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After seeking assistance for an issue that would not go away despite many attempts, I was told I have a repressed memory of something that happened when I was about 9 yrs old. I know what allegedly happened but I have no memory of it. The methods used by this health practitioner are difficult for me to understand or explain, despite the fact I have been researching this sort of thing for years.
Anyway, I've always had mixed feelings about repressed memories and wonder if anyone out there has had experience or an opinion on this.
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Well Blue Moon,
I, also, have many repressed memories. In fact, probably about 60 - 65% of my childhood is gone. I have tried many of the methods that other groups have said to try, but they just don't seem to work for me. I do wish that I could remember more of my childhood because it just bugs me not knowing. I can't even remember any of my birthdays. Even when I see a picture of me at my party with everyone around me - I can not remember it. It is just so frustrating!
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Hi blue moon,
Memories are repressed for a reason, and believe it or not sometimes best kept in the mind-vault. When you begin the journey of deprogramming a structured pattern is formed -step by step. Memories will surface one after the other so that you can be challenged to overcome them but only one at a time or these can send you into a deep altered state.
There are many programmed people out there that have had techniques suggested or taught to them, but resurfacing these memories has actually put them to a point of no return because they remember occurrences that become mind shattering, things about their parents and family.
The age of 9 is imperative to the specifically programmed person, because it is the age where the 2nd cycle begins and the base chakra is activated, it is the time when this area begins to become stimulated, the body begins to change mentally, spiritually and physically, and also when the education system begins to dominate the left brain interaction- life becomes a lot more serious.
If you are specifically programmed, then this age would surely have memories of some form of ritual. I would not push the memory; I would build up self confidence and better understand who you are as a whole. The memory will come when the time is right to conquer it. The more you try to find it, the farther it will be lost.
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Thank you Dream Time and Astrojewels. I honestly don't know how to respond right now. I can't describe what I am feeling even to myself. I need some time to digest all of this.
I realzed I don't have a lot of childhood memories either, Dream Time. I have some but they are vague. I also feel there are gaps in memory. And Astrojewels, I agree with what you said. Somehow I instinctively know, I should take this slow.
I wrote to this Forum because it is the only place I know that there would be people who understood and could possibly provide some experiences with this.
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Blue Moon, I had the same dissociative childhood. There are still gaps in my memories. At least you are not alone on this forum.:) You know, my mom blocked out so much when my sisters and I were children. We would ask her stuff all of the time about our childhood and she would not remember.
Lots of times she would say things and have no memory of having said them. And we would say, "But Mom, you said blah, blah, blah." She would say, "No, I didn't." When we were older, my youngest sister, enterprising person that she is, taped my mom saying something without her knowing it and later on my sister played this back for her when she denied having said whatever it was. My mom passed her dissociative abilities down to me.
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Bluemoon,
I wish you luck and always remember to never doubt your internal strength because if you could not overcome these issues, they would never be a part of you.
Polly,
There are many people just like you who feel robbed of their childhood, and it is interesting what your sister done, but do you think your mother may have purposely been targeted with the dissociation so that she could not help you to retrace important moments to help piece your puzzle together? This happens especially in the monarch genetic line.
Polly,
I have to admit that I am like that somewhat with my girls. They will ask me if I remember doing such and such, or a certain birthday party, and I have to say no. It's not that I am purposely denying what they are remembering or saying, I honestly do not remember the same thing or the same way as they do.
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Karen, I think the dissociation is generational and intentional so things would not be remembered from generation to generation.
Dream Time, do you have better memories concerning one of your children or is it about the same with each?
I'm not sure, Polly. Not all of my girls have asked me to remember things. But sometimes the memory involved more than one of them. I remember them arguing with me about things that had happened and I kept on telling them, "Nope. Don't remember that."
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Was a bit confused with the thread title - Whats the difference between repressed and suppressed?
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