Suicide

[Astrojewels]

 

That is nice that he came to visit MN, it does not make the pain any easier but it does allow you to feel a little better, and I find it strange that when loved ones visit they always say that “it will/or everything is going to be ok”.  

 

Beyondinfinity,

We will talk soon, I can feel the energy slowly balancing, just a tiny bit, but what you experienced with that woman is becoming kind of normal, just like MN says I am also afraid to answer the phone, it seems that everywhere we go someone has just lost someone, it is actually like a phenomenon. How is your friend doing?

[beyondinfinity]

Astrojewels,

He is up and down like a roller coaster. From one day to the next, I don't know "who" I'll be dealing with on the other end. Today, I found myself in a more balanced place, which is good. I have a tendency to suck in other peoples energy quite easily, so I generally have to be careful of taking time to keep myself grounded.

What is interesting about this situation is that M's best friend, who is dieing of cancer, has a son who tried to commit suicide about a week later.

All of this happened around the time of the Ft. Hood shooting. It really makes me wonder what trigger points are being targeted in young men.

[Astrojewels]

Its definitely all connected, there is a lot of dirty energy going around the globe at the moment and I really don’t believe people are aware of it, one thing that has to always be remembered is energy can only be projected if there is an amplifier, so as our world currently slips into collective depression through fear- this is used against us, there is a lot more to come, as we discussed there is still that damn ritual energy of Christmas to get through.

I can tell you I have had my fair share of working with those that are triggered and you said “I don’t know who I will be dealing with from one day to the next”, the only advice I can give you is that you can not work with the core person when they are in an altered trigger, so the person you have come to know and love is not that person now, therefore you can not communicate in the same manner as you would on a normal day, you have to deal with the triggered person, that personality of the day, or he will say hurtful things to you which he does not mean, which will create another trigger. I know you are a good energy reader so if you go with that I think you will find it easier to deal with. Whatever programming he has within him, it will totally be used against him while he is at the lowest point of emotions, they are ruthless.

[beyondinfinity]

Thank you for the encouragement and advice. It makes sense to deal with the "triggered" person and not the core. Big sigh...

[Astrojewels]

I am not sure if its because we are talking about this topic but I have noticed on the radio, there is a lot of talk about teen suicide, I know this is the time of the year when it increases, when I was a teen I lost two friends to suicide, what are your thoughts on suicide beyondinfinity- only if you feel like talking about it, I don’t mean to upset you at all.

[Positive Balance]

Hi Astrojewels,

I have been experiencing suicide thoughts anger despondence all of this is obvious projected thoughts to mind and some inserted programming. this is not my way. I feel many young people are being triggered to do this as well  perhaps an experiment concerning  the effects of the programming in individuals.
PB

[Tyson]

wow i shouldve clicked this sooner. ill finish my reply after i open my mind and the deep crevaces i closed shut when i was a kid.

