02-08-2007, 03:10 PM
This particular forum has been quiet for a while so here is something to add to it:
Many times in my life I have awakened during the night or in the morning in the midst of some sort of powerful healing event. I feel rushes of energy waves passing throughout my bodies and there is such an enormous sense of relief involved. Tears of gratitude come to my eyes and I feel as though I am receiving a large dose of grace. There is always a specific theme attached and has to do with an emotional issue I was struggling with over time. This again happened a few mornings ago.
I knew a very long time ago that my will was broken over and over again and this made me compliant and easily led in ways that suited others. And I did not know just how true that statement was until I found out I had been programmed and how it was done. At the same time it bred a ferocious, yet usually in the background though still conscious and ever vigilant, stubbornness which grew in strength over the years to compensate for the acts of breaking my will and to compensate for the state of vulnerability I was always in because of deficit of will.
In later years anyone repeatedly trying to force their will on me or dominate me when I didn't want that was in for trouble of some kind or another. I may not have reacted outwardly right away but sooner or later I could not stand anymore. My internal reaction could be downright venomous at times and way out of proportion to the circumstance. This is what happens. The stubbornness becomes a part of the shadow because it was born of such trauma.
I am on the Edgar Cayce Thought for the Day emailing list. Each day I receive an email with one of his readings. One day last week the email of the day had to do with a reading Cayce gave to a parent who was having trouble with his or her child. Cayce advised the parent NOT to break the child's will as this would breed stubbornness. Don't I know it!!!
That was what my healing event was centered on a few mornings ago. All of the stubbornness energy and all of the the broken will energy received a flushing of grace and a merge. This does mean I will not feel stubborn anymore (I have already because it is an automatic, protective reaction which I need to continue working on) but something shifted in a major way that morning. I may need to retain some stubbornness until my will is properly restored, however long that may take.
Even after all of these years I find Cayce's works to be beneficial so thanks, Edgar!
Many times in my life I have awakened during the night or in the morning in the midst of some sort of powerful healing event. I feel rushes of energy waves passing throughout my bodies and there is such an enormous sense of relief involved. Tears of gratitude come to my eyes and I feel as though I am receiving a large dose of grace. There is always a specific theme attached and has to do with an emotional issue I was struggling with over time. This again happened a few mornings ago.
I knew a very long time ago that my will was broken over and over again and this made me compliant and easily led in ways that suited others. And I did not know just how true that statement was until I found out I had been programmed and how it was done. At the same time it bred a ferocious, yet usually in the background though still conscious and ever vigilant, stubbornness which grew in strength over the years to compensate for the acts of breaking my will and to compensate for the state of vulnerability I was always in because of deficit of will.
In later years anyone repeatedly trying to force their will on me or dominate me when I didn't want that was in for trouble of some kind or another. I may not have reacted outwardly right away but sooner or later I could not stand anymore. My internal reaction could be downright venomous at times and way out of proportion to the circumstance. This is what happens. The stubbornness becomes a part of the shadow because it was born of such trauma.
I am on the Edgar Cayce Thought for the Day emailing list. Each day I receive an email with one of his readings. One day last week the email of the day had to do with a reading Cayce gave to a parent who was having trouble with his or her child. Cayce advised the parent NOT to break the child's will as this would breed stubbornness. Don't I know it!!!
That was what my healing event was centered on a few mornings ago. All of the stubbornness energy and all of the the broken will energy received a flushing of grace and a merge. This does mean I will not feel stubborn anymore (I have already because it is an automatic, protective reaction which I need to continue working on) but something shifted in a major way that morning. I may need to retain some stubbornness until my will is properly restored, however long that may take.
Even after all of these years I find Cayce's works to be beneficial so thanks, Edgar!
