. I picture that entity in a crystal world where anything it touches freeze it into a crystal statu. Hold behold, the entity was moving in my trance state, and it avoided everything, even changed the scene. I visualize the same scene again, but this time that the world was caving in. And I had it finally frozen into a statue. Then without hesitation, I put it into a mirror placed at 45 degrees to another mirror so it can't escape like it changed my scenes. I know it had some power over my visualization. I visualized
violet hammer in the middle slam both mirrors into shatters. Finally, I visualize violet water flush it out. I woke up. The strange thing is I felt this very powerful wind current lifted up from my feet towards the crown.
Hypothesis (It was probably not stored feelings that I released, but it's an actual astral entity I identified in my dreams and used tools to expel.)
lowering libido:
I complained that it was immoral, sinful and wrong to get turned on from porn. I might have thought women in general. Then as I saw the pictures of porno going by my mind, with burning passion (it felt like jealousy and anger), I asserted that I won't be turned on anymore. As weeks go by, my libido almost cease to exist.
giving up powers:
While I was in the school bus, I looked at a girl who stared out the window. She could pay attention to the environment, although with a sad face. I thought I wanted to focus like that too because most of the time I'm in my own little world. I complained that my powers alienated me from having a normal focus, being normal, and feeling like I belong. So I told myself to keep wishing the powers away. I did that for most of the bus ride (45 minutes ride). To seal the deal later, I noticed I could make wishes, and I made wishes that I would no longer be able to wish, so I can't get my powers back if I even dare to. A week later, I suffered a series of mini-strokes, and since then I haven't been able to use my powers to much effect. People told me my lips turned blue and that I almost fainted. Even though there wasn't a mirror around, I obviously felt something was wrong when my body was numb, cold, circulation almost stopped, and for an hour straight I wanted to fall down.
predicting x shows up (before I gave up my powers)
Without any concept that my mind doesn't know the future, I see the playing card, etc how it will show up. I didn't think. I only saw. The picture always come across clearly.
Every person that came across me was amazed even though I didn't perform any magic tricks. I simply applied a certain kind of thinking (which I can't even do anymore).
causing events (before I gave up my powers)
1. My friend and I was watching that Terminator show in Universal Studios at California. I told him I was going to make the actor on the motorcycle go through the wrong part of the backdrop and the show to mess up for the entire day in any way possible (I felt like challenging Universal Studio's grand stuff). In less than 30 seconds, it happened. Show was called off. We walked out. Later, we went back in to watch it again, but the show was called off again when the gas system won't stop making the gas that comes off the sides of the auditorium where the fake robot android statues were.
2. I asked another friend what weather he liked. He said rain. Then I said out, "I wish rain to come down, I wish rain to come down, etc." My friend was freaking out because I was acting weird, but in less than a minute, it started sprinkling for the first time of the week.
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Traumatic Experiences--
My dad marched in and yelled at me for not getting straight A's. As I was taking AP courses, I felt there was no way I could keep up with the workload. So I explained that to him, but he cut me off half sentence and yell at me in my face. At that moment I felt frozen because a monster was let out of my dad.
I felt so stressed out and unable to talk. I don't remember what happens next. But later in the night I woke up from an intense pain in my jaws. I couldn't open them because they were locked. I felt fear that they will never open because both sides of my jaws weren't budging. I fought it for a minute, then they finally unlocked. The next day I woke up with a very apparently slanted jaw on my right side. As weeks go by, the painful right jaws affected my left jaw.
Sometimes when I sleep, I get waken up because my unconscious bites down hard and then the jaws give me stabing pain. Then I would fall back asleep and without any mercy, the jaws wake me back up because it bit down again. This used to happen all night.
Ever since, I've been getting sleep paralysis. I think the clenching woke me while I'm still asleep but while I can't wake up fully either, so I fall into a paralysis. I've been getting nightmares and seeing dark entities from those paralyses. I get sexually molested by invisible beings.
Now the clenching has been painful everyday. It is more painful when I'm stressed or studying.
My dad is now a sweet loving person. But the damage has already been done.
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Psychic Experiences--
synchroncities:
During my strolls around the day, I don't usually pay attention to my surroundings 100% of the time. And these tangent thoughts that I had no motivation to think about pop up and they entertain me as I walk from place to place. Then in less than 20 minutes, usually less than 5 minutes, a synchronity shows up. What I entertained, I could hear from some random, even up-close conversation, a bulletin, etc.
