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[Zodd42]

I don't have a scanner yet, so I can't post my drawings... but I found this art program online that I've been playing with.  Here is the link to see some of my "paintings."

http://www.sumopaint.com/web/#/profile/28646/

[William]

Very cool, good job. Thanks for sharing. :)

[DreamTime]

Nice artwork, Zodd42.

[Astrojewels]

Very nice Zodd42, so what inspires you, these pics are colorful and I can see the deep meaning within them, how would you describe your work?

[Zodd42]

I haven't really thought about describing my art. I've been through so many phases it's hard to put a label on my style. I love creating beauty in my images, but most of my art has been very disturbing and powerful. Before I "woke up" my best art was very bio-mechanical, almost alien. The image itself would consist of some tortured or dismembered figure in a kind of symbiosis with twisted mechanical forms. I spent 30+ hours on some of these drawings during high school. It is a shame you can't see them yet, as they convey strong emotions many people are still feeling.

Right now I'm trying to create art that will have an impact on the "collective unconscious" of people that view it. I am motivated by everything I am seeing unfold around me, as well as an overwhelming sense of complacency I encounter every day. I want people to ask questions, to look for answers, and to become dissatisfied with the way things are so that they can change them. I want to inspire and uplift people just as much as I want to make them angry and disillusioned.

[Astrojewels]

It looks great Zodd42, and you should be very proud, so are you selling your work?

[Zodd42]

If you think those are good just wait!

Am I selling my work? Not yet, but I will! I decided early this year that I would never work another soul-sucking corporate job, and I would make art my career. I have been very successful in manifesting a huge change in my life since then, and I feel the art career is just around the corner. I am also looking forward to meeting my life's love soon, probably in less than one month!

My final obstacle is my family, who are totally opposed to my life as I want to live it... and absolutely refuse to believe that I can be successful without a job or college or church or the military. As you may know, I live with my parents. They have told me twice in the last 2 days that I have until fall to either have a job or be in school. It is sort of implied that I will be kicked out if I fail to comply. My dad has also said outright "You need to go to church." This is a huge hurdle to overcome... I haven't been able to bring myself to tell them what I believe because I know how they would react. When I try to talk about chemtrails e.g. the responses I get are anything but sane or rational... in fact they react as if I am crazy, or that "God has chosen my delusion" etc.

Nevertheless. I know what I'm capable of. I'm sane, powerful, limitless, creative, and can manifest my dreams into reality. I can overcome anything. My life is not dependent on anyone or anything but me, so I will have my dream! No contest.

[Astrojewels]

Zodd42,

You have a great attitude, and I wish you the best for your career in art, I do find it sad for you that your family is an ‘obstacle’, are they that bad? Do they provide food and a home for you? I understand that their views oppose yours, and I am sure that they just want you to be successful in the only way they know how, though the global system as ‘9-5’ clock on/clock off. Once you begin your career, they may become more supportive of your goals.

[Zodd42]

I hope so. You are right that they want to help. I'm not sure they will support my goals... They do provide me with a home and dinner, but in their strict fundamentalist worldview I am "the enemy." Imagine being gay and having to come out to your fundamentalist parents... this is what I feel like! Really they know very little about me.

To give you an idea what I'm up against: Growing up I wasn't allowed to watch Scooby-Doo or the Smurfs etc. because if I did I would supposedly become some kind of Satanic Warlock. I was forced to go to church 3+ times a week, and get bedtime stories from the Bible. If I disobeyed I was told "Rebellion is the sin of witchcraft" and was beaten with a 2x4 in the cellar. Anything "ungodly" I brought into the house was broken or burned. I hid my art growing up because I was afraid it would be destroyed. I STILL hide my art from my parents. Their idea of art is a landscape, a bowl of fruit, or a portrait of Jesus.

Now I am being told I HAVE to have a job, I HAVE to go to school, and I HAVE to go to church. My dad will not hesitate to remove anything "ungodly" from his home, including me.

[Astrojewels]

Zodd42,

I presume you are speaking of your father with the discipline, it is fear that is within a person that has such an extreme need to control another, fear that they will succeed without direction, or without the deity in which they give all their spiritual power.

Perhaps the need for you to escape such a world during your childhood is what has allowed you to become so deep with color and art, escapism can actually be an awakening to becoming a great artist. maybe you should get a part time job, so that you have the money to still do your art and move out, or go to college and do something around art, it is a wide choice now. Education can be a very useful tool in this world.

What do you want to do?