New To Deprogramming

[Richard]

 Let's try not to make her afraid of the closet :)

The closet remark was meant to be funny and not scary. I mentioned it because many people report that’s where agents come from to get people for programming. Even DreamTime’s grandson reported watching men in black come from the closet and take his mom. We keep a pair of winged lions near our closet and the front and back doors in our house. Stewart has winged lions all over his house, inside and outside.

[SilverInfinity]

That gives new meaning to kids who claim monsters are in their closets. I wonder what Monster Inc. is all about? Walt Disney is brilliant.

[PurpleParrot]

Hrmm, So you think I should visualize Golden Winged Lions all over my parents house? I live with my brother and both my parents. I think my brother will probably also learn how to deprogram maybe in a year or two as well. I asked him about sleep paralysis and certain dreams he has and he has said he has had them so I slowly started telling him that I will be making some changes,etc. At first, he reacted like he was scared of me telling him and his friend but today he calmly listened to me in the car today. He seems to want to protect me so I think I can trust my brother but I will have to somehow ask his oversoul to put merger on him and him in violet protection as well since I think they use anyone I trust against me in my real life,right? For all I know,a ll my best friends are monarchs or something...some of them like butterflies.....

Yeah, when I was a kid, I'd freak out at night time and I wouldn't know what it was...I always thought something was watching me and I thought that maybe it was a ghost. I actually thought if its a ghost, why can't it let me see it and why can't I be calm about communicating with it?? Sometimes I'd run into my mom's room to sleep there. I  kinda feel embarrassed to admit this, but even after my parents moved to a new house, I would find myself calling my mom for help if I got caught in sleep paralysis..and as soon as I got out of the paralysis, I would run to her room. I started putting UVP in my room but I sometimes need to put the light on at night time still. My parrot sleeps in my room. I wonder if the Illuminati also program my bird or something.

I wonder if they threaten me with killing family members or my pets if I don't do something for them...because I freak out at any sign of death or illness to my pets..

Also, yes I did stare at my closets at night time thinking that something is coming from there to get me and I'd even ask if I could see whatever it was. I'd ask for whatever it was to reveal itself to me..but it never did. No fair!! If I'm programmed, I think it should only be fair if I get to remember alien encounters!!! *Okay that might be part of programming..I probably have alien invasion programming or something cuz I remember I had this strange and stupid wish to be abducted by friendly aliens...but not go through that weird proctology exam by them*. You know what, I really want to know who or what is programming me and why..what do they want with goofy reiki channeling Indian girls like me?? I think maybe they wanted to use me for healing reptiles...no fair! I think its just weird that the big secret society shapeshifting dudes wanted to use me for something...alongside with you guys. I also think its not fair that I don't get to know about all my cool abilities. I think I'm aware of them on the surface level. I wonder how many people I might have spied on and how many others I was sent to kill.  I wonder if maybe I'm one of those clear people entrapped in a human body too.  lol...clear translucent me..that would be mad weird. Oooh I just want to know what aliens I'm connected to lol and I want to remember if I talked to any cool ones. You know it would be weird if I was someone like Jennifer Garners version of Elektra..an assassin.  If I'm being used for sexual ritual...jeez...I wonder how....I think I'm going to be disturbed if I remember those experiences....ewwwwww--that part about being programmed is so not cool. *right now I think I'm regressing to a teenager gossipping about her life*.

Here's some pessimism of being programmed: I think everyone in my life right now can't ever be trusted the same way again..they might not know they're being used to program me or that I'm being used to program them...I have to put everyone around me in pale orange..I wonder if I'll have the strength to do that. All those new people I met..they may have been used to trigger me too. Thats sad.

I hope that we're all being used for a greater purpose too....by benevolent beings.

I believe that maybe we're all deprogramming to find out our real purpose.....It seems all of us might have some cool knowledge about things here...and maybe everytime we unlock something, we learn about the agendas more.....and I think we are convening together so that when we unlock the purposes, we can exchange info with each other.

I'm going to put violet wrapping paper on my closets now...and silver in other parts of the room.

I'm just going to increase protection in my room.

I'll probably draw winged lions as well and place them in strategic places of the house..My mom likes to hang my artwork sometimes..I haven't drawn anything nice in a while...I did draw 2 lions when I was a kid but I gave those drawings to people for their birthday. hrmmmmmm

you know what.i hope i'm not being used by the agenda to spy on you guys either..that would be horrible.

 

[Richard]

That gives new meaning to kids who claim monsters are in their closets. I wonder what Monster Inc. is all about? Walt Disney is brilliant.

