04-20-2008, 06:13 PM
Thanks, Astrojewels. Your info about the childhood energy was quite interesting. I thought that was common among all children.
Yes, the past life regression tape helped me when I saw past lives. You don't forget what you saw and with time comes insight.
One past life I saw for example, showed me that my father's deep anger for me (no justification for it in this lifetime) came from a past life where he was my father and I was his son. As a man, I was not exactly macho, although I don't know what my sexual orientation was. (In this life, and most others, I am female.) What is also interesting about that life is that it was in Venice. It seems like in the Venice life my father hated me then because I was not aggressive like him. In this life my father is still very agressive and overbearing, although he does not see himself that way. I don't know what this says about genetics, but in Venice, my father was caucasian with red curly hair and beard. He did not appear dressed in the overly made up manner you often see in movies (like hair done up or white wigs). (It would be easier to describe my genetics now by what I can guess I don't have but based on what I have heard from his family, the red hair genetics were also in his grandparents' generation.) Also interesting is that my mother and I both have art (not expensive) from Venice that has been passed down from a few generations in her family. Of course, I am the only one who is not clueless about Venice.
I will say that I have had plenty of battles with fear for much of my life but the main difference now is increased awareness of the 4th dimensional parasites. The past life nightmares were scary, as were some encounters with other dimensional beings. I think I know what you mean about the lack of fear though. It was like I experienced many of those other dimensional events from a more aware aspect of self and when my ego self "woke up" I was more likely to experience fear or just lose the experience because I'd be shocked and wondering what is this?? I have seen some things that I later read about in books which helped explain what I saw. Some things I have seen or experienced that I have never seen discussed elsewhere.
I also know what you mean about the need for outlets for the energy. As an adult, I practice a yoga that involves movement, various breathing techniques, mudras, etc. It is essential for me. And yes, I do have the writer's bent. I wish I could think of something to write about in book form that would help people and have enough mass appeal to be lucrative without bringing a whole lot of harrassment. The problem is that I feel that the me that I do not show the world is way too "out there" for most people. And as I'm sure you know, the 4th dimensional harrassers know what you are doing no matter what name you write under.
Yes, I have had numerous experiences since childhood confirming my past lives in Atlantis. Sometimes I wish I could remember more minute details from that period (like those I have heard from other people) but I know there is a lot of trauma there (both before and during the events surrounding the final destruction) so I have not pushed myself to investigate. I suppose it might be helpful to do so now, although I think I pretty much know what my issues are, and that is the most important thing.
Yes, the past life regression tape helped me when I saw past lives. You don't forget what you saw and with time comes insight.
One past life I saw for example, showed me that my father's deep anger for me (no justification for it in this lifetime) came from a past life where he was my father and I was his son. As a man, I was not exactly macho, although I don't know what my sexual orientation was. (In this life, and most others, I am female.) What is also interesting about that life is that it was in Venice. It seems like in the Venice life my father hated me then because I was not aggressive like him. In this life my father is still very agressive and overbearing, although he does not see himself that way. I don't know what this says about genetics, but in Venice, my father was caucasian with red curly hair and beard. He did not appear dressed in the overly made up manner you often see in movies (like hair done up or white wigs). (It would be easier to describe my genetics now by what I can guess I don't have but based on what I have heard from his family, the red hair genetics were also in his grandparents' generation.) Also interesting is that my mother and I both have art (not expensive) from Venice that has been passed down from a few generations in her family. Of course, I am the only one who is not clueless about Venice.
I will say that I have had plenty of battles with fear for much of my life but the main difference now is increased awareness of the 4th dimensional parasites. The past life nightmares were scary, as were some encounters with other dimensional beings. I think I know what you mean about the lack of fear though. It was like I experienced many of those other dimensional events from a more aware aspect of self and when my ego self "woke up" I was more likely to experience fear or just lose the experience because I'd be shocked and wondering what is this?? I have seen some things that I later read about in books which helped explain what I saw. Some things I have seen or experienced that I have never seen discussed elsewhere.
I also know what you mean about the need for outlets for the energy. As an adult, I practice a yoga that involves movement, various breathing techniques, mudras, etc. It is essential for me. And yes, I do have the writer's bent. I wish I could think of something to write about in book form that would help people and have enough mass appeal to be lucrative without bringing a whole lot of harrassment. The problem is that I feel that the me that I do not show the world is way too "out there" for most people. And as I'm sure you know, the 4th dimensional harrassers know what you are doing no matter what name you write under.
Yes, I have had numerous experiences since childhood confirming my past lives in Atlantis. Sometimes I wish I could remember more minute details from that period (like those I have heard from other people) but I know there is a lot of trauma there (both before and during the events surrounding the final destruction) so I have not pushed myself to investigate. I suppose it might be helpful to do so now, although I think I pretty much know what my issues are, and that is the most important thing.
