03-29-2009, 06:22 AM
A dream this morning. there was a man in a camp tent. In the battlefield or something. A westerner, he had cuts and blood all over him. There was an asian boy there to help. He took off in fear. The man layed there until a women came, she started cutting his face with a knife and proceeded to take apart his whole head while he was still alive.
I woke up then. Before this I had a horrible night with attacks from demonics. The same scenario was there as I woke up. Threats and horrible suggestions of what they might do to me was pushed into my head. Along with a bunch of stuff I was unaware off.
Basically the scene was as if I was being attacked by each single thought that came to mind. And there was thoughts which wore not mine. Because I would not consciously think such things.
There are voices. Physical sensations. Manipulation of thought, perception, memory and other things.
All of this after a breakthrough. I panicked. I asked oversoul for help and it was not there.
This morning I went up to another house because i could not stay there any more. On my way, outside the door. I managed to swallow a mosquito or something. As I coughed and bent towards the ground I saw a spider. I took it as a sign. The whole incident. Theres no coincidences I know.
I could place a smile here as it may be humorous and funy, but I have few of them.
Little "I"s pop up while writing this, -> i <-. The thought which occurred to me after seeing the spider is the demonic or a part of it being programming and not actual demonic. I have been told this was the case by someone not knowledgeable of programming or demonics. I mention this because I got some feelings when I heard it, it might just be a sense of hope and relief but I am not sure.
There were also other dreams which is not so clear, involving druggie people. Implications towards sex and possibly shame.
I am writing this to just get it out.
I woke up then. Before this I had a horrible night with attacks from demonics. The same scenario was there as I woke up. Threats and horrible suggestions of what they might do to me was pushed into my head. Along with a bunch of stuff I was unaware off.
Basically the scene was as if I was being attacked by each single thought that came to mind. And there was thoughts which wore not mine. Because I would not consciously think such things.
There are voices. Physical sensations. Manipulation of thought, perception, memory and other things.
All of this after a breakthrough. I panicked. I asked oversoul for help and it was not there.
This morning I went up to another house because i could not stay there any more. On my way, outside the door. I managed to swallow a mosquito or something. As I coughed and bent towards the ground I saw a spider. I took it as a sign. The whole incident. Theres no coincidences I know.
I could place a smile here as it may be humorous and funy, but I have few of them.
Little "I"s pop up while writing this, -> i <-. The thought which occurred to me after seeing the spider is the demonic or a part of it being programming and not actual demonic. I have been told this was the case by someone not knowledgeable of programming or demonics. I mention this because I got some feelings when I heard it, it might just be a sense of hope and relief but I am not sure.
There were also other dreams which is not so clear, involving druggie people. Implications towards sex and possibly shame.
I am writing this to just get it out.