On Al Bielek’s CDs he talks about how they would send time tunnels to people’s closets. That’s why kids see monsters or aliens in their closets. Most programming is done when you’re young. They usually come when you’re sleeping and you never know anything happened. They can take you and use you on a mission somewhere for any amount of time and then put you back at the moment they took you. You wouldn’t know anything happened.

One time I knew something happened because my shirt had been cut and then patched. It happened while I was taking a nap. I don’t know if they came out of the closet or not but I know something happened.

In the movie the Manchurian Candidate they would also beam into peoples closets. Zachery has talked about the mind drainers that also come into your room. They are astral beings but Zachery sees them. He says that you can keep them out by flooding your bedroom with violet. Or using a violet colored light to flood the room. Expansions sells violet lights you can use for that purpose.

[SilverInfinity]

Good information. What about monsters from underneath the bed? And what if my room has no closet but a clothes drawer (though inconvenient)?

[Richard]

I imagine that they beam into closets because you won’t notice it. If you don’t have a closet, I’m guessing that they would pick the next best place and that could be under your bed.

[William]

  SilverInf,  I would keep an old piece of stinky cheese under your bed or in your clothes drawer for protection!       (that is a joke, peeps)

    On a serious note, I believe PurpleParrot is from my oversoul family, She is channeling everything ive wanted to say and more but have not!  Keep it up!  :)

    As a side Thread that was really started elsewhere i will start here........

When did you know the world was wrong?   I knew from birth.    But until a few years ago would not have guessed all that i know now.  Does this make sense?

[Richard]

 When did you know the world was wrong?   I knew from birth.    But until a few years ago would not have guessed all that i know now.  Does this make sense? 

It makes sense to me, that is exactly I feel. I’ve been searching for the truth all my life and I now understand the path that led me here. I knew about the Illuminati since I was a kid because in the 70s there was a guy called John Todd going to different churches and exposing the Illuminati. Hearing what he had to say had a major impact on me.  Before there was the internet, it was difficult to find good info. I use to get underground books and newspapers and search them for what I could find. Then I discovered the Seth books in the 90’s and that was a huge discovery for me. I knew I was on the right track when I read them. Then I found Icke, Then Alex Collier, then Peter Moon, and then Stewart in 2000. :)

[William]

  Wow Richard, you just stated my life almost.   I have almost all of Seth's books, but i gravitated towards the mysticasizm~ some hence the Don juan -  Carlos C books.

  At around age 15 i use to Hypnotize a couple of my friends and it made me wonder why the Govt didnt do this to make secret warriors and use them in programs to fly super aircraft and be super men etc.   I saw the power in Hypnotizing people but did not try to Hypnotize anyone else after playing with it for about a year.  I would Regress them to early childhood and have them draw a picture from 3rd grade or something like that, One time i had one friend go into the future in a space craft looking out the window and asked him what he saw but he got real dizzy and had to come out of it.

  One book given to me around 79 was the  Bhagavad- Gita I loved it.  My mom use to have the occasional wichcraft book laying around the house for some reason.  aaahhhh the ole use witchcraft to influence your friends and neighbors and make more money type so it must of been in the early 70's that i might of started reading of witchcraft but i didnt study it because it did not seem right to me some how.

[PurpleParrot]

Lol maybe all of us at Expansions are from the same Oversoul family. Maybe our Oversoul decided to rebel from other Oversouls lol and say"yo , I'm pulling my kids outta here--I'm going to make them learn about their abilities in their repressed reality through programming experiences and then make them deprogram to find their abilities and turn the tables around!". But then again Oversoul would probably say,"I just want to experience myself rebelling in this time stream of reality and let God Mind know about this experience". *Shrugs*.

I feel drawn to everyone here now...