Hypothesis (I think it was my intuition predicting future events, because those were tangent thoughts.)
releasing:
I used to dream this entity that always tried to hurt me in my dreams. Then I visualize those hyperspace archetypes in 6 am the morning one time to get rid of it. I picture that entity in a crystal world where anything it touches freeze it into a crystal statu. Hold behold, the entity was moving in my trance state, and it avoided everything, even changed the scene. I visualize the same scene again, but this time that the world was caving in. And I had it finally frozen into a statue. Then without hesitation, I put it into a mirror placed at 45 degrees to another mirror so it can't escape like it changed my scenes. I know it had some power over my visualization. I visualized
violet hammer in the middle slam both mirrors into shatters. Finally, I visualize violet water flush it out. I woke up. The strange thing is I felt this very powerful wind current lifted up from my feet towards the crown.
Hypothesis (It was probably not stored feelings that I released, but it's an actual astral entity I identified in my dreams and used tools to expel.)
lowering libido:
I complained that it was immoral, sinful and wrong to get turned on from porn. I might have thought women in general. Then as I saw the pictures of porno going by my mind, with burning passion (it felt like jealousy and anger), I asserted that I won't be turned on anymore. As weeks go by, my libido almost cease to exist.
giving up powers:
While I was in the school bus, I looked at a girl who stared out the window. She could pay attention to the environment, although with a sad face. I thought I wanted to focus like that too because most of the time I'm in my own little world. I complained that my powers alienated me from having a normal focus, being normal, and feeling like I belong. So I told myself to keep wishing the powers away. I did that for most of the bus ride (45 minutes ride). To seal the deal later, I noticed I could make wishes, and I made wishes that I would no longer be able to wish, so I can't get my powers back if I even dare to. A week later, I suffered a series of mini-strokes, and since then I haven't been able to use my powers to much effect. People told me my lips turned blue and that I almost fainted. Even though there wasn't a mirror around, I obviously felt something was wrong when my body was numb, cold, circulation almost stopped, and for an hour straight I wanted to fall down.
predicting x shows up (before I gave up my powers)
Without any concept that my mind doesn't know the future, I see the playing card, etc how it will show up. I didn't think. I only saw. The picture always come across clearly.
Every person that came across me was amazed even though I didn't perform any magic tricks. I simply applied a certain kind of thinking (which I can't even do anymore).
causing events (before I gave up my powers)
1. My friend and I was watching that Terminator show in Universal Studios at California. I told him I was going to make the actor on the motorcycle go through the wrong part of the backdrop and the show to mess up for the entire day in any way possible (I felt like challenging Universal Studio's grand stuff). In less than 30 seconds, it happened. Show was called off. We walked out. Later, we went back in to watch it again, but the show was called off again when the gas system won't stop making the gas that comes off the sides of the auditorium where the fake robot android statues were.
2. I asked another friend what weather he liked. He said rain. Then I said out, "I wish rain to come down, I wish rain to come down, etc." My friend was freaking out because I was acting weird, but in less than a minute, it started sprinkling for the first time of the week.
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Traumatic Experiences--
My dad marched in and yelled at me for not getting straight A's. As I was taking AP courses, I felt there was no way I could keep up with the workload. So I explained that to him, but he cut me off half sentence and yell at me in my face. At that moment I felt frozen because a monster was let out of my dad.
I felt so stressed out and unable to talk. I don't remember what happens next. But later in the night I woke up from an intense pain in my jaws. I couldn't open them because they were locked. I felt fear that they will never open because both sides of my jaws weren't budging. I fought it for a minute, then they finally unlocked. The next day I woke up with a very apparently slanted jaw on my right side. As weeks go by, the painful right jaws affected my left jaw.
Sometimes when I sleep, I get waken up because my unconscious bites down hard and then the jaws give me stabing pain. Then I would fall back asleep and without any mercy, the jaws wake me back up because it bit down again. This used to happen all night.
Ever since, I've been getting sleep paralysis. I think the clenching woke me while I'm still asleep but while I can't wake up fully either, so I fall into a paralysis. I've been getting nightmares and seeing dark entities from those paralyses. I get sexually molested by invisible beings.
Now the clenching has been painful everyday. It is more painful when I'm stressed or studying.
My dad is now a sweet loving person. But the damage has already been done.
