Hi there A Silver 8 and Octahedron.Thankyou both for your wonderful, insightful and accurate comments.I agree with all of what both of you have written here about my Dream.Yes all i want is to settle down and find a nice girlfriend and also 'get away from it all'.Unfortunately i do believe my Mother is evil and yes she was involved in Witchcraft, Wicca and Kabbalah.My Father is psychic and when he was still married to my Mother he had many visions of her Auric Fields with a huge Green Serpent with ruby red eyes starring aggressivley and nastily at himMy Mother as a Priestess in Persia was involved in very powerful Sexual Ritual Magick and Bloodrites.Anyway i feel my Mother has interfered with my life for so long and this is why i do not wish to live to near to her and yes i feel her presence alot in my waking hours everyday.It is horrible sometimes. When you said A Silver 8:"The first step is to do release work of your mom and the Illuminati. Visualize the word "Mother" in big block letters at the Pineal Gland, see what comes up. Draw out on a notebook your concerns with your Mother.ÃÂ Then do standard deprogramming."I placed the word 'Mother' at my Pineal Gland and my Mothers face appeared with a Reptilian type skin overlaid onto hers with a yellow, narrow slit pupil eye starring at me nastily.The Astral Reptilian Entity is overlaid onto my Mothers Auric Fields and is intertwined into her Chakras and Mind Patterns.I have a lot of Dreams about beautiful young Women falling in love with me and then it is all sabotaged by some catastrophe or my Mother or Aliens or other family members.When you said Octahedron:"The beautiful woman represents your own soul personality in actual life in the physical world, still with good challenges for the future, but it feels limited because of the outerworld. But basically you are content with yourself."I fully understand this point and yes the beautiful Woman represents my Soul Personality and yes my ability to reach out to the right Woman is limited by my perception of the outer world. I am content to some extent as i am very self aware of who i am.My issues in Programming concern my Mother alot and also my feelings of Self Hatred, lack of Self Worth, Self Loathing and also isolation. Having a truelly positive Self Image of your own Masculinity and being 'manly' and feeling good and proud about being expressive in your identity is sometimes very hard work to achieve.Take care both of you.
