05-15-2011, 05:49 AM
Since 2001, I have been searching and searching, reading and meditating, looking for answers in the realm of being able to "achieve" enlightenment. I've looked in the conspiracy fields, I've turned to religion, I've looked everywhere, and "thinking" I was becoming enlightened, I realised yesterday, that it was my ego saying for the last 10 years that I've been making it! This couldn't be further from the truth.
I realised yesterday, (and this is the lightbulb that appeared above my head) is that enlightenment CAN NOT be achieved.
Let me clarify. The answer is simple. Your either ARE, or your are NOT. Simple as that. There is no 'achieving' levels of enlightenment, and that is the conspiracy I believe in the spiritual realm that has been pushed into the public by the so called powers that be.
The internet and libraries are filled with buddhist and other information on how one can try 'Awaken', or try reach Nirvana, and the logical mind - one that I have been massaging over the last 10 years saying I'm reaching an understanding of this 'achievement' is rather quite the opposite.
Saying "I have this" and "I've read that" and "So and So guru stated one must do this to ACHIEVE such a state" became more of an intellectual knowledge, but not necessarily being able to be IN this state.
Perhaps the word enlightenment is not the correct word. Perhaps even that gives a confusing mental image - people thinking its something that can be achieved.
Does 'achieve' give the mental image that you must 'acquire' such things whether material or mental?
I realised that its not the acquisition of knowledge or materialistic, or even status that gives one such a state... Again, its the total opposite. Once you REMOVE all that you know, REMOVE ALL beliefs about who and what you are, and your place in this Universe let alone in this world, will you realise, and have a niggling effect on your consciousness, that all these ACQUIRED knowledge and information in trying to achieve a higher state, is the actual thing that is holding you BACK.
Let me go over that again.
Once you can LET GO, of everything you hold onto in your thoughts, once you realise, that you, just like me, have such a little influence in the universe, and realise that perhaps you don't even EXIST, you will ponder, and perhaps even giggle a little to yourself at the realisation that achieving enlightenment is the biggest cosmic joke, that perhaps enlightenment is once you EMPTY everything that you hold dear, that the void must be filled, and the first thing that fills that void, will be the transition from trying to find it - to actually being in it - and thus having achieved it.
The best feeling I have had in 10 years was when I watched this youtube video - things suddenly became clear, and I was in the moment. Try not to analyse the moment if you begin to watch this video - rather, don't try anything at all - and see if your empty mind fills the void with the the best feeling one can have, and that is through laughter.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DfvgvDkdG2M
I realised yesterday, (and this is the lightbulb that appeared above my head) is that enlightenment CAN NOT be achieved.
Let me clarify. The answer is simple. Your either ARE, or your are NOT. Simple as that. There is no 'achieving' levels of enlightenment, and that is the conspiracy I believe in the spiritual realm that has been pushed into the public by the so called powers that be.
The internet and libraries are filled with buddhist and other information on how one can try 'Awaken', or try reach Nirvana, and the logical mind - one that I have been massaging over the last 10 years saying I'm reaching an understanding of this 'achievement' is rather quite the opposite.
Saying "I have this" and "I've read that" and "So and So guru stated one must do this to ACHIEVE such a state" became more of an intellectual knowledge, but not necessarily being able to be IN this state.
Perhaps the word enlightenment is not the correct word. Perhaps even that gives a confusing mental image - people thinking its something that can be achieved.
Does 'achieve' give the mental image that you must 'acquire' such things whether material or mental?
I realised that its not the acquisition of knowledge or materialistic, or even status that gives one such a state... Again, its the total opposite. Once you REMOVE all that you know, REMOVE ALL beliefs about who and what you are, and your place in this Universe let alone in this world, will you realise, and have a niggling effect on your consciousness, that all these ACQUIRED knowledge and information in trying to achieve a higher state, is the actual thing that is holding you BACK.
Let me go over that again.
Once you can LET GO, of everything you hold onto in your thoughts, once you realise, that you, just like me, have such a little influence in the universe, and realise that perhaps you don't even EXIST, you will ponder, and perhaps even giggle a little to yourself at the realisation that achieving enlightenment is the biggest cosmic joke, that perhaps enlightenment is once you EMPTY everything that you hold dear, that the void must be filled, and the first thing that fills that void, will be the transition from trying to find it - to actually being in it - and thus having achieved it.
The best feeling I have had in 10 years was when I watched this youtube video - things suddenly became clear, and I was in the moment. Try not to analyse the moment if you begin to watch this video - rather, don't try anything at all - and see if your empty mind fills the void with the the best feeling one can have, and that is through laughter.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DfvgvDkdG2M
