HeadSpace..Deprogramming diary

[HeadSpace]

I had improvement. Then new astral creatures came along. And things got worse again. Then things changed more. My brother got sick, he got a fever this morning:(

Could really use some serious prayer, I thought I found a priest today. But it was a witness..

Things go up and down. I hope things will stabilize.

[Polly]

HeadSpace, there are non-religious prayer groups (if the religious aspect bothers you) who pray for people.  I have benefited from prayer more than once.  The following is from Edgar Cayce's A.R.E. Foundation website:

http://edgarcayce.org/personalspirituality/edgarcayceprayer.asp

Edgar Cayce On Prayer

The Edgar Cayce readings contain a wealth of information on the importance of both prayer and meditation. From Cayce’s perspective prayer is talking to God and meditation is listening. Essentially, prayer can be understood as the means by which we are able to attune ourselves to our spiritual source. In the language of the Cayce readings:
Prayer is the concerted effort of the physical consciousness to become attuned to the consciousness of the Creator, either collectively or individually. Edgar Cayce reading #281-13
 
From Cayce’s perspective, the power of our prayers is affected by the attitudes we hold — both about ourselves and others. The depth of our attunement to our spiritual source is also influenced by these same attitudes. With this in mind, a frequently occurring theme in the readings is that individuals must live as they pray. In other words, our daily thoughts, actions and beliefs must strive for the same level of attunement that we seek in prayer.
 
Ultimately, our every thought has the same impact as a prayer. The longer a thought is held in mind, the more power is possesses. Because “mind is the builder,” we are actually contributing to “helping” or “harming” every individual that we hold in mind, whether it be in our thoughts or in our prayers.
 
 Because prayer seeks to attune us to our spiritual source, it also helps to foster our relationship with the Divine. Types of prayer include: praying for oneself, direct prayer for others — if they have asked, and surrounding prayer for those about whom we are concerned — if they have not asked specifically for our prayer help.
 
Cayce believed that the energy of prayer was sent by thought — almost like a beam of white light being sent out to the individual(s) for whom we are praying. It is not that prayer is “telling God what to do,” rather prayer is a spiritual energy that surrounds an individual and attempts to provide that individual with an energy that they can draw upon for their own healing and comfort.
 
Since prayer is talking to God, there are a variety of ways to pray, just as you might have different ways of communicating with a close friend. Different types of prayers include prayers of thanksgiving, prayers for healing, prayers for forgiveness, prayers for attunement, and prayers for the deceased.
 
The A.R.E. Prayer Services department compiles a monthly International Prayer List, both for individuals who want to be prayed for as well as for individuals who would like to serve as volunteer pray-ers.
 
HeadSpace, you can sign up to be prayed for here:
 
http://edgarcayce.org/personalspirituality/prayer_request.asp
 
Also, there is this website which belongs to Rosemary Althea.  You can sign up for absent healing.  Click on the link on the left hand side of the page.  They helped me when I was in suicide mode.
 
http://www.rosemaryaltea.com/index1.cfm
 
There are prayer hotlines and many other prayer groups.  Prayer works!  C2C has a prayer thing going every Friday but I have yet to find the link to sign up for that.

[HeadSpace]

Thank you:)

I will check it out.

I am signing up..

When this works out I will do what I can to find some kind of friends..With similar interests.

I am grateful for your help.

[rskiller]

You would ideally benefit with some affirmations to turn your life around, starting with low-self esteem issues and high-self worth etc

Situation is what you choose to make it now.

[HeadSpace]

I know that. Thank you:)

[HeadSpace]

I didnt mention that one night, I was doing the dishes while one voice said, now someone wil come to help you with..I dont remember what. Sirius was mentioned and a cat appeared in my room. I tried to get it out through talking to it and sending it stuff. But eventually I had to touch it and then I had one of those weird flashes of thought which was not mine. I saw energy transfer. Just illusion. Then I heard something like, now you've done it. What followed was that my personality got sort of lost and I got catlike. I shifted through several personalities that night.

I also have an alter or something that morphs I think, not sure..

I almost had my bowels reversed outwards several times these last days, I know that sounds crazy and totally nuts. There was athought that appeared after I got hit in the stomach..Was not necessarily mine though:? Anyways, the voices got a laugh and at some point messed with that too. Sometimes it was bad and not pleasant, needless to say:? I got a lot of help though from people I dont know from hyperspace. I'm grateful for that.

Dont know if I mentioned it but at some point before my birthday I got my lungs severly damaged. I was trying to pull a thought out of my chest as stupid as that sounds.. When someone changed the projection into flesh. I then got hurt in the lungs and became ill. That got fixed somehow.

Sorry about the offensive material, I am just diffusing it. I have a lot of stuff to diffuse..:P

I'll write more when I feel like it.

I got a nice royal blue sweater today by the way:)

[HeadSpace]

I just had another hit from out of the blue. A warning. I've been having thoughts, manipulation. Not mine.

I need the uvpt:?

Edit:

I was wondering if theres different relegions involved in cayces setup or just based on some type cayce developed? Christian?

I hit the button before I checked that out.:)

[HeadSpace]

I had a nice moment just now where I managed to clear things up. I might have had help though, I've had lots of help lately. I am very grateful.

I will make it work now:)
I affirmed something a moment ago and then everything went quiet. I felt calmer softer and much more relaxed, the voices was much more distant.

But I just heard something and had a presence again, I will work on it and make everything perfect.

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Just had something happen again:? I know what to do though in regards to my near future. I will get myself some ski's, that's nice:) I know I benefit from being very active.

I spent a lot of time in isolation, a lot with weird stuff like mushrooms cannabis and psychedelic music.. That and a weird time with raw food which made me lose all grounding. A lot happened there.

I can see now how the attachment has influenced my life, and the notion of suppression got more clear. Right now writing this I had a visit from the attachment.

I really love it when things work out.

They will:)

I was wondering if there's anything protective i can do besides the uvpt that is more manageable for me?

[HeadSpace]

I have this issue where they make it seem as if i send thigs out the top of my head and then they say i sent it to someone i should not. Then a reaction takes place. It feels unsettling because I get trouble being relaxed.

[HeadSpace]

I thought I was getting help from someone here just now, the vibe changed and felt more like something I associate hyperspace with. But the vibe changed more and I felt less like me, there was a presence, or more. Sometimes nice or helpful, other times not.

I was also writing a healer I read about in the newspaper here, I never do that but this one caught my attention. hes not of the new age era and is not from the programming era either. Seems like a genuine guy:) I just liked him, but writing him and reading about him I felt the presence had something to do with it.

Hes psychic too, I sort of sent him a thought while reading but I didn't really think about it. Something is happening now too, I am getting help but Im not sure its somone I trust. It seems programming is new to whomever it is or something, and that theres more normal views involved. I tend to struggle with that since I've lived a strange life and might be a little weird myself.

I just noticed i am not felling like myself at all, have been too focused on material issues. Not good. It's an attack, not help. icon_doh

Auric stuff going on..

 
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