HeadSpace..Deprogramming diary

[Astrojewels]

Citrine in a natural form does not need cleansing, yet if you buy it in a polished form it does, citrine is very cheap and readily available, it is also good for cleansing smaller crystals. Everything in my world centers around a pattern of thought, so you have chosen a yellow power stone, which all I can say resonates the unstable energy of your solar plexus, something for you to think about.   

you should not just look for crystals that do not need cleansing, it is a very easy process, my 11 yr old can do it, and has done since she was 3.

[HeadSpace]

Alright:? I have always liked it though..
Is there any crystal you would like to recommend?

Edit:

I mailed the orgon vendor and he'll send a new package:)
And I just had a reapperance of a smell I noticed a month back when in that psychosis thing..strange. I wrote about that earlier in the thread.

[Astrojewels]

No, because it has to be your choice, if you like it, buy it. all I am saying is don’t choose because it is easy, choose for purpose. That way you will benefit, go to a store, run your hands over all the different types, pick up energy from them, don’t buy them online, unless you want a particular stone.

It is wonderful going to a store filled with crystals, truly amazing it is like being in another world, or another dimension, close your eyes for a moment and just feel it, it is truly amazing, truly.  

[HeadSpace]

I did visit one last summer, it was cool and refreshing but on the ride home from then on I went through a weird experience, driving through a forest I felt a very dark atmosphere and I felt a presence there..Not a good description but the experience was strange. I bought a lapiz, quartz, amethyst and something else which I don't remember.

For me now I think I need something grounding, balancing and something that might provide protection if that's possible. Dealing with negative energies. I have a sodalite necklace but it broke, I'm thinking of sending it to those who made it for repair. That one needs a lot of cleansing I think..

Wonder if it would be good to put it in salt for a while. I guess that would charge it or something. I was told to put it on the ground outside overnight.

I was going to buy rose quartz to have around the home.
I will do some research on what might be best.

Thank you:)

Edit:

Ok, I actually knew. I need jasper. I knew that from the last time I was looking a tstones. And I felt it. The description of the stone fits too:D I will try out hose other ones too at some point, but I know I should try out jasper. I asked my oversoul about that a while back too. I will get a gemisphere necklace, same as the sodalite. They are quite nice.

[Astrojewels]

Interesting that you choose lapis, this is a very ancient crystal that enhances the brow chakra and attracts your deepest fears so often, it can be like pushing you into the deep end and you can’t swim but you need to learn real fast or you will drown. But it is also very protective and enhances all psychic connections.

The energy of the sodalite is over, and no do not put your crystals in salt, because it broke and you can not use it, do not get it fixed, it is no longer a requirement of your higher source for energetic purpose, do not be disappointed, it has done its job and that’s it. Sodalite is a similar stone to the lapis and has many like qualities, it seems you wanted to open your intuitive channel but were not quite ready for it.

rose is one of my favs.

[HeadSpace]

I have this amethyst on my nightstand, i haven't given it much attention but I just held it while I was placing some salt next to my bed.. And it really really works, very powerful. It gave me peace from the astral for a moment there :)

But I feel I should not do that for long, but that may not be me. It could be the astral, I noticed someone was annoyed.

[HeadSpace]

I had an intense day, I woke up and was alright. Calm and not that much bothered by the demonic. But things got weird after a while, I then took a salt bath and dressed up in brown. That helped but on a drive things got seriously weird, I visited my apartment and noticed the atmosphere was really healthy for me. I've been at my mothers house for a while helping out with a younger sibling. I dont think that place is good for me. Janet mentioned something about my relationship with my mother.

On the drive home the attachment started messing, and I noticed bits of another place I've been or a persona which is connected to the demonic..

They still bug me, I had meat and things got really intense. I just tried putting the place in violet with intention and it works, just made an affirmation for clearing the aura of entities, that also worked:)

It's nice to be able to do things myself, but of course I just got had payback..Someone sometimes do something to my left hemisphere, it feels uncomfortable physically. I did get serious blows there which hurt a month ago..

Now, I feel calm. But I sense something is wrong. hard to describe. Something is wrong, I was edgy and had energy and drive and then this happens and I feel sterile..

I am glad I'm leaving the astral stuff behind.


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This changed but I had more manipulation and then I tried violet and someone posed as benevolent and helping which I should not buy, I know. I then had other changes.
In regards to mindpattern or something.

There's someone messing with me:?

Weird.

[HeadSpace]

I remembered that I picked up a card in my apartment with the balancing the ego symbol in yellow. The worst part started after I left there so I tried taking it out of my pocket a while ago and things settled down:) I now focused on restoring my chakras healthy colors and I feel much better:)

I still have not decided if the archangelic symbol should be on that cross, it seems noone has anything to say about it:? It is the highest angelic so I guess it fits the top pillar in that way(?) But I wonder if it upsets or does anything to the balance.

Edit: My mother just arrived and I noticed things get way more upset and imbalanced.
I need to ease down on my visits.

[HeadSpace]

It is the attachment which has been messing with me all along I think.
It was pretty aggressive right now. I do think it's sad how there's so little information on this..I feel pretty pissed right now and it's not entirely me.

I wonder if there's anyone out there who can help me break this connection, since people make them it should be possible to break them too. But it seems you mean it only happens over time.

It has never been like this, I just felt like crying..And I know it was manipulation, I feel it in the solar plexus. I know it's trying to make me panic.

I feel it on the head, uncomfortable..Hurts sometimes. I was just shown a scene from a funeral I was in months ago..i managed to fall in some stairs and hit my head, I did actually hit my head where it has hurt up until now.

I dont know if that has done something. But I often feel it there and it is not my workings..I think.

I am healing, that's what I choose.

[HeadSpace]

I was just surfing and I minimized all the windows, my wallpaper appeard which is now a big lion staring you right in the eye..Really intense. Whatever entity was around made was shocked or something. I felt a stir..Then I was manipulated to thinking that I was mocking them with the lion or something..Of course then I get payback vibes..They were not my thoughts, they dont come from me, they sometimes are within my field of perception and dressed up like if they were mine.

It's very annoying.