New To Deprogramming

[PurpleParrot]

So I figured there will be people who will find out they are specifically programmed and will need to start out deprogramming and may need all the help they can get. This is how I feel right now in regards to finding out that I'm programmed and in need of a support group that I know in some ways I already have. I've analyzed my life countless number of times and I remember most of my dreams and experiences but obviously not any of the programming ones. For some time I thought I wasn't a programmed person because I didn't have the red hair/green eyes or blonde hair blue eyes,etc. I thought I was exempt because I was Indian and that East Indians aren't desired by"Them". I also compared myself to the list of symptoms two or three years back trying to determine if I was programmed. I thought it was such a crazy idea and that I felt sorry and sympathetic for those who are and are going through the deprogramming process. I did look at them in admiration and wished in some ways I could be there to help them. In a weird way, I kinda silently wished that I was one of them and getting all that attention but I know that they don't live stable lives. I was amazed at what they would find out about themselves. I found out I'm attracted to lots of famous celebrities who are programmed. For a year, it took me a while to get adjusted to the fact that the illuminati exist, there's alien races involved with manipulating man kind(I believed in aliens existing since childhood--or when I was preteen age), programmed people, and everything we know on this earth is something that needs to be second guessed since it may not be the truth and that we are so deceived its not even funny. Then another year, it took me a while to get used to THH work. Last year it took me a while to get used to Decoding Your Life work. I kept telling myself that sometime in my life, I'll get a consultation if I feel I'm stuck with my life and when I think I can afford to learn about simultaneous existences and genetics.  I had some strange experiences I couldn't describe and some experiences and behaviors that I wasn't able to get rid of completely even with decoding your life work,etc. When I met you guys, only then I started realizing things...especially when you guys suggested that I might be programmed. I kept thinking about it and couldn't accept it right away.When I purchased a service from Stewart, I learned some bizarre things about myself..and had to query him about it as well as being programmed. So yeah..I'm programmed. Funny thing was I thought I'd go into complete shock or fear about it or even denial. Strangely, I'm accepting it without being so surprised..I actually feel joyous in knowing something and finding out that I get to find the pieces of the puzzle to myself. Only thing is I want to know about it all now..but I have to do it slowly!!!

I figured that it took me so long to come to this conclusion because I needed to be exposed to the truth about the world, then slowly accept and deal with that. Then I needed to get used to using new techniques to keep myself protected. Then I needed to learn another way of connecting to Oversoul though I was probably aware of it on some levels earlier in my life and didn't know about it...reiki initiation made me more aware of it but I was calling it the higherself at that time.. This time its the Oversoul and I use silver infinity to connect to it. I figured that I needed to gain some self confidence and strength in learning about myself. So maybe thats why it took me so long. I guess I should thank Oversoul for that...I know that this is serious stuff and not to take so lightly...and I know that I'm strong enough now to know about myself and be able to deal with it. Before I probably would have gone into shock if I had learned this...I think I am brave and can withstand it. I just have to always be balanced and stay composed.

I feel like I will be going through so many more changes. Last year I changed so much but I'm going to have to go through more changes and be bold and strong about it. I have to learn how to monitor myself in more detail now and change the way I write my journals. Its no longer going to be venting out my angers and frustrations or simply analyzing my dream anyway I want to..or posting songs and explaining why I posted them. Its going to be analyzing alters,talking about what triggered me--how and why, weird dreams(on what days would help too-and how I feel), my behaviors on certain holidays, strange repetitive incidences, what happened after I did a deprogramming experience and so on. But of course I may keep it on paper or find some private internet journal to do this.

I won't know what to do aside from doing merger on all chakras, silver infinity, grounding, UVP, t bar balancing and sea salt baths until I read about the exercises.