ok so im back. first of all, id like to apologize for the bad times. from what it seems, weve all been there. next id like to say thanks for the extra encouragement on pursuing a job. im still lazily rotting in my body. which brings me back to the topic. suicide. i mightve said it on here before but my memory is fading. as a kid, i was suicidal. everyone around me was dying. old friends, family. i cant quite pinpoint the exact thing that triggered me. i just wanted out it seemed like the perfect escape. until i moved to a quiet town where i wasnt being bombarded. the thought of suicide never really went away but the method i first thought of did. i first tried by popping a handful of sleeping pills. stupid right? duh they only put me to sleep. then i thought of weirder sh*t. excuse my language. but i got into graffiti more and more. i used to fantasize about hitting up the trains and stuff, also ill let you guys know one of my friends he was a great street artist. really getting up too. he died by getting struck by a train.tagging. did i crave the attention of the graffiti scene? and the attention of being gone? i really dont know because ive changed. at least id like to think so. i dont try it anymore i dont do the whole slow suicide thing either. im trying to live longer. it might not be enough or alot but right now its working. i dont even know where this post is even going right now... the suicide idea has never left my head. its almost always there. but what goes on when you kill yourself? do we come back in a different body or do we just walk the earth amongst everyone else in this same hell hole never to really leave and why because we tried to leave. so we get thrown right back in. thats why i havent tried it again. i have something to live for. that to me is marijuana. it helps me think positively, it helps me eat, it helps me concentrate, basically to me, it helps me live. in a way. sometimes i wonder if did it back then would i have saved myself time or would i have lengthened the process. now i look back on it and i dont thin ki have saved myself time. i cant get high i cant be myself without being criticized or looked down on because im a chronic smoker. this could just be their way of breaking me down but you guys, it works. just thinking about it,maybe im tricking my mind into thinking thats what they want i dont know. but what i know is. the only thing that still keeps me here is, smoking weed. the peace it puts me in, without that i dont see whats relaly stopping me. oh the fact i dont have a gun or my full license so i can speed off till i crash. the only thing i want to do while im high is to live my life and i cant do that sober. whne im sober i dont want to live. i dont want to do anything. i just want to sit there. but i cant get high all the time anymore. my mom knows about it and shes a hypocrite il just say that. same with my dad. who doesnt know but might think it. is also a hypocrite. he smokes all the time, maybe he changed but iuno, he always smoked my mom told me he even did it in the house when i was in her stomach. i was very familiar with the smell basically a weed baby. on top of that on the brink of not even being here. oh man this makes me think so much this topic. its all like a dream. the way i came here is all like a dream. you know the dream of me well my mom being rushed to the hospital and i was in the belly and i ascended into the womb into me. im not even sure if thats a dream or a memory. they couldve implanted something anytime they chose. i was in an incubator for 3 months from bitrh at a womens college. paranoid or not there is plenty of possibilities. after that i was again in a hospital where i had to get my ear cut off(sown back on though). also i remember having fallen off my bunk bed and splitting my forehead and having stitches right dead center, vertically. my mother has no recollection of this.i also had plenty of ear infections as a kid. nose bleeds too. anyways. they coulda put a device in me. but i cant tell people that cmon now. ill end up in the looney bin. i dont even know what happened to this post. i guess what im saying is. what if suicide is percieved as a positive thing to that persons life? should that path be taken?

sorry its so long and confusing

[Mercy Now]

Tyson, I've never attempted suicide but I came very ,very close once.I thought the world would be better off without me ,especially my family. I knew just how to do it and I was sitting there contemplating the best time of day when my higher self intervened.  I'll never forget it. My higher self said " You only take it with you (my name)  That's the real  "sin" of suicide." Then I  came to my senses so to speak and couldn't believe I had even contemplated it . Still today it boggles my mind.

 I've witnessed  a suicide . Back in the late '60's a friend who had been practicing  a particular type of yoga for a long while decided he was going to check out. He had a forced kundalini activation . So one day he just set himself on fire . Just sat there and didn't even so much as flinch it seemed. The papers all said he was protesting the VietNam war but his friends knew different. He was 25.

 

[Astrojewels]

There is an increase in suicide activations, I am hearing a lot of it and from people you would not expect and yes it is done through satellite transmissions and technology that we use everyday-cell phones. Our lifestyle has evolved so rapidly that the energy we are collectively projecting is actually draining us day by day.

People need to sit and think for a moment of the frequencies that surround them, and turn off the phone, PC, TV, radio and all things that interfere with our natural energy as often as possible.

To me suicide is still unknown territory, because I work a great deal with past life-streams, I believe that taking your own life does conjure some intense energy in future life-streams, but depends on the intent of why, I think it is usually 1 of 3 reasons -  to punish someone, or escape trouble, or their soul is just so sad that they cannot continue to do the everyday BS, and the programming is enhanced with the family because of the guilt and questioning of what they could of done to prevent it, I think it is so much sadder.

[beyondinfinity]

Tyson,

You have really opened up and shared much of your pain and struggle. I wish the best to you and all the young people that are struggling with the same issues you are right now. You have found a good place to share in this forum. I too, have had a bumpy road to travel and have been taken to the depths of despair. I too, have raised many of the same questions you raise in your post.

For much of my life my art and writing has been a form of release. I create in a non-judgment type of way, where it becomes an extension of my soul. I used to disassociate a lot to check out of this reality. I loved it....I would fly and travel without the drugs, but it eventually caught up to me and like a drug, I had to go through detox and deal with reality...you mean hell or if you can see the other side of the coin, a little heaven too.

Sometimes, it's about taking the one thin piece of light and working with it...or it's about picking up the pen and scribbling like a child, who cares, anything that can shift the energy in another direction, you take an action that moves you into a better place.