05-08-2007, 03:03 AM
Okay, I have decided to post this dream I had last night. I am not asking for any interpretations on it, I just thought it was interesting and you might find it interesting also. To me, this dream just reinforces the fact that I am still being ââ¬Ëusedââ¬â¢ for something, as much as I want to deny all of this stuff. And now that I have quit smoking and am ââ¬Ëcleaningââ¬â¢ myself out, it seems like maybe they are trying to reinforce things that have gone stale. I have noticed one big difference though in my dreams of late; I am now fighting back instead of just ââ¬Ëgoing with the flowââ¬â¢ or running and hiding. And I donââ¬â¢t seem to be as scared as I used to be.
This dream started out where I was with a high school friend of mine. She asked if I wanted to get something to eat, and I said sure. I just assumed that she would go to a fast food place because I still had on my pajamas (the same ones I really had on), but she went into a bar. I was kind of upset ââ¬â not only because I didnââ¬â¢t like bars, but as I said; I only had on my pajamas. But I just pulled my coat over my pjs and went in with her.
We sat down at the bar and she ordered a drink. I didnââ¬â¢t really want any drink because I donââ¬â¢t drink, but the bartender and my friend kept on bugging me so I finally ordered a ââ¬ÅWhite Cadillac.ââ¬Â Then my friend saw some other friends walking in and she moved over about 4 stools so that they could sit in between us. I recognized a couple of the people who came in. One was another friend from high school and a couple of others were friends I knew in grade school. Anyway, I guess my friends from high school were angry at each other for some reason, and I kind of just sat to the side, out of the picture.
Suddenly some Latino males were there. I donââ¬â¢t know if they were friends of my friends or not, but they kept on getting really vulgar with me, trying to touch me, etc. I kept on pushing them away and pulling my coat closer around me.
Now this is where the dream gets really strange. Suddenly everyone was going home. For some reason I wasnââ¬â¢t with them and I had to walk home. As I walked, I entered a surreal ââ¬ÅAlice In Wonderlandââ¬Â type world. It seemed like no matter where I went, I was presented with strange obstacles. And I always seemed to be being ââ¬Ëledââ¬â¢ to go certain ways. When I would refuse to go the way I knew ââ¬Ëtheyââ¬â¢ wanted me to go, the obstacles seemed even harder; almost like I was being ââ¬Ëpunishedââ¬â¢ for not following directions.
I canââ¬â¢t really remember exact details of all the weird things that happened, but I do remember a couple. One was where there were two clean paths for me to go down through a type of forest. I didnââ¬â¢t want to go down either one because they so obviously wanted me to go that way, so I chose a third way. I went into this kind of room where I opened this door. When I opened it, I looked down and saw that I was looking at sky. It was like in there, the world was turned upside down. I was trying to decide if I wanted to go through that ââ¬Ëdoorââ¬â¢ and take the chance that I would just fall and keep on falling; or that I would end up upside down and have to make my way that way. In the end, I decided that I didnââ¬â¢t want to take the chance, and I went back to the paths.
I chose one and the forest seemed to come alive, grabbing and scratching me at every opportunity. It also seemed like the ground was rubber and I had a lot of trouble making my way along it.
Then there was another part I remembered: I came out of my last obstacle and I saw ahead of me, what looked like, a normal town. But behind me I saw some people with birdcages on their head. I just thought they were weirdoes. I heard someone say that I was going to need a birdcage because of all the birds. I looked and did see a lot of birds flying around, but I thought that I could just hold some paper that I had, over my head and I would be okay. I started out, but the birds soon started attacking me and I had to run back to my beginning spot again. I didnââ¬â¢t have a birdcage, and no one seemed ready to give me theirs, so I just stood there for a minute wondering what I should do. Then this person (kind of like someone who didnââ¬â¢t want to be known) showed me a handful of nuts. She put some in my hand and I got the idea that I was supposed to throw them out at the birds. I wondered if this was really going to work, but I went out there and as the birds started attacking, I threw out some of the nuts in the air. The birds all went crazy flying for the nuts and left me alone. So that was how I got through that obstacle; every time the birds tried to attack me, I threw them some of the nuts and they would leave me alone.
After what seemed like an impossible task that went on forever, I was just about to give in and do whatever it was ââ¬Ëtheyââ¬â¢ wanted me to, when I heard someone say that I had had enough and they should let me go. I was so happy that I had made it through and was getting ready to just go home; when ââ¬Ëtheyââ¬â¢ decided it hadnââ¬â¢t been enough and began this strange rubbery, morphing world again. It swallowed up the people who had said that they should let me go, and I thought: here I go again. I seemed to remember hearing a disembodied voice saying: ââ¬Åso, you seem to think youââ¬â¢ve had enough? You just want to go home?ââ¬Â And then the last thing I remember is the ââ¬Ëvoiceââ¬â¢ asking me if I wanted to try (?). I recoiled and said no, but I remember falling (?) onto something that sure seemed like an ââ¬Ëanal probe,ââ¬â¢ and I woke up sucking in my breath. I could still ââ¬Ëfeelââ¬â¢ something, like it had been in me.