Maybe you guys could share your experiences about how you felt in the beginning of it all? I think I will later list some strange experiences, behaviors and dreams I have that pertain to the programming aspects. Wow..it feels weird..."They" actually want me and have been using me all this time. But...Bummer...I probably do terrible things that I wouldn't consciously be proud of and I'm not completely free in this world yet. Well we'll all change it so that we're all free I hope!!!

peace

[Richard]

Your story is interesting, I’m glad you shared it with us. I had the opposite reaction when I found out I am programmed. I wished I wasn’t programmed and just a normal person. I don’t like the idea of being programmed. I know my oversoul agreed to it but I don’t know why. I wonder if it was tricked into it because I can’t imagine picking a programmed life to experience. I can’t imagine picking a life on this planet for that matter. P-LOL

Now I have a lifetime or more of deprogramming to do to figure it all out. It’s interesting finding things out but I think I would rather be a normal un-programmed person. P-Wink

Oh yeah, now that you know you’re programmed, you’ll have to keep an eye on your bedroom closet. :ninja:

[SilverInfinity]

If you think you heard a cracking sound or saw weird colors at the closet, place it in violet and then leave the bedroom. Let's try not to make her afraid of the closet :)

Purple Parrot, thank you for sharing your story. It's perfectly fine that you started off slow. Nothing should come off as a shocker. You did what you could with the knowledge you had. But accepting that you are programmed is the first step. Welcome to the matrix. (quite seriously)

[William]

  PurpleParrot, Thank you for your story,  You are Brave and wonderful to share with us!

   :)

 

[William]

If you think you heard a cracking sound or saw weird colors at the closet, place it in violet and then leave the bedroom.

 

  Talking about Cracking sounds.  Have any of you experienced that.  You know, your laying on your bed daydreaming or resting, you fall off into slumber then a part of you wakes up to a cracking sound.  Maybe you can move maybe your paralyzed..........  There might be swirling colors or a black mass spinning in the corner of the ceiling.....

   Maybe its just me?

[SilverInfinity]

I am betting it was ELF trying to induce an OOBE on you.

[William]

  That makes sense SilverInf.   Ahhh pieces of the puzzle come together.

[Reader]

I have often experienced the Cracking sounds but usually assumed it was just the roof timbers expanding or something - also have awoken to swirling purple and dark blue colours but again assumed it was my eyesight.  As I am new to all tlhis I have't done many deprogramming exercises,  but after reading a lot of the info on some of the links, there are many tlhings that I have come across before that seem to make sense now (including feelings of familiarity with some of the info).  What is the significance of the sounds and swirling?

[William]

  I would say with help from Silverinf that the cracking sound is part of ELF or them programming you, or trying to send you into OOBE to program you. 

[Guest]

i had some sort of autitory prgramming that i used to work through. i think it came from the ring antennae, i'd use to mentally create music out of sounds that were aroudn me. after long loud raves busses would sound liek running drums, and i'd follow it and add tones, stuff liek that. after you give too much power to those habit responses it can get out of hand. i strted hearing "nioses" upstairs, liek loud pounding and heaviness.. never knew what it was. it got out of hand, i thought it was ghosts... turned out it was just shitty energy from fighting, drugs upstairs, drunkeness and kids watching disney movies all day... apartment building too, could you imagine? not understanding, most likely tube closed and depressed, with 4 years of ciggarettes, playing in a band with a luciferian frontman things got prety out of hand. then my oldest friend hooked it up with some help. since then it's been easy.

just keep merging, it's best at the pineal really. just keep it there all day if you can, try to remember to keep it up. balance in the morning and evening, it helps you to remember that no matter what it's always balanced somewhere, you may feel the need to reach to godmind for it but what's wrong with that, it's also physically in front of you.

 

all noises are only there to grab you attention. approch neutrally and carefully and you shoudl be able to find out safely what it is. remember it could easily be you/alters, a programmer, a memory, or you recieving information throughh antennae, any combination of these, so be careful. i started approaching everythign as being extrernal. it's fucked me up. i'd be chilling at weng's place drinking margaritas bye now if it wasn't for those initial errors. here's to you friends, CHEERS.