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It is uncanny, how any one of us might be used...
Perhaps, I am not meant to be here. I don't know...
Sariel - when I visited the other day and saw your icon changed - I was repelled - forcefully. I left intent never to come here again. I saw your icon-change as a 'sign'.
Yet here I am...
I so detest those creatures - I haven't any idea why.
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Dear Xan-I
I just feel like sharing this and perhaps I'm really talking to my reflections and myself.
Whatever decision you make is best for yourself at the right moment at the right time! I think most of us here try not to offend each other and I feel connections to the majority here. A part of me seeks to reach out to others more but at the same time I feel like hiding in my shell for fear of hurting or getting hurt. So its like I put two steps in and then jump back out. That's how I honestly feel. I have enjoyed and loved most of the people in my life(hey also sort of irritated too by many lol but I never wanted to tell people that they've hurt or angered me because I didn't think I should give my anger to them) but I'm also at a point where I need to be a focused person more than ever. I've allowed myself to become distracted by so many things in my life and its a lesson I learn. I know I will always meet people and acquaintances but I don't know what will truly be permanent for me in my life except Oversoul and God-Mind and myself!! I have gotten attached to people instantly and then when I felt we couldn't commit to each other, I detached and didn't want to deal with abandonment. Also, I know that many times I've been in situations where I was with the wrong crowd or even in wrong places...so I am still learning whats right for me and who is right for me and what is right for me.
Anyway, I have a lot to think about and this is one of the things that popped up in my mind!!
I hope you stay(I'm always about the more the merrier and more people power) but we also hope you do whats best for you!!!!
Also, I just noticed Sariel's icon---and I don't want to be irresponsible by telling you this..but if you felt a strong reaction to the icon, perhaps you need to look deeper into it. I believe its one of your triggers and I could be wrong!!!
peace
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If something triggers you then you should work with deprogramming what has triggered you or you will be caught off gaurd again and again. I love the Scorpian symbol and know without a doubt that i have Scorpian programming. The creature might give me the heebee geebees but as a symbol i wont turn from it and want to deprogram from it and the icon gives me the chance everytime i see it.
Xan-i, only as the topic here is about being programmed, do you think your programmed or not, answer only if you want. Or answer that you dont know. Im only saying this because your in the thread. You dont have to answer at all is fine!
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Purple Parrot - I'm glad you felt you could share all that - thankyou.
But I don't understand - wouldn't it be more 'irresponsible' not to tell me?
William - I do not think I am specifically programmed. However, my reaction to the icon did make me wonder...I guess that is what I was trying to say before. What does it represent? As I understand it, according to reptillian symbology it represents religious triad; its 'higher form' being the eagle? I'm not too fond of the eagle as a symbol either...
For me, the scorpion appears to be a 'warning' (back off/stay away). The eagle; corruption.
I just find it uncanny that Sariel would change icons the day after I had been here thinking about it (in relation to 'fears'). And so, I think it is very important that it came into my mind and then another member presents a graphic.
I could of course, dismiss it all as coincidence.
P.S. However, I simply cannot ignore this - it is much too strong a reaction to 'feel' towards anything...
"I was a young kid I couldn't wait to go to the library to get books on things such as Loch Ness, UFOs, extra dimensions, black holes, anything out of the 'ordinary', and I've always loved books and movies on horror/sci fi."
i was the same way as a young kid, ufo/aliens and dinosaurs, i was also obsessed with horror movies especially Friday the 13th movies, I had seen all of them by the time I was 8 or 9, i even dressed up as Jason(my hero at the time) for halloween, and once as satan. I'm still not convinced I'm specifically programmed, perhaps a scan by stewy is in order.
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Like you Kid, Purple Parrot and William, i do not think i have Special Programming but have General Programming in some ways like many other people.We should all just work on our Victim Mentalities and Programming issues as life is short on this Earth and life seemingly rushes by so quickly.
doubt and uncertainty abotu this can be very dangerous as you coudl attract programming through this unsurity, let's release all these doubts and feel better about ourselves, no matter kinda state we're in yeah?
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Hi xan-i
Scorpion is a deep level of sexual programming, beyond Moanrch and Dragonfly. It is best to leave it until you have experience with basic and intermediate deprogramming techniques, as it is a very powerful and deceptive energy. The scorpion is a frequency that is very difficult to get out of when you get too entrenched in it, so I would say your reaction was normal and sane! It certainly may have been a trigger for you, but in that case just violet flush yourself, and visualise the merger smbol at your pineal. :)
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Ops, I didn't want to trigger anyone here with my Scorpio icon.
Instead, relating to my Scorpio programming, I saw that as deprogramming process.
If anyone here is triggered by any icon related to any programming symbol it would be good for him to start deprogramming process.
It is better to be triggered now, that you have time to recognise your programs and alters and merge them, but to be triggered later, when there would be no time for deprogramming and merging.
Deprogramming is not about erasing your programs from your DNA because that would hurt physically and mentally your body resulting probably in death, but to learn what your programs are and keep them under control.
I personally do have Monarch, Dragonfly and Scorpio programming. These all three are sexual programming.
My grandfather has Scorpio genetic and frequency, and my half-sister has Scorpio/Monarch
programming. Both are Scorpions in horoscope.
My mother has some influence from Scorpio, in her Moon sign, caused by her Scorpio genetic she inherited from her father.
My Sun astrology sign is Capricorn, and my Moon sign is in Leo. That is really what I am, reptilianised Lion. That is not good or bad, actually, it can have both negative and positive connotations. It only depends about my mind-pattern how I am going to use my genetic/frequency background and what would be effects of my deeds.
Hey, this post can play like my introducing post on this forum, because I realise now that I don't have one.
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