William: Interesting about what you said about the hypnotizing ability: I have had this ability where I could transmit thoughts to others and they would receive it right away and sometimes I'd even sense them too..their underlying patterns and behaviors....I would see beyond their typical behaviors and mannerisms at the subconscious level. You knowwhat I mean? I had this ability since I was probably in high school. Also, as it got stronger, I got scared that I could mess up people's lives..sometimes if I was around friends and I felt jealous of them dating each other, I had this nasty thought saying "break up guys" and I tried stopping that thought. I'd feel bad when they actually did break up. I felt responsible for this--this would increase being ashamed of myself and not wanting to use my ability. Recently about a few months ago, I told a male friend of mine who is an empath but doesn't want to admit this to others(unless he knows they are too) that I have this strong thought transmitting ability where I could transmit positive and negative thoughts..a strong telepathy..and in a way it could be manipulative of others..or I could strongly send out a thought or a feeling to someone and they'd know..and I'd have to disguise myself sometimes so that people wouldn't figure out what I'm feeling or thinking.  This friend of mine said to use my ability anyway but I felt like he didn't understand that I knew about my power but didn't want to use it on others for fear of hurting them. He tries to uplift me when he sees me..I showed him bits of THH and I think he resonates with it. I wonder if he is programmed also but if he is, he seems open to hyperspace work!!!  In addition: I can feel energies and once a month I get an increased feeling of psychic ability--I can tune into others at times or sense things or sense people before they come to me. When I was 11--I was into astrology and dream interpretation so from the age of 11 onwards I would always tune into my dreams..and I would often have premonitive ones where I would see something happen and maybe a day or two that incident would happen. Those types of dreams get stronger each day now but I don't know if they are things from my internal programmer or from the oversoul. I keep oversoul merger template on my bedpost next to UVP...and next to that is the path to brain frequency template.

Finally, given my age, I haven't really had any dating relationship at all--everytime I came across a male I liked, I would obsess over them and then I'd tell myself I don't deserve them and talk myself out of it. I would also try to observe and see if they were right for me without telling them I had feelings for them. I think some of my male friends felt confused by that. I never really allowed myself to experiment. Some of them probably thought I was a tease or something..I'd show this enthusiasm and genuine niceness towards them and hide my feelings for them because I wasn't sure if I should admit it..I thought I wasn't even allowed to date too..and that it wasn't right.  I'm still friends with a lot of males and I repressed what I felt for them. I did feel frustrated if they didn't give me a chance to be their friend and then just walk off and date someone else..heck even marry them. In addition, there were females around me(from when I was in high school) that I'd become sexually attracted to and I'd feel uncomfortable by that. At that time, gays and lesbians were still coming out of the closet and also who heard of Indian lesbians at that time?? I'm not a lesbian..if I ever did try anything, I'd consider myself bisexual. But I wouldn't really allow myself to experiment and would probably remain heterosexual. There were some girls where I'd become aroused by and then feel so much discomfort by them that I'd walk away or feel ashamed of myself.  I even had to see a school counselor and talk to her about gays, lesbians, bisexuality and heterosexuality..I felt paranoid talking to her sometimes..I felt a great deal of paranoia in my latter years of high school--that people were out to get me and that everyone was talking about me or doing something behind my back..that no one could be trusted on surface value. These days its kinda bad for me..I find myself turned on by both males and females and I feel bad if I look at a male in a sexual way and not see that one as a person. I realize that this is due to programming and that I can take my power back and not let males and females activate me.  I also realize that the soul really has no gender...body determines the gender...reptilians are androgynous beings..most of us have at least fifteen percent reptilian genetics....i read true reality of sexuality.....

I have this desire to increase my abilities but at the same time I wonder if this is programming. I'm going to suspect any internal imbalance--positive or negative as programming.This kinda sucks that I can't always trust myself now...I guess because you guys had said you suspected me of being programmed..that I went and kept analyzing myself more and my life as well...I even considered the possibility of alters and how mine might be behaving...and I realized that I am aware of them swimming around and talking in my brain lol...but I can tell them to all shove it...and sometime find a way to deactivate them, merge them and release them to oversoul.

About Williams question: Its not the world that I thought was wrong--I thought I was wrong..I always felt out of place no matter where I was....being indian in NY in the mid 80's wasn't easy..most people around us were caucasian...

and when the numbers of other ethnicities immigrating to the US increased..I still felt out of place with everything..i didn't really get along with other indians or others that well ..I always found myself being friends with everyone..and trying to combine my own group..or join a group of outcasts...even at my first college, i felt out of place there too...at my new college..i feel sort of at home..there are more minorities here...and i've been finding like minded individuals...so i've been getting this feeling that i'm at home now with others and my environment..maybe i'm accepting myself better..who knows.

btw..I really felt the world was wrong in the late 90's...i'd see bizarre patterns in the world...but then i realized that was the mind patterns of my own being...that were projected outwards...reflected back to me..i.e.--i alwasy liked to see birds flying east..and i did see them...so thi swas often reflected back to me..

i always observed how people behaved on the full moon...

after my reiki activation/initiation..i saw the world differently as well and began questioning things jmore....about thought patterns,etc...when 9/11...thats when i knew the world was really wrong......

what other abilities do you guys consciously know about??