New Relationship

[William]

  Even through Love and through Pain I have cried.....  Now I look back and wonder why Im not crying still?  Am I stronger?  Am I more loving?  Have I learned my lessons?  Or have I become Harder, less caring?  One day you too might look back and wonder why your not crying now........  Then I will cry for you!

 

:crybaby:

We all need a good cry sometimes!

[Astrojewels]

Very nice William.

Sunshine,
I do not think you are recreating the sadness, but I do feel that your tears go beyond this relationship, even though it is obvious that this woman has inserted some layering into your programming, I feel that she has also triggered something else within you, something that you have kept sheltered maybe from other life-streams or from this one. Are you becoming more isolated? Are you still not eating? And are you finding yourself unable to do things you would normally do as all you can focus on is this woman? Your oversoul can accept all things that you send up, but it does take the determination of your spirit to get on top of things, it would seem that she interfered with the spirit essence, this is common for people of specific programs and all endure a relationship that can activate the remaining of the layers, it is complex but that is what I feel has happened. The main objective is to make the person feel isolated and alone.

[Sunshine]

Thanks William, I thought about that too as well. Astrojewel, I don't think I'm becoming more isolated, I've been spending more time with friends and family lately. Before I met her I think I was actually more isolated and alone I just was more numb about it. The pain and sadness I've felt from this has actually made me more motivated to take responsibility for things than ever before. Mostly I think about her at night and in the morning, so during the day I've been doing well for the most part. Sometimes feel this sunk in feeling in my chest, from crying so much. One thing I know after going through this is I will become stronger no matter what and I'm through with these types of experiences. I'm still exploring what she actually means to me. If she had some programming purpose could you say she would have to be someone special to reach me at such a deep level or could any girl do the job?

[Astrojewels]

Hi sunshine,
Glad to hear you are getting out and about, you must have some strong placements, especially the mars, and you have awareness, even if it is not on the conscious level, you are still able to see what is happening to you, this is great. no, not any girl could do this to you, this girl would have to hold the correct frequency for you to be so triggered by the experience, and you were only together for a short time, which also makes me think it was not a chance meeting.
The sunken feeling in your chest is your heart chakra doing overtime, it will not hurt it and all the chakras can filter out as much emotions as we put into them. Work on this chakra, eat green food, wear green clothes, remember it is a medium green, some crystals to carry – aventurine or jade. I think you are doing exceptionally well considering and it is fantastic that you can see what is going on and working your way through it, it is deprogramming in motion, big cheers and applause from me.

[AndrewX]

Is this serious?  Are you being serious sunshine?  Because if you are you may wish another opinion on this ummmm relationship of yours. 

Firstly Sunshine all girls and women LOVE hugs and kisses.  If you haven't yet landed a few beauties on her it is no wonder you're feeling like you maybe losing her.  Secondly, most women decide in the FIRST 2 minutes of seeing you whether or not they would like to go to bed with you.  What's this "1month later I'm having bad feelings about it?" LOLOL  1 month later most are practicing having kids... hard on too.  Your probaly feeling doubt about her btw because she's met and gone to bed with another man but hasn't consolidated a full term relationship with them.  Which believe it or not, is to your advantage... it means she's still looking. 

Mate, you best get out of that depression rut you're in and hurry up and let her know what your real intentions are...  go out with her, have a dance and a glass of wine and then sit her down and let her know what it is you want... while your're kissing and caressing her Sunshine... not while you fumbling with your glass of water.  Whatsmore if you don't start feeling really good within yourself real fast then how do expect others to?

Unless of course your having us on Sunshine???  I'm still out on that one.:discust:  Anyway, if you're not havign us on Sunshine, then you can either do it the way many others woudl advise and take your time doing this and take you time doing that... while she finds someone else.  Or, you can conjour the nerve that you need and MUST have to establish a real affair.  No one's going to do all the hard work for you and then hand it over on a platter Sunshine because if they do they'll keep it for themsleves I'm afraid.

