11-28-2005, 02:23 AM
this is something that i've noticed.. and i was wondering about other people and their experiences o.O basically..
in the past.. two months or so, i've been up and down [doing lots of my release work, etc. and then doing nothing but partying.. and work. and nothing o.O] i'd meet new people all sorts. .. even customers that would remind me of other people at other times of my life. there was a time when i was younger, where i'm sure there was something that was making me self-destruct.. except i love life, so why would i have this increadibly weird CRAVING for death? at the time i didn't know, i wanted answers to questions which i've never really placed into words.. but which have always driven me to find an answer, to find truth. at this time, that drive was covered by a blotch of black crud, and then i met a guy. being ignorant, alone, and very depressed, i immediatly gathered all the bits of courage to talk to him, etc. we hooked up, a year and half later after living together, sex, drugs, and rock and roll life style.., it was done. i said bye to drugs, alcohol, meat!, make-up, hair dye, everything? a bit later hooked up with another person..yadadada, picked up old [pot/alcohol.ciggies] habit..dropped it again? up and down, bouncy bouncy. i realised rescently i don't need to bounce. nyway, at my work i'd met a few ppl.. at first it didn't occur to me.. but then it was IN MY FACE.. so blatantly obvious that these ppl tottaly mirror this weird attitude/mind-pattern i had at the ago of the 'sex, drugs n rock and roll' basically.. i didn't learn my lesson.. so i attracted the same sort of ppl to bring out that same ol' gal from back when.. and that's exactly what happened.. the ppl came and so did the gal.. except i'm still me and i'm very irritated with my self.. haha.
so, does anyone else have any stories to share of attracting like-experiences /people ?
thanks;)
in the past.. two months or so, i've been up and down [doing lots of my release work, etc. and then doing nothing but partying.. and work. and nothing o.O] i'd meet new people all sorts. .. even customers that would remind me of other people at other times of my life. there was a time when i was younger, where i'm sure there was something that was making me self-destruct.. except i love life, so why would i have this increadibly weird CRAVING for death? at the time i didn't know, i wanted answers to questions which i've never really placed into words.. but which have always driven me to find an answer, to find truth. at this time, that drive was covered by a blotch of black crud, and then i met a guy. being ignorant, alone, and very depressed, i immediatly gathered all the bits of courage to talk to him, etc. we hooked up, a year and half later after living together, sex, drugs, and rock and roll life style.., it was done. i said bye to drugs, alcohol, meat!, make-up, hair dye, everything? a bit later hooked up with another person..yadadada, picked up old [pot/alcohol.ciggies] habit..dropped it again? up and down, bouncy bouncy. i realised rescently i don't need to bounce. nyway, at my work i'd met a few ppl.. at first it didn't occur to me.. but then it was IN MY FACE.. so blatantly obvious that these ppl tottaly mirror this weird attitude/mind-pattern i had at the ago of the 'sex, drugs n rock and roll' basically.. i didn't learn my lesson.. so i attracted the same sort of ppl to bring out that same ol' gal from back when.. and that's exactly what happened.. the ppl came and so did the gal.. except i'm still me and i'm very irritated with my self.. haha.
so, does anyone else have any stories to share of attracting like-experiences /people ?
thanks;)
