13 Cubed

[MC]

What is there to be tolerant about.In fact,there is nothing likable.

[Sunshine]

If you guys would indulge me for a minute I need to get some understanding about this.  I asked this question in the new relationship thread but it still seems to be an issue for me.  It seems like everyday I'm crying, cry in the morning before I get out of bed, during my release work I've cried a lot, even if I go for a walk I start to cry sometimes.  However when I'm around my friends I never feel like crying and when I'm around my family I sometimes feel like crying but it comes off as anger since I don't really want to talk to them about it yet. 

For those that read the new relationship thread I went through a break up.  One thing I didn't mention was that during that relationship I lost 25 pounds without even trying.  Which was a very good thing since I needed to lose that weight.  I still have about 20 more pounds to lose till I'm at my ideal weight. Though I'm still at the exact same weight I was when we broke up.  Could the loss of this weight cause me to feel more and so I can't hold back my sadness now  Also could all this crying be because I just had it bottle up inside because I never used to cry.  Now its everyday, even after breaking up with all my previous girlfriends I didn't really cry much and if I did it would just be a few tears, not actual crying like out loud. 

In Janet's article called Wake up call, from 13-cubed, she says:

Stay in the drama, yell "woe is me," blame the world, wallow in self-pitty, cry endless tears of inner pain, curse God and humans kind alike, along with a few aliens, hybrids and Reptillians just because you know they exist too. How low can you sink, how much suffereing can you tolerate, knowing that it is inescapable? Even with physical death, if this is your mind-pattern, your life will follow you beyond this place, eternally haunting you with increasingly more viciousness and destruction!

When I read this I was actually crying and I wouldn't stop. I had to do something so I read this article.  This paragraph actually made me stop crying.  This paragraph is brilliant to me.  The part about cursing reptillians made me laugh too. 

So my main question is why is crying neccesary and how do we know we are just crying from release or crying "endless tears of inner pain" as Janet would put it? Thanks everyone.

[MC]

It is a release of inner pain.We accumulate things
and hold it in,but it has to be released at some point.We hold on to the weight as an insulation against the outside world.It would be good for you to release everything now and use affirmations.I believe you will see your weight go down even more.

[Astrojewels]

MC,
If we are to break the cycle of genetic programming we must be tolerant of how it alters the personality, how certain programming attracts drama and emotional situations, and the intention is for a reaction and also to disconnect those who, if united, would be strong collectively.

Sunshine,
The relationship you endured was obviously to trigger you, yet these emotions indicate that your heart chakra is overactive; this may have begun with the relationship but has taken you further spiritually. The body cries tears for many reasons but I ask you to look beyond this relationship. Firstly the trigger has activated something deeper than the current loss you feel, this emotion goes back to something in your childhood or a past life-stream, something that you have put on the ‘later’ list.
The heart chakra naturally flows with rapid speed and is like a fork, it is the handle to the three prongs which are the throat, brow and crown. The activation of your heart chakra has opened up the three higher chakras, are you between the ages of 18 – 21 or 21-24?
The tears stop when you are with friends because the throat chakra is then stimulated, which then slows down the speed of the heart chakra, so when using these other main chakras the heart finds a comfortable balance. I believe you have connected/accessed your higher self/ oversoul and your body is releasing all these tears from the transition.
I can tell you that many people experience the tears, and wonder why they cry, yet equally feel a sense of comfort but also feel guilt from that comfort, if this is what you are going through, the tears will cease when you do not feel guilty of the connection.

[William]

I do not understand this but will try to explain it.

  For some tears are always a means of trying to force something that your not able or dont think you can get or do!

  When we were children our only option was to Cry and then mommy would comfort us and stop our crying!

  Since connection with others are an invisible link, we hurt from the seperation like a mother seperated from a child.  Physical yet invisible bonding!

  You must take the step beyond what you think you cant do and what you want to do or go beyond the invisible link that was put on you.

  Most of us must learn to step into life on our own!  We all think someone or something will be there for us, this may seem true now but is illusion.  And yet being alone is an Illusion, yet we are all alone and all one!

  Sometimes we cry because of the contradictory stance we have in life!

  When the student cried the wise old man told him to just get busy with life, there is something he must do!