...and btw, if you start sooking in front of her, you best pack it in and move onto the next one.  Girls are seeking strength and protection and if you start crying in front of her you'll be indirectly telling her that you need the protection and only opposites attract.

I hope that helps. 

[Sunshine]

Hey Andrew, not sure what part of my posts you read but I think it was a little different from your understanding. Thanks though for the input but for now its over.

[AndrewX]

I'll tell you sunshine I only read the first 2 posts at the beginning of the thread and then I skim-read a few more just picking up the main few things of each.  Sorry if I got in too late but let me tell you this... everything in life is a learning curve. 

There is nothing that others have got which you haven't when it comes to finding a partner.  But you just need to be self assured of what you want.  Once you are then move on it as swiftly as possible without scaring the other person off by moving too fast.  What some people feel who are looking for a prospective partner that seems to take too long to make the right move is that the other person may not be so intrested in them - otherwise why would they be taking so long?  If you know what I mean.  That then puts the the person we are trying to approach on the defense.  That 'that' is NOT what you want.  Resistance is the last thing you need to create is any prospective partner.  Once it's created, it is doubly hard to remove. 

If one simply 'went with the flow' and avoided over thinking and over questioning the situation and treated it for what it really is, a delightful discovery of 2 similar spirits, then the entire happening should be one similar to meeting a good old friend or a brother or sister.  Not one of meeting a stranger whom we don't know nor trust... and that 'trust' includes knowing and feeling that they do find interest is us as we in them.  Thereafter the entire affair is one of delight with a light hearted ambience and joyous feeling all round... 'doubt' has no hold and must not be allowed to take hold in such realms.

Look at yourself in the mirror and tell yourself you can do it... and mean it, and you will.  Always remember when it comes to relationships... there's NO time like NOW, and it's never the 'kill' but the 'thrill' of the chase that makes it all worth while.  Many people, and I won't mention any names (lol), pursue relationship after relationship merely for teh thrill of the chase... once it's over, for them, most of it is over.  So when chasing Sunshine, savour the moment, don't let it overpower you with emotion and make you do things you wouldn't do under pressure.  This 'pressure' brings us face to face with our inner being and I know that can be a scary thing but it's NOT something you should allow to bring you to your knees.  Rejoice in the truth that's confronted you but don't let it overpower you, and everything else will flow much smoother.  

Good luck next time and just make it happen... you deserve no less. 

Take care.:)

[Sunshine]

Thanks Andrew, the we were actually already together for a while the problem was my issues of abandonment which and I had a very difficult time handling it. Ultimately she broke up with me making my fears come true. I've been doing a lot of release work these last two weeks, I already cried over a life times worth of crying. I'm moving forward now. Thanks for the sentiments Andrew, I very much appreciate it.

[Astrojewels]

Sunshine,
Have not heard from you in awhile, how are you going and feeling now?

[Sunshine]

Hi, I've been up and down a lot. I went up to the mountains with some friends. For the most part I felt good except I still felt an undercurrent of sadness during the whole trip. The last night I couldn't sleep for some reason I had a major headache. When got home I was overwhelmed with sadness so I cried for a while. Wanting to get up out of bed has been hard, I have lots of goals but its been difficult making them seem urgent.

Thanks Karen for asking about me. One thing I do everyday is I make sure to call at least someone so as to eliminate my isolation mentallity. It seems like I'm making progress but much slower than I would have wanted.

Do you know anything about the numerology that Stewart and Janet use? Janet said I had to get as much things done as possible before my birthday which is in January otherwise I'll be doing those things for the whole year. Since I'm 29 and 2+9=11 new beggining and 3+0 = 3 which is perfection so I'll be perfecting what I started. I'm a bit unsure how that works. Does that mean things won't change much after turn 30 for that year? Is this like a current that helps you move along and hard to go against?