There seems to be a strong bombardment of 'do nothing' at the moment. I have been feeling very unmotivated, or finding that time passes without my conscious awareness. It's like a kind of limbo I guess.
Also, I am working hard to release non-serving mind-patterns which does bring up some sabotage.
You are echoing my sentiments...the only difference is, I didn't know if I should post them or not...I guess you did it for me. V-Undecided
I don't know whether it's the time of year or what, but I have been feeling rather...blah. (I hate to use the word depressed.) I really should be excited, because in less than 3 weeks I will be going back to New Jersey to spend the holidays with my girls and grandchildren, but I just can't "get into the mood."
I also have been wondering where "time" has gone. It seems like just "yesterday" my youngest daughter was 10 years old and I was still married - now she's going to be 23! It just doesn't seem possible....where has the time gone? Although I know that "time" is an illusion, I seem to be noticing it more, the more it slips away from me.
Another thing I've been feeling is that people are angry or ignoring me. I realize that this is in my mind, but I just can't shake the feeling, and this is making me withdraw into myself more.
So I guess the answer to your question is...yes - I am having those types of issues.
I'm still feeling the 'blah' syndrome. I can think of a number of things to post, but it seems too much effort.
I am frustrated by my current situation, living with my family. I decided to stay here for a while to look at my outpicturing and reflections, but it feels like I am never going to get out. I know any cage or prison is an illusion, so I have to keep digging to see why I feel like I am so stuck.
It is like a Grand Canyon between me and my dreams, and I'm trying to figure out how to make the bridge. I get dispirited and melancholy feeling like they're all 'pie in the sky'.
The ELF here is also very strong, with all the tectonic shifting, and volcanoes preparing to blow. Being aware of this danger creates a feeling of unreality. Such a large disaster seems impossible when I watch all these people going about their sheeple business, and yet I can feel the uplifting on an energetic level.
I have just had enough of all the stagnant cycles and relationships, and want to strengthen my connections to my Oversoul Family. Each time I try and focus on what I want and need I get confused and wonder what I really do want.
After seeing what Janet and Stewart have done to get help, I think perhaps I need to allow help myself. To continue that reflection, I figure there must be opportunities and people just waiting for me to give the word. I just need to work out where I need help I guess!
I've been feeling like this too--I am supposed to be studying extremely hard and getting things done on time..but I am just floating. I feel like hanging out and socializing with people..and I do that..and then the other problem is..I shirk my responsibilities...and if I don't hang out, I'm at home hanging out on the internet. This is bad...but compared to last year, I didn't have much of a social life and I was fighting similar issues of being at home and not getting stuff done. So instead of being home, I'm escaping by socializing.
I feel guilty if I don't get the work done. I know that I should be studying everyday so that the information doesn't get stored temporarily but permanently. The classes I'm taking are not easy and I don't know why I'm not meeting up to the challenges.
However, when I do it, it gets done easily and with minimal difficulties..even if its last minute. It's weird.
I want to work on this too...How do you guys work this issue out?
ALso, I wonder if I shouldn't be studying at all but just going out to experience life with friends. Who knows.
My parents will kill me if I don't get good grades this semester because I socialized.
At least you guys are still "young." You still have your whole lives ahead of you. You can still do anything you put your mind to. Any you are doubly lucky, you found out early about all of this stuff so you have a "leg up" on the others who found out later in life - like me. I'm an "old fogy" now and I feel like my whole life has been wasted - and I still haven't accomplished any of my "dreams." At least I did get 4 beautiful daughters and some wonderful grandchildren - but then I wonder how lucky are they since I passed on my inherited "programming" onto them - poor kids...and they don't even realize or believe in this stuff, so I feel...how can I help them?
Monica, I know how you feel about being in a "self-imposed" prison. I feel that way all the time, and I still haven't figured out how to end it. A lot of the times I feel that the only way to end it is to end me, but then "they" would have won, and I don't really want that to happen, so I trudge on...hoping that one of these days my Oversoul will give me a brilliant idea to break the bars that bind me.
Purple Parrot, don't give up on your schooling. You may not realize it yet, but you will be very sorry in the future if you give up and just spend your days "partying" and just "living life." The more you learn, the more you will know. And the more you know, the more fuel you will have to fight all of this stuff. So hang in there. The Powers That Be would love for you to give up and just spend all of your time "socializing," you would eventually become brain dead and that much easier to program. Don't do it!
Anchor yourself to oversoul, use a violet hose from the oversoul to suck up any blue colors from the heart chakra. Then replace the blue colors with green. Finally, ground.
wow, those are fantastic tips, silver infinity, i used to do that before, with violet hoses to suck out any and all negativity, they came back sometimes but as information... great stuff
as for feelings of blah, if you find yourself feeling stagnant and seperated, use the attach frequencies/completions from the healer's handbook. it is photon, hook, high energy, completions, very good to releve precisely those feelings .the problem could be using too much brown, or your choice of clothes. i use to use it while traveling to help with carrying that extra baggage around. gets old ingering things completed easily by bringing them to mind. that plus consious release to oversoul, absolutely grand for getting back on your feet.
The colors should stop returning when the mind-pattern's changed. But the person gets good breathing space to work on mind-patterns after releasing the colors. And Stewart suggested replacing the colors too (so that the old colors will stay out longer I guess).
Thanks for the template information. I'll try that out. But Marta suggested the following template with three archetypes for an archetypical sentence. Do you think the following template should work too?
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Author: Marta
I removed the fuzziness in her jpg image, enriched the colors, and added a glowing effect. Hope she doesn't mind I post it here
wOW. i've been feeling pretty irritated with my self mostly due to the lack of productivity. honestly i feel like i'm reaching the last straw.. and the only person standing in my way is that girl that looks back at me everyday in the mirror.
so yes, the bleh feelingness is about.. but i find when i come here.. or the expansions forum, browse, and read about other people's progress, a few affirmations.. its like things sort of come together just so i can get rid of the discouragement and keep at it. i haven't been using the attach frequencies; complete cycles template for a bit, but as Diego mentionned above it is very handy with this sort of non-productivness ness. i also found this one to be handy.. however what i did was use it .. and then i got lazy, i didn't want to face what was.. well in my face...o.O its understanding and high energy: [i'll drop the other template underneath as the pic above didn't show ;) ]
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