[Sunshine]

Thanks everyone for the insight, I still haven't stopped crying it seems, but I feel better about it now. Astrojewel I'm 29 now so crying this much for me didn't seem right, but what is right anyway. The way I was crying reminded me of how a child cries so I did explore the idea that it was a child alter coming forward. I've spent some time doing the growing up the inner child exercise as well. I'm still looking into why so much tears, I have literally cried over 15 hours in total over the last month maybe even more didn't really count.

[Astrojewels]

Sunshine,
It is necessary that you find the reason or this will be a continual cycle. So, it is not the transition, if you have been searching the inner child but not coming up with answers, then it is not that either. This person has triggered you, are you usually an emotional person? Do you cry easily?
Firstly it is the loss, but you seemed to deal with the end of the relationship well, therefore the tears really are not associated to this person but to something within you that has activated rejection, abandonment and isolation as you are crying when you are alone.
The way you were triggered whilst reading the book also indicates that there are programming issues, when a person is programmed the main objective is to keep the emotions in a dense energy because that person can be subjected to the lower frequencies that are sent out.
The lower frequencies keep the subject in a dense state – confused, emotional, anger, frustration, depression and all things associated to the lower dense vibration.
I would suggest you find yourself a forest, walk or sit amongst the trees, become one with them and the trees will filter the confusion, or soak in the salt water of a clean beach. Coasts and Trees are filters for ELF and all associated dense energies.

[Astrojewels]

Just an added note, tears are not always associated to the child within because children do cry easily, but they do not cry continually, as William mentions once comforted the child is over it, once a solution is given then the tears stop.
Children do not have the same mentality to worry over a situation and it is the process of the ‘education system’ to instill this philosophy of worry and uncertainty.
A child does not want to hold onto negative, unlike adults if a child has a disagreement with a friend, the next day they are friends again; it is the system that structures the need for grudges and resentment. Teachers and parents do not want to listen to the child, they can not be bothered with ‘childish BS’ they are told “I am not interested” or the teacher being the referee will make his/her own opinion.
When we hold bitterness toward another person, we embrace the ego personality, which is manipulated and becomes a target at age 9.
We cry rivers during the ages of 13-19, a time when we experience more rejection than any other cycle of life.

[Sunshine]

Thanks Astrojewels, from looking back on it now, before I met her I didn't feel emotional very much, people would in the past have said I was like a buddha since I was so calm and even keeled emotionally.

She really did ignite my feelings to a level that I never felt before. Also during the time I was with her I felt I was doing some major healing.

As I mentioned I lost 25 pounds and even my back problems went away that were bothering me. When we were together I would feel a slight inner warmth and I wouldn't get cold when out at night. Even with all the hyperspace execizes I've done and past reltionships I've had never once felt myself connectionecting such high frequency as I did with her. When my biggest issue, fear of abandonment showed up, I couldn't sleep or eat and couldn't focus on doing anything really. I brought myself to such a high level of feeling with her that the fear of losing her was more than I was able to handle. So within a few days of this fear showing itself we broke up and I came crashing down. I'm not saying everything was perfect with her just that with her I experienced new things, as if my ceiling become became my floor as Janet would say.

I know I need to release it otherwise this cycle will repeat. I haven't remembered where the original imprinting is yet but I know will find it and release it. I was crying for not being with her, but also my heart became open and there was a lot of things in there waiting to be released. However I'm still surprised I would still be crying over a month later and to this extent.

I talked to Janet she said the illuminati would try and use anything to knock me down such that I wouldn't want to get back up again. She said I was being heavily bombarded with ELF and still am. So there is no turning back now I must deprogram and take my power back. This weekend I'm going to the mountains, I think the fresh air and snow will be great so thats great you suggested that. Thanks Astrojewels and everyone for your support it has helped me immensely.

[iqhunk]

Hi Sunshine,

I just read that you are 29. Astrologically, you might be going through your Saturn Return transit and this will bring forth several unresolved issues. This is a great time to mentally forgive all. Visualize yourself forgiving every entity that ever contributed to your DNA as well as every entity who hurt you in any existance be it past, present or future. This helped me a lot during my Saturn return in 2006.

ELF cannot ever harm your Oversoul. Ultimately, we are our OverSoul. This knowledge is sufficient to give us the confidence to tackle illuminati agendas.