Feeling Triggered

[Richard]

I loaned a friend a Montauk tour video and he said that wasn’t able to finish watching it because he felt trigged when he seen the boys cages. He said that he wasn’t used at Montauk but seeing the cages triggered him.

This thing about being triggered puzzles me a little. I know a lot of people that talk about being triggered by things but I can see those same things and not feel triggered. I’m wondering what people feel when they say they feel triggered. I’m wondering if I’m being triggered by these things and don’t notice it or not triggered at all. Is being triggered so unmistakable that you know it when it happens?

[DreamTime]

Wow, he really couldn't finish them, huh?  I'm the same way as you are about being "triggered."  I find myself purposely watching or reading things that other people say "trigger" them, and I have yet to have any kind of reaction.  Although I did get a "sick stomach" feeling when we watched that one video - remember?  I don't know if that was just coincidence or not - or yeah, I forgot...there are no coincidences. :slywink:

[Richard]

He is now loaning the videos to Lorraine and we’ll see if she gets triggered. I didn’t remember you getting sick to your stomach when you watch the video. So that must be one of the signs of being triggered huh?  

[DreamTime]

Who's Lorraine?  Yeah, remember each time we watched the videos - the ones that had Junior in them - I had to leave and go lie down for a bit?  Maybe it was nothing more than being too tired...I don't know.  But nothing else seems to affect me - at least not consciously.

[Richard]

You know who Lorraine is. She is one of the artists for Expansions and she runs the LSG meetings. I wonder why Jr. would trigger you?

[PurpleParrot]

When I watch violent movies these days, I get shocked, disturbed and a part of me thinks its happening to me. Is this a type of trigger? I keep myself in merger and violet protection though..and when I get the chance, I try to violet flush the images or send it up to the oversoul but its not always that I get to do this.

When I read BBTB, and was reading the chapter "Ritual In Red" about two or three years back, I felt like I knew what was going to happen before I turned the page and I felt like I really resonated with Stewart when he wrote all of what he wrote. I felt that was a powerful chapter and a very powerful book altogether. I wonder if this was a trigger reaction also? I didn't think at that time I initially read the book to keep myself in merger.

I may read it again to see what my new reaction is.

[Richard]

PurpleParrot, That’s interesting that you say part of you thinks its happening to you. That reminds me of DreamTime being able to watch strange sick Sci-Fi movies but she couldn’t play more than a minute of Resident Evil. She acted like everything was happening to her. She was scared out of her mind. Actually it was funny watching her react to the game. :unibrow: I can’t say that movies or games have ever done that to me.

The friend who got triggered said he was going to need to ground himself well before he tries to watch the Montauk video again. It kind of surprised me that it was so difficult for him to watch it because it because I’ve seen it several times. Then DreamTime says she was also triggered by it. It makes me wonder why some people get triggered easier than others.

It does sound like that “Ritual In Red” may have triggered memories in you.

[Octahedron]

When I read BBTB, and was reading the chapter "Ritual In Red" about two or three years back, I felt like I knew what was going to happen before I turned the page and I felt like I really resonated with Stewart when he wrote all of what he wrote. I felt that was a powerful chapter and a very powerful book altogether. I wonder if this was a trigger reaction also? I didn't think at that time I initially read the book to keep myself in merger.

I may read it again to see what my new reaction is.

I've had the same reactions, also 2-3 years back. In another topic I wrote about this powerful chapter.

The triggering with me was more as an aggressive reaction and explosive anger to medical profession instead of recognizing Montauk scenarios or satanic rituals.

[PurpleParrot]

Hyperspace, I am still trying to determine if I am specifically programmed or not. It would be so weird if I am because I didn't think I'm the type of person who would be desirable to them and also it would take me a while to accept this idea that I've been used and abused by the powers that be. In a strange way, it might even be weird and probably even sick that I might even feel like I was somewhat special to someone even if it was a bunch of evil someone's and even if it was special in the sense as a special slave.

Also, Hyperspace, it is rather interesting what you said that Dream Time goes through when she watches sci fi movies. From childhood,I watched many sci fi movies and series for so many years. Some of my favorite sci - fi series were Star Trek:TNG, The X - Files,etc. I didn't mind watching gruesome stuff but after reading all these things about programming in the movies, I am a bit wary now and probably less desensitized to them. Scenes from LOTR, Resident Evil and Chronicles of Narnia,(which I won't mention because I don't want to trigger people) have made me feel all weirded out,disgusted, fearful, upset about the promotion of these triggers and subliminal messages and upset that mass consciousness is not waking up as fast as it should be, and a bit disturbed that there are so many creative ways to kill someone or something.

I am noticing that maybe DreamTime and I have a lot more in common than realized lol--I also have a chocolate addiction!!!

How are people coping with the holidays?? I'm trying to keep myself in violet but I feel like I'm getting triggered or bombarded. I gotta use more merger.

I think definitely being triggered by ELF and holiday times means snapping and changing into a state. For example, my friend said something and I just felt so angry and irritated by what they said even though I could have been more calmer about it. Also, I am around people who are saying they've been tired and their sleep schedules are all whacked. I am going through the same thing as well!! I also find myself sometimes saddened but I don't know if its because I've been using Golden N's on different areas of my body that I think are in need of healing.  I've been feeling an increased amount of shame, guilt, and sadness. I released a lot of it yesterday and felt much better but I don't know if its triggering or a combination of healing. Also people around me have been feeling depressed too--I do realize its holiday season and an increased amount of programming occurs around this time..I don't want to allow this to happen to me anymore.
 

 

[SilverInfinity]

My sleeping schedule is all wacked up too.  I tried to sleep all night after Christmas and finally fell asleep at 7am in the morning!  I have also been feeling depressed, low and suicidal these days.  ELF is major here in the cities.