HeadSpace..Deprogramming diary

[Polly]

iqhunk[/color]]Plenty of info in your chart... am just outlining the basics.

Your Ascendant is in Capricorn and Asteroid Siva (male counterpart of Kaali) is precisley conjunct it.
No wonder you saw a red moon when the full moon was in Capricorn.
Your Moon is ripe for programming with a perfect trine (120 degrees) to Saturn.

Asteroid Sumeria also squares the Moon precisely, while conjuncting Venus in Scorpio. Middle of Scorpio, trining Star Sirius.
This can be a facilitation for programming from Astral Entities. Venus may rule earthly love and material values in classical Astrology, but it is also home to huge Reptilian Nests.
Jupiter conjunct Mars is one major plus in the chart.

Heavens to Mergatroyd!  I think you may have answered my question, iqhunk.  Jupiter conjuncting Mars in Pisces could be the reason I have felt such strong, Piscean energy coming from HeadSpace which kind of drowns out other energies.  No pun intended.  Hehe.

[HeadSpace]

Hey.. I do have some fiery qualities you know:P The leo moon is quite real and annoying. I just tend to get caught up in vibes, if I break through I have really strong fiery energy. That does happen some times:)

Both mars and jupiter are also in the first house, I guess that does something.

The thing about my chart that I feel is puzzling is the 8th house and the venus,pluto in scorpio thing:? As I wrote this I felt the keys on the board were put under shade.. In other wotds I sense darkness. That fits, I seem to be very disconnected from my own sexuality. For a while I thought this was a good thing.

[Polly]

icon_group3g  Now don't go all fiery on me, HeadSpace.  Hehe.  No, actually I think that fiery energy of yours is underneath and often operating outside of awareness until something pulls it forward, which you have already described previously; otherwise I would not be saying that.

[HeadSpace]

Thought I should mention that one of the reasons I tend to get a little jumpy when visualizing is that when I close my eyes I sense a presence there or several. I sort of see it, I know i can tune in and find it but that will probrably not dop me any good at all as I feel they are not interested in my well being:?

But I will put an end to this right away:)

[HeadSpace]

I wondered if anyone would be willing to share how their personal archetype has influenced them, and by that I mean when you became conscious of the specific archetypes.

Any feedback would be greatly appreciated:)

[Astrojewels]

Headspace,

This is another interesting point with your programming, when a person is specifically programmed it commonly has the electromagnetic field radiating a wider range than that of a standard person, a programmed person beams energy, and this is why they commonly attract others and are very popular.

To put it in terms for basic translation; making it wider does create the field difficulty in controlled grounding, and why a specifically programmed person feels ‘all over the place’ randomly.

The field needs to be trained in a vertical motion, this will also get the chakras balanced, try doing techniques to create this and you will not feel such a strong presence when visualizing.

[HeadSpace]

Thank you:)

I knew when I read this that it is of tremendous importance to me:) I actually knew this from experience, as the times when I am most in line with my self is when that happens naturally. It sort of get like that when I'm in the forest:)

I was sort of hooked on the feeling of space for some time, from when I was into cannabis and escapism. Could sort of travel horizontally. Always like that horizontal feeling:?

Just found a website where I can buy clothes with my own personal pictures on them, I'm planning on buying a set of lion clothing:D Including a boxer with the lion archetype on it:P I wondered if that would help me get in touch with my creative powersicon_megagrin

[Astrojewels]

I can’t say if that would help, I don’t really know!

The strange thing about life is we already know the answers to our questions, but society programs us to ignore our higher self for awareness. Being specifically programmed is a life challenging experience, and will never be easy, you will find techniques that work, search for those who can understand you, but the greatest challenge of your life is for you to understand ‘YOU’.

The forest is the best way for grounding, talk to the trees they hold spirit within and merging this with your own is a great way to remain focused through this chaotic life of ours…

[HeadSpace]

I understand the part about knowing, everytime time I get somewhere I find out I was there all along.. The same thing about knowledge or revelations. It's already there.. It's just that something within is making it hard to go that road. Or at least harder than it could be if there were no opposition. The image of an internal programmer seems to fit here. I dont like that at all.

Would be interesting to know how to delete it, or make it nonfunctional:)

[HeadSpace]

Sometimes when I'm just doing my business..and chatting wtih myself (which seems to never stop) I sometimes get a feeling of something greater, or in other cases a revelation or just having light casted onto something important and relevant to the current situation. When that happens the feeling of physicality seems to lighten and I feel lighter and less dense, the light gets brighter too and everything seems to go upwards so to speak:)

This happens whenever I have an aphinany too:D  Sometimes it seems to bright and like it's vibrating. Other times since I started directing my energies toward oversoul it gets focused and calm.

Also, with music this happens, everything raises and I seem to leave earth somehow:P Much like mushrooms. But I know that music part is not healthy for me although it is very beautiful and can create great emotional drama.

Anyways, I can feel the vibration. And it can be very exhausting  as I tend to go a little insane, feels like the whole world is pushing on me..

Other times I sense a presence and everything goes dead still, like I'm about to stop breathing or something:? Then I often get a physical feeling or some needle sting..This also happened when I had visits in bedicon_baeh Cold too, temperature wise.

As I now finished this I tried to do the merger, and I open my eyes and feel it was a former self writing this..Typical of me. Probrably replicating itself as I'm writing this tooicon_rolleyes

I just thought I that I will aim for releasing the mindpatterns that is manifesting all that visual stuff and do what I can to make my self more grounded and integrated.

I found a website selling extremely cheap orgonite by the way, i will have some of those good loking ones too but for now I thought I should order a bunch of those cheap one s and spread them around. I sort of live three separate places so I need several.