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I do not intend to disrespect anyone but I am human and I will say I have issues getting over many things in my life and I want to move on and heal...I saw a post here implicating how we shouldn't trash the ones we learn from...but its a fine line from where though we may see that logically, maybe emotionally I may not be resolved in it a peaceful way.
I was drawn to this thread...its clear I have not worked on reconciling this thoroughly within myself.
I devoted several years of my life to studying their stuff..but now I no longer do it, yet there are things that they have taught everyone that I adhere to...
yes I believe in self responsibility, being your own guru, following your inner direction on whats right to eat...and that ultimately all things are neutral(I'm learning shiatsu and chinese theory..we learn that same thing in different words..about yin and yang that are two supposedly polar opposites--yet they're intermingling into oneness so that there really is no polarity in everything..if you break it down--its neutral..this i have experienced..after years of reading..i have experiential knowledge that for me its my perception and emotional reaction to things that define everything in my mind).
i have never met them--but there was a tie there--why was i drawn to them to begin with. not sure if i ever will meet them properly. and i know now that i won't go back to studying their teachings.----i dont believe in many things they talk about..its my choice...and my life in some ways(despite current difficulties) is better in that way.
a part of me is like this: even if i cut off ties with people, a part of me still would love it if things were resolved/reconciled.....that i'd still be somehow in contact with everyone later on..when i've figured it out, found whatever it is that i wanted--when i grow up--when i've gotten to a better level in my life(what appears better)...and that i can view the other person in a different light..they can view me in a different light. i make this as a general statement...yet i also know about attachment...and the contrary that everyone is a part of this grand scheme of things(the universe) and that all is connected.
there were my two cents here...
if my heart could really emanate love and peace beyond words just typed routinely on this screen...then so be it.
peace and love
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Hello PP,
How are you, you have just reminded me that we have not spoke for some time.
Nicely written and very happy to hear that you are doing so much with yourself and progressing in leaps and bounds.
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plus one to what Aj said to PP :)
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Hey AJ! I will send you a pm/email when I get the chance...will pm a few others here too.just am busy these days and i stop in here once in a while..ttyl! hope you are well too.
peace and love
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For whatever it is worth, I think without Stewart I'd not be so much diverse in my open-mindedness to spiritual concepts. This maturity of my mind to allow mental synthesis of concepts has allowed me to balance out metaphysical claims for the best ones to test. Then I would hypothesize the mechanics that I can conceive from my past psychic experiences and test the metaphysical claims. In the end, I look more confused than ever, but that's because I'm not blindly accepting what's out there, but proddly testing with whatever means and no compromise with time even if it takes so long that one may mistaken me for confused.
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