This dream started out where I was with a high school friend of mine. She asked if I wanted to get something to eat, and I said sure. I just assumed that she would go to a fast food place because I still had on my pajamas (the same ones I really had on), but she went into a bar. I was kind of upset ââ¬â not only because I didnââ¬â¢t like bars, but as I said; I only had on my pajamas. But I just pulled my coat over my pjs and went in with her.
We sat down at the bar and she ordered a drink. I didnââ¬â¢t really want any drink because I donââ¬â¢t drink, but the bartender and my friend kept on bugging me so I finally ordered a ââ¬ÅWhite Cadillac.ââ¬Â Then my friend saw some other friends walking in and she moved over about 4 stools so that they could sit in between us. I recognized a couple of the people who came in. One was another friend from high school and a couple of others were friends I knew in grade school. Anyway, I guess my friends from high school were angry at each other for some reason, and I kind of just sat to the side, out of the picture.
Suddenly some Latino males were there. I donââ¬â¢t know if they were friends of my friends or not, but they kept on getting really vulgar with me, trying to touch me, etc. I kept on pushing them away and pulling my coat closer around me.
Now this is where the dream gets really strange. Suddenly everyone was going home. For some reason I wasnââ¬â¢t with them and I had to walk home. As I walked, I entered a surreal ââ¬ÅAlice In Wonderlandââ¬Â type world. It seemed like no matter where I went, I was presented with strange obstacles. And I always seemed to be being ââ¬Ëledââ¬â¢ to go certain ways. When I would refuse to go the way I knew ââ¬Ëtheyââ¬â¢ wanted me to go, the obstacles seemed even harder; almost like I was being ââ¬Ëpunishedââ¬â¢ for not following directions.
I canââ¬â¢t really remember exact details of all the weird things that happened, but I do remember a couple. One was where there were two clean paths for me to go down through a type of forest. I didnââ¬â¢t want to go down either one because they so obviously wanted me to go that way, so I chose a third way. I went into this kind of room where I opened this door. When I opened it, I looked down and saw that I was looking at sky. It was like in there, the world was turned upside down. I was trying to decide if I wanted to go through that ââ¬Ëdoorââ¬â¢ and take the chance that I would just fall and keep on falling; or that I would end up upside down and have to make my way that way. In the end, I decided that I didnââ¬â¢t want to take the chance, and I went back to the paths.
I chose one and the forest seemed to come alive, grabbing and scratching me at every opportunity. It also seemed like the ground was rubber and I had a lot of trouble making my way along it.
Then there was another part I remembered: I came out of my last obstacle and I saw ahead of me, what looked like, a normal town. But behind me I saw some people with birdcages on their head. I just thought they were weirdoes. I heard someone say that I was going to need a birdcage because of all the birds. I looked and did see a lot of birds flying around, but I thought that I could just hold some paper that I had, over my head and I would be okay. I started out, but the birds soon started attacking me and I had to run back to my beginning spot again. I didnââ¬â¢t have a birdcage, and no one seemed ready to give me theirs, so I just stood there for a minute wondering what I should do. Then this person (kind of like someone who didnââ¬â¢t want to be known) showed me a handful of nuts. She put some in my hand and I got the idea that I was supposed to throw them out at the birds. I wondered if this was really going to work, but I went out there and as the birds started attacking, I threw out some of the nuts in the air. The birds all went crazy flying for the nuts and left me alone. So that was how I got through that obstacle; every time the birds tried to attack me, I threw them some of the nuts and they would leave me alone.
After what seemed like an impossible task that went on forever, I was just about to give in and do whatever it was ââ¬Ëtheyââ¬â¢ wanted me to, when I heard someone say that I had had enough and they should let me go. I was so happy that I had made it through and was getting ready to just go home; when ââ¬Ëtheyââ¬â¢ decided it hadnââ¬â¢t been enough and began this strange rubbery, morphing world again. It swallowed up the people who had said that they should let me go, and I thought: here I go again. I seemed to remember hearing a disembodied voice saying: ââ¬Åso, you seem to think youââ¬â¢ve had enough? You just want to go home?ââ¬Â And then the last thing I remember is the ââ¬Ëvoiceââ¬â¢ asking me if I wanted to try (?). I recoiled and said no, but I remember falling (?) onto something that sure seemed like an ââ¬Ëanal probe,ââ¬â¢ and I woke up sucking in my breath. I could still ââ¬Ëfeelââ¬â¢ something, like it had been in me.