HeadSpace..Deprogramming diary

[HeadSpace]

I just managed to pull off a violet bubble..It works so it must be valid.
I think I got help from someone:)

Also tried some visualizing the inner space in violet and then a little royal blue, it really works:)

I will get better at this.

So, now it's past midnight here and as far as I know or according to MC's post if I understood it right it should be the end of the holiday rituals(?) Druids feast over:)

I look forward to painting the apartment too, I just finished a download, a interior architecture program.

And I got a new idea for tattoos, the aleph bet and gimmel, wonder what effect that would have.

[HeadSpace]

I woke up today with some serious suppression, and I might have attracted some entities while sleeping or something..  I think I might need help with the physical part:?

I have changed places in the matrix too. Or changed persona.
Tattoos have been on my mind, don't know if it was deliberate from others though..

Also, my voice is in a certain way, I recognize it from certain times or places I've been, it may have to do with the attachment. I might be in one of those demonized alters stewart talked about.

I would like to know if there's any information available on moonchild programming or demonization, attachments.

I hope I find the solution soon..

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I just got something, some of those small pins, and there's manipulation. I have been floating a lot the last week.

A merger on the right arm in the height of the solar plexus, would that help me out with the attachment?

I notice when holding a merger at the solar plexus that it does change things.
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Had an attack:? They messed with my memory..It's just manipulation..annoying

[HeadSpace]

I just read that the stuff I got which I thought was helping only works on something I think I don't have any problems with:? I'm not sure though..

Will be nice to start eating again, I will catch up:)

But I would seriously like to get some load off my shoulders..I wonder if it's because the feast yesterday..

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Something just happened, I'm not sure what. I was going to take a saltbath when someone sabotaged and then something happened, had to do with memory I think..

It's the self sabotage issues..Or the IP which is the problem I think, if I had that in order I would not have problems with those entities..

I could really use some help right now.

[Astrojewels]

What kind of help headspace?

[HeadSpace]

I'm not sure, I was in panic when I wrote that..Strangely, when writing the "I" before the panic word in this line it appeared in that way.

Wonder what that means.

I don't know what kind of help would be needed actually, I think I might start looking for other hyperspace/prog people here in norway for company..I just need to get things on track first.

I was in a pretty heavy place and I understand why I asked for help, I might have gotten help too because I feel alot better and someone is definitely helping me.

Not sure who helped me though.

Some advice on how to move on would be great, I'll order a consultation at expansions.

Not sure what to write, there's someone manipulating ..:? I would love to have peace from the astral:) 

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I could seriously use rskillers help right now. I probably should not say such a thing but it would really be useful.

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I wonder why things are so intense right now..
I am sorry about the length of this thread, really..

[Astrojewels]

Headspace, I am not sure either!

I can not advise you because you have to begin doing some things for yourself, you are never going to feel better if you are on a journey of constant support, and it will never end. I do not want to add to your feelings of despair, but it is time to take the advice that has been given to you throughout this 15 page diary. MC, Polly and I all support you, we are here in this section for you, however it is time for you to stand up tall and begin actually taking the advice already given, until then I can not add anything else.

[HeadSpace]

I agree, I will do that:) I just did an affirmation saying my aura is free from other beings and my throat eased up, I was more myself:) That was nice.

I understand what you say about not posting more here, I thought about that myself many times a while ago before the whole thing started..

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Had a lot of stuff go on since writing this..heavy..

My voice has gone quite weird...Everything will heal though.

I had an idea earlier, about finding someone to make archetype pendants, I thought of the lion archetype, pure gold aleph and a royal blue dot.

Would be cool:)

[HeadSpace]

Just woke up and I noticed I got a new ache in the lower stomach below the navel, sore point for me, I read somewhere that cancer in 6th house also has something to do with this.

I also think I got help, that was very nice, it helped a lot. I had some issues with the throat last night but it have improved.

Some guidelines regarding how to stay clear from astral creatures and how to remove them would be great, should have a book on that:)

I should fix the physical now, I know it is time.

[HeadSpace]

It has been 14 days now, that's two weeks:? Without going to the bathroom..
I have not experienced that beforeicon_muede  Somehow it feels as if it is worse now then it was.. I need to get a hold of the uvpt..But I need to start with basic stuff first..

I also get strange sensation on my head and the brain, which:? often includes a lot of strange stuff which might be hard to explain.

A lot of complaining, but two weeks with almost no food is not that greaticon_neutral And I do think that the lack of nutrition can explain a great deal for me, things have been weird. No protein what so ever for two weeks, but I guess that's not a big deal..I've lived on tea with honey and the first week it was a lot of chocolate..

I think I need help, but the doctors don't understand the energetic aspect, I cant tell them there's astral creatures stopping me from going to the bathroom:?

I have made some realizations too..that's good:)

It's difficult to asses the physical and fix things when others are counteracting me..

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Happened a lot since writing this post.

The attachment have been messing with me, a lot of manipulation..
And it was very angry or something, since rskiller helped me out earlier..And I was going to the bathroom which was scary stuff...

Peace from the attachment would be great, more than great. It would be peace.

Still wondering how to solve the physical stuff, I need the uvpt.  But I guess others cant do that for you, can they?

It's like being handicapped actually, that physical aspect. It's worse than you think:?

Looking forward to healing this stuff:)

[MC]

How many times are you going to do this?I told you that I can't help you.You are weak in mind and body.There is nothing I can do for you.