04-06-2009, 10:31 AM
I have often asked oversoul for help when I am in different situations. Even in the worst scenarios, it rarely ever helps. I also wonder if it ever has, because there has been stuff trying to make me think it was oversoul. It often does, there's something that keeps me in doubt and worry all the time.
So, there this thought that if it does not help me. Then I am not in a position where I need it enough. Do you think this is likely? As it always listens.
For most people this might seem strange, but you do not know what has become the standard for me. It is not something most people experience. By that I mean things are often so confusing and blurry that I cant even think.
Every time I am about to write about this answers come as I write and I end up not posting. But I also wonder if that too is manipulation:? You could say I have become paranoid.
I also have to correct my writing all the time because little "i's" appear. That is not surprising either.
What has been the case for me is that I have calm, balance, peace and clarity. Then thoughts, foreign thoughts start coming in. Depending on the strenght of my calm and peace it varies in strength and intensity.
The last time I got out of this mess was a week ago, I had to fight to keep my focus. I manically focused on a peace of cotton from my sweater that had found it's way into my saltbath. I had clarity, but the thoughts flowed in with very strong intensity and it feels like I'm trying to hold back a waterfall.
As I am writing this I get some kind of feed telling me how it works with precision. The solution here is attraction, I know this.
It is implants, but I think the information come from different sources. Satellites and the attachment perhaps.
When the flow through these are not stopped it ends in layers and layers of thought that sort of dictates my present reality. What comes up here is the case of classic victim mentality and attraction.
Answers come, sometimes it seems as if they come from the wrong sources and are very obvious. I wonder if that is my own true thoughts but enhanced and made "theirs" to make me disregard them or to seed doubt.
There's also some kind of mechanism that blocks my thoughts, often along with pressure on my forehead and other places.
I came to a end here...I know the title of the post does not fit the content. But I do think the title has significance for the thought I myself retrieved through writing it.
I know the post may reek programming.
I was mostly writing this because it is things that has been frustrating. And writing helps.
So, there this thought that if it does not help me. Then I am not in a position where I need it enough. Do you think this is likely? As it always listens.
For most people this might seem strange, but you do not know what has become the standard for me. It is not something most people experience. By that I mean things are often so confusing and blurry that I cant even think.
Every time I am about to write about this answers come as I write and I end up not posting. But I also wonder if that too is manipulation:? You could say I have become paranoid.
I also have to correct my writing all the time because little "i's" appear. That is not surprising either.
What has been the case for me is that I have calm, balance, peace and clarity. Then thoughts, foreign thoughts start coming in. Depending on the strenght of my calm and peace it varies in strength and intensity.
The last time I got out of this mess was a week ago, I had to fight to keep my focus. I manically focused on a peace of cotton from my sweater that had found it's way into my saltbath. I had clarity, but the thoughts flowed in with very strong intensity and it feels like I'm trying to hold back a waterfall.
As I am writing this I get some kind of feed telling me how it works with precision. The solution here is attraction, I know this.
It is implants, but I think the information come from different sources. Satellites and the attachment perhaps.
When the flow through these are not stopped it ends in layers and layers of thought that sort of dictates my present reality. What comes up here is the case of classic victim mentality and attraction.
Answers come, sometimes it seems as if they come from the wrong sources and are very obvious. I wonder if that is my own true thoughts but enhanced and made "theirs" to make me disregard them or to seed doubt.
There's also some kind of mechanism that blocks my thoughts, often along with pressure on my forehead and other places.
I came to a end here...I know the title of the post does not fit the content. But I do think the title has significance for the thought I myself retrieved through writing it.
I know the post may reek programming.
I was mostly writing this because it is things that has been frustrating. And writing helps.