Thank you guys!! :o) It comes from experience--there was a time in my life I didn't really want to exist in this world but I had to pick up the pieces of myself and my life and move on forward. I had to force myself to believe there are reasons to look forward to things in life--I have a parrot at home--I had a dream about this bird around the time I was experiencing all of this. I wanted to experience love and I wanted to nurture another being--I wanted to conquer my fears. I still have to do it. It is time for me to release fear. Fear is what has been holding me back in this world and I no longer will allow fear and anger to rule my decisions but contribute to decisions in a balanced way.
There are wonderful things in this world to experience--I am letting myself break free slowly--Last year I did a lot of things that I haven't done before--I was able to drive out of state to different places on my own--for one. I broke out of that fear of socializing...and fear of my parents getting disappointed in me for socializing...I had wonderful experiences with people in my life. Last year was awesome...so I hope that this year will be the same. I am still trying to understand it all. There's still so many more things I need to do. I need to be strong and be confident.
I had a lot of interesting experiences last year...so I hope for more...if we let fear get in the way, we're really doing a disservice to ourselves..we're hurting ourselves from having awesome opportunities. we shouldn't hide anymore...physical reality shouldn't be scary..it should be enjoyable...
