HeadSpace..Deprogramming diary

[HeadSpace]

Woke up today and noticed the nwr was/is lurking. I hear music. And I was an addict, I remember I did hear music then too and then I often started listening to that music too..triggers and stuff. I was really in a web there for a long time. Mostly nwr stuff and some greenstar, I remember because it had major effects on me.

I also left an amethyst rock out the other night and slept with it this night. I woke up in a very calm and quiet place:) But it didn't have that radiant strong feeling as it did other times. Strange, I didn't bury it or anything. I just put on the ground and covered it with leaves so that noone would steal it.

Will soon have rosequarts:) That will be interesting. Had crazy dreams tonight, and before falling asleep I had some kind of vision imposed on me by the astral entities, a guy had a star in his belly twisted around and a voice said something like "this will fix you up" or something..in a mean and somewhat scary tone. Then I woke up from that and my immediate thought ws trigger, the room did have more fog and that stuff. But things calmed down.

A persona was lurking today, the nwr program. I get this strange overly talkative tone and talk about all sorts of strange stuff..

Now I was about to find the merger in the my pictures folder and i hear hendrix and my eyes suddenly fix on the greenstar/merge picture.. Thats weird. It is not me. Not ip either.

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I wrote that this morning. Forgot to post it, dont see much value in though..I've had demonization today. It's hellish. Pissed off and feeling very frustrated:?

I have been doing violet and merging, the merger helps. And grounding. I notice whenever the attachment does something the grounding gets weak.

I notice I got more feminine when in a certain persona or something today. I know the place and it is leaning towards androgynism:?
I'm not gay, I am grateful for that:)

Still hope someone can help with the aleph,bet and gimel question:)

[HeadSpace]

I have not really tried and used the wolf or bear frequencies, because it seems they hold some weird stuff for me. I think the astral creatures might want me to try them, I suspect it has something to do with programming. I'm not sure.

I would like to try wolf, but I think it is special to me in some way. Just not sure how yet. I hope it's not related to sexual programming. Stewart mentioned I have ritual related programming.

I think I read or heard somewhere that bear was used in ritual.. But I guess the frequencies themselves cant hurt that much(?). If I'm conscious.

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Just tried getting in the wolf frequency and I felt more power and something else. Still weak, I will try more. The noise from astral did quiet down:)

I think I like it. Strange, I have been duped before..
But I think the wolf frequency might have been with me before, without the symbol..

Not sure bear is such a good idea for me. Although calmness, power, and inner peace sounds nice..If thats what it holds.. Can poke a bear, but you cant fight him:P

I have this weird energy, I've had it before too. Many times but not in a while. It sometimes got very very intense, overpowering my whole personality. That might be the attachment though. it often messes things up when I do stuff in order for me to think it is the effect, which it might not always be. That has been the past anyway.

The orgone came today, haven't picked up the package yet but I'm just about to. It was less units then I expected. 2hhg's and 7towerbusters..

I like the wolf, been there before many times:D Cool. Might explain why I saw that silver wolf symbol, but I'm not sure. The attachment often shoves things right up my face like that.

I noticed, the attachment did that energy thing. It gets intense. I remember on speed it got so intense the energy just overrides the body and I feel like braking out of it:? Not good, and it most certainly does not feel good the day after.

But I placed the aleph bet and gimel in my head, did some violet. Feet in brown, then held a merger to my forehead. Things calmed down. i remember I have been there before too, but before in my past it was like holding back a cheetah from it's prey.. It's about to just burst.. Felt like it, I've had issues with nervous energy too in my life.
I'll cut it here, I think I have to stop the frequency, it's to intense.

[HeadSpace]

I got the orgone now, out of the package I felt it working. But now I feel the atmosphere in the apartment is overpowering and electric. I guess i should not have them all in the same apartment?

Less noise from astral:D But it feels tiring. I think I'll put some of them outside.
The guy said it was made to be buried outside.

Heavy stuff.

[HeadSpace]

I was bombarded with stuff after I got the orgone today. A lot of swooshing and buzzing and manipulation, demonization. A mess. The after a while i did the ears in violet, then more violet. Always good to put the head in royal blue before doing anything I've found out. It aids visualization. And clarity, I love that color. Then I covered all implants in violet, held and set. Everything dissappeared:) Then after a while things started rolling again while doing the dishes, always the dishes:?(whats the symbology here?It's an old battle:P) . I tried putting mergers on the implants, that did something very new. Something effective. But the astral did something at the same time to confuse me. So things got a little upset. Interesting.

Orgone works:) I'll buy the DB's special creation when I have the money. I have a tendency to buy more than I can pay for:?

I'll get that gold cross first. I like gold, never had anything in gold before.

[Mercy Now]

Headspace, I believe DB is having a sale right now.:)  What orgon-ite did you get that needs to be buried? The ony orgon-ite that I know that requires burying are the earth pipes?

[HeadSpace]

Hey:)

It's 2 Holy Hand grenades and 7 towerbusters from whale orgone:) he said they were meant for burying outside. They do look a bit rough and they are. But they work and that's great:)

I will buy more from him and gift the place. It's a small town with only 8.000 people.

Dont need much:P

[Mercy Now]

You can make your own of course and I highly recommend over gifting. I suppose some folks bury the tb's but it's not necessary . Just placing them where they are not easily detected and or confiscated is fine. I put a HHg under the tallest tree I can find. The tree loves it and acts as a broadcaster. When I intially put up my CB all the trees and plants leaned toward it. It was so funny. Eventually as the atmosphere got more absorbed with orgon-ite they straightened up.:D

[HeadSpace]

Sounds interesting:) My first thought was the schools here, especially the childrens school. Hopefully, it will promote a peaceful atmosphere. I noticed more happy vibes when I got it:) Or less of negativity. Cool if the tricky kids start calming down..

This will be fun:)

I also got a new lamination machine today as I broke the last one, it's very nice to have. I've printed out some cards and some lion pictures. It's very handy:)

[Mercy Now]

Headspace, I would use the HHg's that you have for yourself in the beginning. By that I mean in your immediate enviroment  then move outward with what you acquire or make.Orgon-ite will help clarify .You can place a tb beneath a tree as well .This will have a similar affect as the HHg.

[HeadSpace]

I will do that, might be fun. I enjoy that kind of work:) And I like crystals.. I could use rosequartz.. I never quite got the point about cleansing and charging. Are they no longer in need of that once inside the cone with all the metal? Or is it the energy flowing through?

I guess if I put them outside they'll work better:)

I have also noticed that implants has been a major pain for me over the last months. I didn't really think about it before now.