HeadSpace..Deprogramming diary

[HeadSpace]

I would also be interested in knowing more about that:)

It is really shocking amounts of elf here. Did I mention that I usually see and hear it:?
I think I might have been targeted or something, it feels like an attack.

But I did find lion frequency earlier:D Didn't last long though because I got lost in some weird thoughts. I suspect my IP is having a party or somethingicon_afraid

[HeadSpace]

Any idea what meaning my conjunction might have? :)

[Astrojewels]

Headspace,

There is a great deal of ELF everywhere, it is nearly time for the Pluto change and they are trying to download everyone before this new energy takes hold, when an outer planet changes signs it affects the entire solar system, and not on a personal level like the closer planets.

The area I live in rarely has chemtrails, we have 300 blue sky days a year, even in the winter the skies are clear, chemtrails are often done by stealth craft at night so they are not visible but this past week our skies have been filled, we have even had the criss-cross which I have never seen here before.

We are also getting to the time of year which is imperative for illuminati energy, Christmas and the New Year are the major times for sending people off their energy fields, rituals and frequency downloads.

[HeadSpace]

Never seen any of those chemtrails here:) But we have often have heavy clouds too.

I noticed while searching for info on the galactic centre that a conjunction between it and pluto appeared around 2006-7 I think, or maybe it was 07-08. Some of the interpretations I read certainly fits the last couple of years for me:?

The only thing I could find on my conjunction is that some astrologer thought we might get sucked into a black hole at some point:P

I had a very sad experience today and I got very sad. I talked with my oversoul and at some point I think it got me into bear frequency which I tried to get into just earlier. If it is bear frequency then I love it:D I also love my oversoul very much, just have to say that.

After I tried to get into bear frequency earlier, right after visualising the archetype I felt happier and visualising got easier. Much easier, it did something to my pinealicon_biggrin

Also had some positive change after sleeping with the perfecting the pineal archetype I drew under my pillow some days ago.

Had a tough day and I realised some things about myself. I have a lot to work on, and not all is equally fun. Some things are quite scary.

Since I woke up that day with my sexual alter or whatever that was it has stuck with me, I do not think it was an alter. I have extreme sexual energy, way too much and it is creating imbalance. I think it is good that I am reclaiming that energy but I do need to work on it and get it to use and in balance.

Had an idea about expanding the business further down the road too, will be fun.

Would love to read up on what that conjunction might mean so if you have any tips I would be grateful:)

Really love that beer smiley, it makes me want oneicon_razz

[HeadSpace]

I was doing something on the computer and I suddenly had the thread started by kittykilroti in front of me. I accidentally clicked my way in. I started reading.

Then I had the compulsive thought thing or projecting. Like something within me is pulling strings or something. I projected towards the sirian direction, I felt a connection. Then a presence, I became more grounded either because of my oversoul grounding me. Probrably the truth. But I felt a presence. Something familiar. At some point something lionish. But I dont think I can trust it. I'm not sure.

I also changed my frequency, I felt more in tune with a different lifeline or something. that may or may not be nonsense, I am not sure. I felt a connection towards the sirian stuff. Not sure who or what, but something.

Had to do with lions.

The mainthing is that I have had a lot of that kiond of stuff but this felt as real as anything else, more real than any other of those kind of experiences. As in real:?

I also think someone is communicating with me, but i have no way of knowing who. That is something I get every day most of the time but that seems to be in the regualr mix of candidates (IP, alter, attachment, astral lizzies, or other astral stuff of the less nice type) This was different.

It is not imposssible that it has something to do with past.




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I think I may have been a cougar or a mountain lion at some point, several things point to it.

[HeadSpace]

I can actually feel the matrix, and at times see it in my visual field. Since my visual field is a reflection. When I do see it I think it might be because of different parts of it interacting with each other.

In some places, subpersonalities or alters I feel as if I am sitting at the edge of something or sort of pushed out of the circle so to speak. Or at the front of the matrix which is probrably what it is. Annoying:?

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Theres this guy where I live, I always thought he was kind of strange looking. Something about him, nothing special but a quality.

A political guy, I'm certain he is a liz. He has that typical look. And the eyes too, I've not seen any slits but I can see it when they are regular too in some cases. There is something there.

He seems to come up into focus sometimes. I'm not sure why that got stuck.
Things are getting strange here. It seems I get someones attention whenever I am getting forward:X

And I am getting tired of the violet, I still dont have it up and running. My oversoul is pushing my on that and it is messing with my sleep since I tend to feel bad about going to sleep without it. And it ends up with me making unproductive mindpatterns about the whole thing so that it keeps going.

Another day before going to bed I tried to focus and remove all toxins and energetics from the pineal and to get it to work. I experienced a great shift and things started to vibrate and everything became different. When was a raw food nut I could do this and sort of blend energetically with my environment. The people in the raw food business say you get more open, thats most probrably true in a very literal way. The separation between you and the surroundings fade. At least for me, it seems less dense and very often more cheerful. But not good with all the elf and astral entitys running around. Broccoli is a good one, something about that vegetableicon_razz

[HeadSpace]

Had a strange night, I decided to stay awake through the next day to fix my sleeping patterns. I've changed place in my matrix again:)

Found my heart chakra I think:P made me remember that I was in touch wih my oversoul long before I read about it in the swerdlows work. I was talking to my self and often when I was deeply sad and in conflict with myself my oversoul helped me out. Each time facing my self. Or that facing myself made me realize more of my higher parts.. I think.

[Astrojewels]

The person you feel that is constantly trying to communicate with you is most likely your higher self, this is common because the programming blocks the thread of connection, because at the end of the day they want you to disconnect from this power source – your higher self.

If you are becoming tired of violet, then this color is not for you at the moment, use another, and don’t let color drain you. Your heart chakra seems to be active at the moment, use some mid green to give you a boost, make a green vegetable concoction, do you have a blender?   

The bear frequency can create sadness I have noticed in many people, and also create one to sleep longer and eat heavier meals. I don’t know of any sites that can help you with that conjunction, I don’t really surf the web for astrology sites, the information you have received, use that to begin with what you seek, so put your node, ascendant and first house placement together with your galactic placement, because you will never find the answers in one, write down all that you feel connects to you, then put them all together, life is just like a puzzle, the more of the picture you find the easier it is to put the rest of the pieces.

[HeadSpace]

Thank you:)

I do have a blender and I used to make green smoothies a while ago, but I got tired of it. Amazing energy though and the oxygenation.

The conjunction might have something to do with my compulsiveness I think.

To be honest, I do not think that was my higher self. I know my higher self/oversoul communicates through knowing and feelings and occasionally thoughts I think.

I'm in doubt over the last one as I tend to be unstable and my intuition and those thoughts also shift with me. It sometimes seem as if there are several different sources of these thoughts. It may be my alters speaking to me. I have too much self talk, to the point where I often lose my self in between.

I had a breakdown last night, I lost control over my mind and projected things.

[Astrojewels]

Headspace,

No one knows you better than you, so it could be someone trying to communicate or as you say alters coming through, sorry to hear that you had a bad night, I hope today is a better day for you.