HeadSpace..Deprogramming diary

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Tomorrow you should eat even better.I like food too,so you're not the only one.Don't look at the calories,look at what you're eating.Eat some good food.Mayo is fine for the digestion.You're not going to have an entire jar,and don't get the kind that has less calories.That just bullsh*t.It's more harmful than the one that has 1000 calories.Americans do that.They look at the calories,meanwhile they're the size of a house.A good idea would be to have a fight with the voices.You have to be tuff.If you're not tuff and don't have a fight with them,they will stay.I heard voices once.
And I told them a couple of things they could do to themselves,which I won't mention here,and I never heard from the voices again.So,you have to be forceful.You do not need images or violet paint.You need to learn to use your mind.You can do it.You should get some frankincense oil.The best kind I would recommend is from http://www.auracacia.com it's from eatern africa.Not all frankincense oil is the same.You have to rub it on your forehead every day.It oxygenates the third eye chakra.You rub it from your eyebrows up,not the entire forehead.Sit,with your favorite music,in your room and,relaz and iamgine that the room is in violet.

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I just mailed someone about castor oil today, i found a online shop selling it here, but after a while i found the norwegian name and heard it's everywhere:? I wondered about frankincense, it seems to pop up often:) I will order some.

But I'll still paint the bedroom violet:D It would probably ease the atmosphere, just to make things more relaxing. All the walls are white at the moment and it has a way of making me mad:?

I am very aware of the quality of the food i eat and want the best, but I have been offline for a while, I have been very supressed and manipulated..At one point I sort of gave up eating because I thought i was going to die and that eating would make the process more stressful:? Theres a story behind that to, I was told I had killed people with my thoughts and could save them and so on..just a lot of bull.

Would never go for the low fat of anything actually, it's a weird trend..I cant see the problem with fat..exept for the trans..of course theres less healthy ones..
It is really weird how careless a lot of people are about their eating habits.

I have times where I go nuts on the less healthy stuff too like cakes and stuff, often one or the other. Either very healthy or sometimes very unhealthy but I never get any harm from it..Mainthing for me is balance I think, my whole life is pointing towards that.

Tought about ordering some natural tobacco too, but I think I'll wait til my throat clears up.

Never tried any essential oils, was going to try some of expansions elixirs. Will buy them next time I get one of their dvd's or something.

[MC]

The castor is not going to help your third eye,the frankincense is.Well,white walls are boring.Well,you're not going to die,so let's get back to the table and get some good food into you.Who told you that you killed people with your thoughts?If you ever get cholesterol,let me know,and I'll tell you how to get rid of it,what herb to drink.You smoke?American Spirit is one of the natural tobacco cigarettes.We have Evdokia on this forum,so you should ask her about the elixirs.

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I come to the conclusion that the cholesterol hype regarding eggs are a myth, they say saturated fats are worse for the cholesterol:) I don't do much of that, but I guess mayo had that too:?

I did smoke in my teens and I regret that. horrible stuff, cannabis took its place eventually. But I know the natural tobacco is something else, the shamans use it for grounding too. But I guess they dont always use that, they seem to use a lot of different herbs for that.

It was astral creatures who told me..At some points I thought I was talking to dead people and stuff. I was very happy when I found out I didn't kill anybody:)

My father is going away on a trip now and they sell kava there which is illegal here in norway, I hope he finds it. I would really love to try it out:)

I thought it was stewart and janet who made the elixirs, I thought it was weird since they have so much work to do.. I could ask her I guess:)

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Before going to bed last night I started getting tense and I felt manipulated, I was awake large portions of the night and felt the presence of someone very angry i think..I woke up today different than yesterday I think:? Difficult to explain.

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Since one particular night about a week ago or so I felt different, altered, I was. I was less aware of the compulsive stuff coming from outside of me or that it was not mine. Also less aware in general of myself.. Then I got more astral trouble and I got that dislocated blank feeling again. I wasn't quite myself.. I have shaken off a good deal of astral creatures I think but I have been left with some of that blank feeling and I'm not quite myself yet..And of course, then there's the part I mentioned above..

I am working on staying clear of the astral creatures, that's my first priority. Then I will start everything else..I think that's a good plan..for me. I tend to be very into whatever I focus on and I have never been very good at multitasking:? I will change that eventually.

I just thought about the attachment and some stuff and I think I got messed with a little, things changed more. I know when its around I think.

Can one retrieve lost mindpatterns?

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Hey:)

Something strange has happened, they did something and I feel different..I might need some advice on the situation, but stewart never answers his mails..

I wonder can one retrieve personality if it is altered, is it stored in oversoul or the soul? or something? Dont know if I want the answer..


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It might be right as my family has suspected that i would do well with laying off the information presented here for a while. because a lot of it brings more stuff back up..
I mean theres always something new to get caught up in, I feel I should have started with all of this and the information after working on myself and grounding and balancing but of course i was experiencing stuff that only the information stewart or you had at the time..

It is just self sabotage. I will work on that. I am. Sorry for the turbulence:)

PS!

Had some good experiences with violet today:) I tried it within the head and things improved, I then thought of a bubble and i felt it..but someone did try to mess it up..i will keep going at it.

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I think I need some help again, or advice.. i was just thinking about the attachment and ways to break it and I thought about stewart, he mentioned lion frequency would break it. Then of course there was sabotaging thoughts, it's not really me who does it..more like mechanism or someone else entirely. Not sure, I guess it has been both or is both.

Anyway, I felt a difference and I feel something is missing right now. It was like this all the time, I thougth of something sabotaging, or I was pushed and something happened. But a lot of those times it wasn't real..At least it was not what I thought it was.

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I just thought it was not real this time either, and it came back, I noticed it now and its a strong quality..

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I am going to take the drivers license this year, that will be fun:) I was always crazy about cars and stuff when I was young so that will probably be fun for me:)

Can also travel much more freely, then theres this little secret I know of here on the net. It's a little kit you install which kind of makes your car a hybrid, it then uses 50% less gas:D I'm getting one of those:) Theres increase in horsepower too. And one of the guys who made it showed a video where he inhaled the exhaust, so it does something to the pollution:P it almost seems to good to be true but I believe it.
The set costs about 1000$ slightly above perhaps. Pretty cool:)

Will be nice to get moving around, can make friends all over the country. Can do that now too but it's different when you can move on your own..


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I could mention that I had a nice reconnect to myself and oversoul just a while ago and it helped me very much:) I just need to work on getting clear of astral.
Ok, a lot of stuff going on. I just had a lot of noise. Very strange.

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When I went to bed last night I was feeling good, more myself..But there were a strong presence there, throughout the night I was struggling with that presence half conscious trying to sleep..It has been like that many nights. When I woke up I feel very different, less like myself..more like someone else..:?

It has to do with mindpatterns..sometimes it's genetic sequences, sometimes the body, sometimes people and their lives, or my life..now thisicon_muede
I need to break the pattern and get away from those entities..

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Just tried the T-bar and I noticed tremendous effects:D I will do that more often. Very nice to see the difference. But thee is one presence i need to shake off, that might be the attachment..I am not quite sure..