My Dream Of Loneliness And Conformity

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I was walking into an office block and suddenly was wearing a security uniform. The clock on the wall next to the life as i stepped out said i was early and then an aggressive and very eccentric man in a business suit came towards me and told me i was late by fifteen minutes.I said to him directly that he was a "liar" and i would "not play along with his game".He sat in the corner of the office, quivering and looking at me with a confused face.I looked around and a Lubovitchnum Chasidic Rabbi was watching me with concern as were three men in dark suits and ties and dark sunglasses.I looked with dismay at all of them. Then the Dream changed.I was walking down a street in Stoke Newington in London here in the UK and saw drug addicts and alcoholics everywhere. I saw a gang of four Eastern European men in a sports car mount the pavement and try to kidnap a young woman walking into her house.Then as i walked down the road it felt like i was in a movie and then i saw a myself in a swamp or marshland surrounded by soldiers. All the tanks were getting stuck in the mud. It was raining very heavily indeed.The tanks started open firing on their own soldiers and i saw a tank crush to death a soldier who got stuck underneath it in the mud and blood was bubbling up in the swamp everywhere.I then woke up.Your opinions and advice on my Dream would be very much appreciated.

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This is what I could come up with using Stewart's dictionary.

An Office Building is matrix constructs;

An Armed guard/Security guard is right brain protection. 

A Man in suit is Oversoul, but a Stern man is Internal Programmer. 

A Man sitting on a chair are alters taking your place. 

Men is right-brain; intuitive ideas, but 3 is the three levels of awareness; Conscious, Subconscious, and Superconscious. 

Lots of people are personality aspects, and Alcohol/drugs are altered states of reality. 

Car full of people is; Oversoul with various personality aspects as you go through life.  Europe (same as European?) is original or older way of thinking; old mind patterns. 

Woman is the left brain; ego self, and House is the Oversoul personality. 

Warrior (same as soldiers?): ready to fight for something.  Dead Body: eliminated alter.  Blood: the joy of life.

It sounds like your right brain was protecting you in the matrix from your Internal Programmer, and one of your alters took your place.  Then it sounds like you have intuitive ideas on all three levels of your awareness.

It also sounds like you have altered personality aspects in your life.  Maybe you are fighting with old mind patterns you can't or won't let go because of your ego? 

I don't know if I am right, and you may come up with something completely different from the meanings, but I hope you can get something out of this.

Good luck in your fight.

 

 

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Hi there Dragonfly.Thankyou for replying to my Dream.Wow, i totally agree with everything you said. I felt in the Dream i was battling to keep my individuality and identity even though all these repressive, militaristic male figures were trying to take it from me and make me conform to other peoples identities.Because of my intense and powerful lack of Self Worth and deep Self Hatred issues from early childhood to do with my Mother especially i have had to fight and battle hard to stay focused in my life and this has cuased horrendous stress.My Intuition is very strong and in the Dream all the men there felt robotic and very cold. When you said:"It sounds like your right brain was protecting you in the matrix from your Internal Programmer, and one of your alters took your place. It also sounds like you have altered personality aspects in your life.  Maybe you are fighting with old mind patterns you can't or won't let go because of your ego? "I sat back in amazement Dragonfly. You words are so true and make perfect sense in my Mind.Thankyou for helping me with this Dream. In retrospect it sounds like my Right Brain has become very successful in as much as on a Subconscious level i am Deprogramming and breaking free from my Programming.Could you exemplify on what you mean by "then it sounds like you have intuitive ideas on all three levels of your awareness."Do you think my 'intuitive ideas' are from my Deprogramming or perhaps God Mind connection or a combination of those and Hyperspace Healing Techniques?Yes i am battling with childhood issues of deep Subconscious Programming and Negative Thought Patterns expecially to do with my views on Women, Sexuality, my Masculinity, my Identity and also my Self Hatred, Self Loathing and Self Hurt that i have continually and very repetively gone through on a daily basis for the last 30 odd years but now all these issues are being addressed and it is hard work and very scary to look inwards but i am used to it and my Life Journey is about walking the path of change and growing as well as completely Deprogramming my Subconscious Mind from childhood imprinting by my Mother and also to some extent my Father both of whom are very Programmed. Thankyou once again Dragonfly. Your help with my Dream has really helped alot and i will think over carefully your wonderful words and advice.Take care my friend.

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Hi Avatar,

I'm glad I was somewhat right with your dream.  I wish I could be better at it, and I wish that I could do it all the time, but the truth is, I don't know where all that came from last night.  I think I was in another alter when I was studying all these dreams and symbols.  I was sitting at my computer for so many hours, that I really messed up my back big time.  I have been in pain all night and day.  Something came over me yesterday, and I just got into the "zone." :lach:  Now I have to learn how to stay there.

As for the "intuitive ideas," I guess you first have to figure out what ideas you have had lately.  In both your waking state and your dream state.  Does anything in particular stand out?  The reason I say/ask this is because it sounds like some idea or ideas is/are trying to reach you through all your levels of consciousness.  Maybe it does have to do with your deprogramming.  It sounds like some of your alters are being killed off or "merged" back into you - which is a good thing.  But it also sounds like you are letting other alters take over for you when things get tough. 

I wish to "heck" I could be more help to you, but I just am not in the "zone" today.:doh: