HeadSpace..Deprogramming diary

[HeadSpace]

Just came across this :


Band: Iron Maiden
Song: Moonchild
Album: Seventh Son of a Seventh Son

Lyrics:

Seven deadly sins
Seven ways to win
Seven holy paths to hell
And your trip begins
Seven downward slopes
Seven bloodied hopes
Seven are your burning fires
Seven your desires....
I am he the bornless one
The fallen angel watching you
Babylon, the scarlet whore
I'll infiltrate your gratitude
Don't you dare to save your son
Kill him now and save the young ones
Be the mother of a birth strangled babe
Be the devils own, Lucifer's my name
Moonchild - hear the mandrake scream
Moonchild - open the seventh seal
Moonchild - You'll be mine soon child
Moonchild - take my hand tonight
I count the heads of those unborn
The accursed ones I'll find them all
And if you die by your own hand
As a suicide you shall be damned
And if you try to save your soul
I will torment you - you shall not grow old
With every second and passing breath
You'll be so alone your soul will bleed to death
Moonchild - hear the mandrake scream
Moonchild - open the seventh seal
Moonchild - You'll be mine soon child
Moonchild - take my hand tonight
The twins they are exhausted,
seven is this night
Gemini is rising as the red lips kiss to bite
Seven angels seven demons battle for his soul
When Gabriel lies sleeping, this
child was born to die
One more dies one more lives
One baby cries one mother grieves
For all the sins you will commit
You'll beg forgiveness and none I'll give
A web of fear shall be your coat
To clothe you in the night
A lucky escape for you young man
But I'll see you damned in endless night

I dont like these people at all, but I did sort of listen to them when I was young at some point..I have been very shifting taste in music:? It wasn't really that I liked them either. It was just programming. Or something.

A lot of their music is about beasts and that stuff. Their band name iron maiden is a torture device. A very creepy device.

[HeadSpace]

I slept with the merger last night, I woke up and things are much more calm and still.
MC mentioned that experience is the best way to know, if not the only way and I agree.  The attachment has been confusing me and simulating stuff, effects of various techniques for example. It has been very involved and I see many others who have attachments like this are not so influenced.

I reread the consultation I got from SS and he mentioned demonization in at least one of the alters. I think I am in that one. I have had times when I used things like cannabis or mushrooms that i suddenly woke up in the middle of it. I think that might have been a different alter or something, that is sad when I retrieve myself and look at whom I'm with and feel love. Then I most often loose it again.

I am wondering how the most effective way to get it to stay out of the body is, I searched after information on Moon Children earlier. I found a novel By Aleister Crowley called Moon Child. I will read that one, it is supposed to be fictional but i dont think it is, perhaps a mixture. i saw a documentary once on either google or youtube about the NWO and mind control. They had interesting clips in there, they showed interviews with government people who were under the influence of mind control. one of them didn't look human either but seemed like a robot or something, very scary eyes.

They talked about an event with Crowley where he and others, including LaVey were creating a Moon Child. They then supposedly placed this child within the structure of something I believe was a atomic bomb, perhaps the first one in the states. The scientist was also involved in the rituals I think.

I never found this documentary again, they removed it shortly after.
If anyone knows what I'm referring to here and know where to find it I would be happy to hear:)

And information on Moon Children, would be valuable.

[Octahedron]

..The lion frequency. And I like lions:)

 

Why don't you change your icon then ?

Your icon gives me a feeling of a mind-controlled rodent eating fabricated junk food only.


 

[HeadSpace]

Oh:D I found it to be funny:) I'll change it.

[HeadSpace]

AJ, you mentioned that if I was in an alter I should stay away from all electronics for a week. And be completely focused and aware. What if I've been in that alter for some years now?

I am really grateful for being here by the way, it is very valuable to me:) And I am grateful for all the help I have gotten here from everyone. Without it I do not know where I would have been.

[Octahedron]

Oh:D I found it to be funny:) I'll change it.

Wow ! I see,

That's something completely different.

[HeadSpace]

I just ordered a 3-pack of DB's special creations and 36 towerbusters from uwantsun:) They are probably much more powerful than the ones I have.

I will also start making this myself as a hobby. I thought about making a tetrahedron of tubes filled with orgonite to have around my bed..And when I build my house, or buy one. I will build myself bedrooms with tetra-okta shapes, filled with orgonite:)

I know I could make the livingroom in a oktahedron, that's big enough. The house might look weird in the end though:D I'm not kidding, if I ever build or buy a house I will try to do this. Would be cool to have a layer of orgonite in the walls and floor, at least in the bedroom.

[HeadSpace]

I have been having this melody in my head lately, I was quite fond of Led Zeppelin before. I Have this on a dvd and I remember thinking or feeling somehow when hearing this that it was connected to something.

He is initiated into Ordo Templis Orientis and he is a fan of Aleister Crowley.

I was wondering what you hear in this? My attachment seems to be pushing it.

I know the demonic have been involved in rock music.

edit:

Forgot the link:P

http://www.dailymotion.com/video/x4shig_...page_music

I "sun god" when thinking about this, from the attachment.

[Astrojewels]

AJ, you mentioned that if I was in an alter I should stay away from all electronics for a week. And be completely focused and aware. What if I've been in that alter for some years now?

Have you been in this alter for years? Have you always felt the way you do now? Have you always been so isolated? Have you always not been able to focus?

Your mind is scattered, and this is due to your programming, and I have said it on many occasions, you are the only one who can let go and trust yourself enough to crawl out of the imprisonment that you feel. Yet programming creates an illusion that there is no other way, what you feel now is more addictive than any drug on this earth, because it is not a high or a hallucination, it is your life, you feel it every moment your breathe. You keep saying the attachment is stronger, but in reality you are stronger or you would not be able to endure such energy constantly holding on, but you have accepted it.

The spirit must be broken in order to reach the core.

[HeadSpace]

I went on a trip to a neighbor city yesterday, it was not all fun. I was in an alter and I struggled. When I came home I thought I had made progress and thought about how to move on. I was attacked by something and I asked oversoul for help after I got scared. After a while things calmed down, I was still scared but I seemed to be more balanced. I tried listening to music to soften my mood, first some old blues from non programmed people but I ended up hearing a song from jeff buckley called corpus christi carol which I heard before. I know I should stay away from him.

I went to sleep I woke up a few times befrore I got out of bed, at one time I got scared as I noticed I was not myself. I think I went back to sleep.

When I woke up I was different, more victimish which is similar to what I got from that song by Jeff before. I break.

I went home to my apartment, and I was going to do some stuff. But I instead went to talk to my neighbor. I knew I should not, my oversoul told me no. I did it anyway and while I was talking to him my sense of self got diminished and i saw he noticed it. I saw it in his eyes, he didn't recognize me. I then went home and I tried to ask my oversoul for help.

I ended up here, I'm in the house I grew up in. I know victim mentality is dangerous and that I will not suceed with it.

It is hard being around others which I love and appreciate while experiencing this, I can not tell them without looking like a crazy person.

I hope I will find friends that knows about this stuff. It would be helpful:)