06-19-2011, 02:51 PM
Sifter Wrote:I guess I will stay signed on for now. Had a bad day yesterday and was a bit overwhelmed.Take care of yourself first--you have given a lot of sincere energy here to the site; and I have appreciated reading your posts as a fellow ex-exp. It is ok to take a break--any forum I have ever been on will always have those people who are just here to waste their and your time.
But to those core members who remain here to bear witness to our experience, a great thanks to you faithful few. I do not judge your depth of anger and hurt to do what you feel you must do or say; that is your truth, and there is always a something to be learned from truth-bearers; those who fearlessly engage in their own inner battles. So even when I am not posting, there is still some value for me to remain present and listen and bit more.
I, myself after a few good vents here have found that there are so many areas of life that I have neglected and been distracted from because of my involvement with Expansions, that I need to now focus my energy on rebuilding and reviving the parts that I allowed to be sucked by those vampires.
Like waking from a bad dream, at first I didn't know it was a bad dream until I started touching the ground beneath me again. It has a been a financial leak and worse yet realizing how S&J were negatively interfering in one's close relationships with others for 7 years and now I am dealing with the consequences, which are not so pleasant; but I prefer the truth no matter how difficult or distasteful.
In the end I choose to let this experience purge and strengthen my core. We all take wrong turns and get lost from our paths--that seems to be the nature of self-discovery and acquiring wisdom. The journey continues-- here's to navigating a path with a heart.
You my dear "Sifter" have a big heart--be with your tree spirits and rest.:)
Be well,
Eurydice
