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The idea was for me to fix that. The situation I'm up against is something most people would get strange from.
I just need to fix the physical, I don't want to go into details because people tend to be full of shame and fears about certain things:?
But I really truly need help.
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It might be possible that even you would ask for help in this kind of situation..
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No,I would never ask for help.If I can't help myself then no one can help me.I would never allow myself to be in that kind of situation.
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ok. I actually do need help right now, its not like other times at all
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I am sorry for how things turned out here. I'm sure the situation will heal.
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Headspace,
The situation will not heal itself. If you go to the doctors they will lock you up in the psychiatric unit, be cautious what you say to any medical staff, get something to aid your body in going to the toilet, you are still able to logically explain what is happening because you are writing it in this section each day, so they have not completely taken over your body/mind, make yourself eat, or eat liquid food, MC is right and no one can help you but yourself, the more help you receive the weaker you become. Come on! You are a young man in the prime of his life, take control of at least one thing.
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Interesting what you say about help:) It has been that way actually been that way.
But this time, it is different..I would never talk about the weird stuff to the regular medical people.
But last night I really needed help.. I didn't get it, I survived but you see I had the same problems today..Things have calmed down though..There are also things I am not mentioning which played a part.
I'm not totally sure how to solve the situation without help. I have not given you the full picture. If you knew what I went through last night I guess you would understand:?
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Yea,you survived because I gave it to you.You don't even know when you get help.That's how cracked up you are.Does anyone really believe that he belongs outside of a psychiatric unit?For those that do,you should read all the stuff he's written in my PM's and here.He's 100% psychotic,where do you think he belongs.What does somebody do with a person like this?
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I just checked if I sent you any PM's last night, I'm sorry, I was having a really sad time. At first I thought your post was just weird, but I can see your point.
Psychotic? is a lacking label..misused..and irrelevant. A ward? what on earth would that do besides knocking me out?
Sorry, I am grateful for your help:) The one thing I am focused on is to get past these issues and start healing.
I think I remember sensing someone..it wasn't easy keeping my cool no.
if you would not have helped I dont know what would have happened:? i dont think you do either, thank you:)
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I just remembered that I had help, I just didn't know who it was:)
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You need help,by someone who can be with you physically,not through the internet.You are incoherent 99.9% of the time, so even I,who have been in contact with you the most have no clue as to what is really going on with you.No one here knows what started this,were you ever coherent,or what is really going on with you.You don't even remember asking me for help.You didn't just send me a PM you sent me an e-mail as well.
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Hey:)
I have been coherent before of course:)
The whole thing started around last new years actually, there was the week between christmas eve and new years I think, there was one particular week when things got really weird. My reality shifted quite rapidly and I got too much contact with astral, it did have a fairytale atmosphere to it..I didn't know of programming yet..
Then I started raw food which led me into a very weak and somewhat shallow state. But very awake so to speak, strange, I felt the boundaries between me and the rest were getting diffused..I liked that because of my previous mushrooms trips and I liked the idea of merging with the whole..
i then had a lot of astral entities around me, I saw them I felt them and some times heard them, I didn't suspect there was anything destructive going on..It was nwr..greenstar on occasions:P I noticed there were destructive entities though, especially when I had the greenstar running, I was very into al kinds of conspiracy information and could sit around all day and read such things..with my mind thats not good at all. i started getting a lot of those pins and needles. I had a period of compulsiveness too, which I think has to do with the attachment. And periods with the nwr where i found very beautiful experiences times and insights.. I am aware that the programs are me so it feels weird talking about them like this..Reading up on the programming caused more disintegration, and right before the summer i had a period where i felt just horrible with anxiety and sorrow, guilt and all kinds of crap..i thought some angels were telling me how bad i was pointing at all my errors:? i see now I was heavily manipulated.
Later on I started experiencing those blank states with panic, I know thats the attachment. And possibly others. Probably the first one.
I agree that at certain times I could use some assistance in that manner, but thats a tricky one:) rskiller removed 8 entities from me at one point, that could explain the confusion perhaps. not that he removed them of course but that I had that many:P
sorry if this was too much..looking backwards I see I have been ver programmed for a while..especially after psychedelics and drugs in general.
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