What Are The Best Ways To Find Out The Mind-Patterns?

[SilverInfinity]

I agree. I'm sorry for myself that it had to be this way. I will not be the same father as my dad and I will want a wife from a more democratic family because I don't want a bad mother for my children.

But I just realize today that I have always been complete and don't need a girlfriend or parents to punish me or drown into low self-esteem or suppress my abilities, and not get what I want or not resolve illed thoughts/conditions-- because I am already complete.

I will fix this all before the la quake. I will not need to be shakened up and people will wake up because of me. I feel I will make a breakthrough that needs to be communicated to the world.

no -- I am not bipolar!

[DolphinGirl]

Hi SI,

Now that is great news to hear!:big grin: :thumbsup:

You have much to share with others and it will actually have been to your advantage to experience adversity.  You will be empathetic to others having suffered yourself.  People will respond to you honestly because they will sense this.

BTW, I don't believe you are bipolar (however, I am not a professional psychiatrist!!!;).)  Your feelings appear to be the side effect of a steep growth/learning curve.  Big changes are usually preceded by particularly bad times.  Kind of like the uncomfortable shedding of old skin before the new can be born. 

I have much faith in you and I want to thank you for sharing your journey here.  Please take extra good care of yourself and have some fun today!:nod:  The dolphins would like that...:tongue2:

[Avatar]

Silver Infinity, you are a kind and very helpful person.Why not simply make a list of your positive attributes and then focus all your energy on developing your positive attributes.Visualize yourself smiling and being happy. Think of funny and happy situations in your life where you felt good about yourself and were able to allow Divine Love to grow within your Soul Frequency.

[haven]

SI, I am so sorry that I didn't catch up on thread sooner.  I am sorry you are suffering with TMJ, and you too dolphingirl.  That is very painful and disrupting.

SI, your determination and commitment are an inspiration.  Being in CA as well, I too have a "vested" interest in doing massive release work right now, and I am so encouraged by you saying you are going to breakthrough.  It was just what I needed to hear today (hmmm...maybe THAT'S why I didn't see this until today). 

Seriously do something fun, and take care of yourself.  It seems that low self esteem is really coming to the fore front (see some of my posts, and Monica I think posted recently about this too - correct me if I am wrong, Monica).  Not giving in is a victory :nod:

[Monica]

Yes, I do feel that deep self-worth and emotional abandonment issues are coming to the fore.  It makes sense because we're really working on releasing the illusions of programming (seperation) and connecting back into God-Mind awareness (unification), and that brings up why we felt abandoned and worthless in the first place.  I am finding this has become a daily struggle sometiems, to stay on top and not be overwhelmed by all that is changing or needs to be changed.  But the tough times do bring us forward very fast when we decide to face them and resolve the pains and hurts of eons past.  Lots of release work is required.... :D ;)

[Get Boldened]

Interesting. Well, when I was meditating I discovered a trick to listen in on my subconscious. I literally heard myself saying things like, "life is hard," "I struggle with schoolwork," "I don't deserve anything," sentence after sentence.

It feels like I hear these statements inside of me because I didn't use my vocal chords. Then I realize why life has been crap

So this is how I did it... I kept trying to clear my head. Everytime I fail I would rituastically appreciate my effort and try to clear my head again. I believe the most important elements is appreciation and clearness. Miss the appreciation part and you'll probably just get a blank plate. And five minutes into this, I could hear my mind-patterns/statements.