HeadSpace..Deprogramming diary

[MC]

It must be my demonic part.It manifests as a woman.And,the Mothers of Darkness who engage in rituals do know that it's not really a woman.

[rskiller]

Headspace, you have alot of negative astral entities attached to you, more than i've encountered in a person for quite awhile.

You also have demonic entity attached to you which is quite powerful. I've been through this, so I know your thoughts are usually not your own most of the time, and these creatures do a good job at sabotaging deprogramming/any attempt to salvage yourself. This doesn't mean you should bow down and exit though!

You seem to be in dire straights, so I removed the entities above from you. Let us know how you feel.

[MC]

The entities can come back.It's his mind pattern that brings them back.Entities do not have control over a person or their thoughts unless you give yourself up to them to manipulate you.

[rskiller]

Abseloutely MC. We cannot win the war for him, he needs to work on the mind-pattern and protect himself just like you mentioned earlier. He's got to "give a damn".

Hopefully he's cleared up abit to realise this, if he wants to that is.

[Astrojewels]

Part of the manipulation is depending on them to make you feel special and different; this is the section of the mind pattern that those who have entities attached find the hardest to release, the entity gives them a sense of power and living without it can be very daunting, because in the process of the attachment, you have separated from your standard life, your friends and family have almost given up on you, because they just do not know how to approach you anymore, you have become detached from society, so there is just you and the monkey. So to speak.  

[HeadSpace]

Hey folks:)

I had a thing some days ago where I spoke out to one of the voices and I got hit in the stomach. Because of my compulsive thoughts problem, I managed to get myself more damage.

I hope your all okay, writing this I had some serious company..
I just had a serious drama. Horrible.

I have to go, I love you all.:)

I'll write more if it's possible..I found love today, that was nice.

I really do love you.

I have had changes RS, I wont say much more though.

Edit:

By the way, if things work out I would love to actually meet you people some day:) perhaps a gathering could take place somewhere.

[HeadSpace]

RS?

How is you do this? I am sorry I did not show more gratitude. Could I ask how you see the situation now? I'm not sure I want an answer..

I hope you all have a great life.

tricky situattion on my part

[HeadSpace]

I know it sounds weird but could I ask if you could pray for me and my situation?  I know it has power.

[HeadSpace]

Whats weird is that the word shadowrunner appears sometimes.. A little strange.

While in a drama yesterday dropa was mentioned. I had a seriously weird day yesterday. If you knew what I've been through..strange stuff.

I hope everything heals.

I would benefit from some help right now..I have no idea about where I should look.
i am not asking you RS Killer..i am very sorry for the way I seem to be acting towards you. Probrably more apparent to me than you, it has something to do with my situation. I feel I should not say more.

Would love to find likeminded, hopefully not as intense as me but someone with understanding of the whole experience:)

Merry Christmas everyone...I actually mean that, I just had a load of manipulation:?
Had a tough night, almost died too many times now..No kidding.

[HeadSpace]

I just had the most horrible dream, stewart was there. We were in a large building a lot of strange stuff happened there. Several people jumped off the roof and really damaged themselves, the roof was really really high.

There was fighting too, I do not recall who we were fighting.

Also I was with a guy in denmark, who lived here before. I never really knew the guy at all. A man who did not have the best situation. He had shaped up and had a good deal and worked really hard.

I also found samurai equipment in a closet after a friend I only knew from battle found an axe there:?

There was also boats involved and we battled in boats. Like chinese ships, the long wooden ones. I remember pulling in for supplies after dealing with poor weapons.
There, at the weapon supply the deal was that everyone liked me and that I was a funny guy.

I was also shopping in england with friends, my mother was there. I was looking at a lamp, a blue wall lamp.

The dream ended up with me torturing someone pooring hot water down their throat.
It was tap water, I thought it was not that warm but it seemed it was. I woke up after this feeling very shocked. I was supposed to pick someone for the dream, some other stuff to came after waking up which I feel is not so fun.

Very strange dreams.

I was now in the position where sacrificing myself was no longer enough. They want me totally speaking.

I just dont get it. I am close to a breakdown I think....

I need help:(

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Took a shower and things have settled down, I am waiting to see how things turn out.

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Went out shopping for a bit.. I think it will work out.

Merry christmas to you all, I mean that:)