HeadSpace..Deprogramming diary

[HeadSpace]

Now, the one mentioned didn't do anything.. There was a time when they appeared many times a day.. I was very into the nwr at the time, closed in.

I dont pay much attention to them anymore. At one point i thought they were angel numbers, but thats nonsense I think..I got duped, the astral creatures portayed themselves as angels at one point..

[Polly]

HeadSpace, there can be all sorts of number sequences related to one's programmng.  I once saw a vision of a graph in my mind and the numbers in the boxes were changing rapidly.

[HeadSpace]

Hey:)

I had a saltbath and at the same time someone helped me out, before that happened i had some astral issues and someone helped me out, or it may have been me at other levels. In the bath I got help, and managed to find myself. Dont know what happened something returned:) Peace..

Very nice:)

I look forward to getting things back on track. I have sort of been lazy and sabotaging myself when I was okay too, I mean when I was in a normal state before..So if I just keep going without the sabotage stuff things should be alright.

I should have listened to Astrojewels months back and just live and not focus too much on the programming part because I did focus too much on the last part and it made me go deeper and deeper. The good thing is that now I know where that whole leads:P I've learned a lot.

I will take better care of my body too, I was a health freak before I learned about the programming part. I look forward to starting that again, just without the obsessive part.

[HeadSpace]

I've managed to get myself calm again and relaxed, I tried doing the merger and noticed the tension is there and names pops up.. Then astral attention is there.

I also remembered that the whole mess started with me doing the techniques, it was a response to me visualizing..

I think I'll focus on getting my life back on track first, and take it easy with the techniques. I know I can do a lot without them too.

Working on my mindpattern. The most important thing.

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I noticed memories and stuff from nwr appeared. I was sitting around the computer when I heard lines from a velvet underground song, I then played along because I sort of like them..And then I went deeper into that alter..I was viewing some stuff on the net I was about to buy and I noticed I sank into a state I've been in before, addicted to shopping actually:?

Really weird. Before this happened, I was viewing clothes and I saw a jacket called handler which made me feel weird and someone said I was in for a surprise..

I'm not sure what that might mean. Strange stuff.

Wonder who that is..

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I was just thinking, and the voice appeared, the most familiar one I think..i then thought of the name I once got from it or the name i thought I got..The attachment then got closer I felt:?

So it seems the name was correct.

Wonder what the correct way is to stay clear of the attachment.

[HeadSpace]

So that annoys me, I was now free and calm..Then it  happens again. it seems I've been taken over the whole time I was in that chaotic place or something..

All advise regarding how to stay clear of the attachment would be nice.

[HeadSpace]

I was dreaming tonight, before i got to bed the attachment got closer and made me go into that blank spot again where it has control and stuff..

In the dream I was in a house in a bed at something that in norwegian is called a hems or something, like theres a room and then theres a second floor at some point but not necessarily a room..Poor explanation..


There was a voice there talking to me, a hostile one. It was hunting me, it had a malevolent tone, coming closer  I think. It ended with attacking me physically or energetically at my left ribs..This happened in the real as well, I felt it. It was not comfortable and I struggled to get it away..It was an actual attack:?

It also had control when I woke up, thats very sad..Now its attacking me physically too:? Not too fun..But I will find a way.

Should be more information on the subject..

[Astrojewels]

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I also remembered that the whole mess started with me doing the techniques, it was a response to me visualizing..

I think I'll focus on getting my life back on track first, and take it easy with the techniques. I know I can do a lot without them too.

Working on my mindpattern. The most important thing.

About time headspace,

Congrats to you, this is the first step to taking back who you are, but you have now got the experience of being suppressed and altered, being triggered and targeted, and from this day on it is going to be totally a self driven ride if you go back, you are not out of the woods, but you are consciously aware of what has happened and this is the first step to controlling the programming that can be manipulated.

Spending the entire day trying to stop it through techniques leaves you vulnerable to voices, and you only have yourself to ask questions and answers!

The trick is from this day, the 28th of December 2008, take note of your triggers, keep a journal to what brings them on, what kind of people you attract, try and control it day to day, until you get some type of understanding and it is a process so don’t think it is all smoothe sailing, but determination is all you need, and you are a Sagittarius!

All I need to hear now is that you have sat down and had a nice meal, and not chocolate!

[HeadSpace]

Thank you:)

That saved my night, I did have meals today and I was just drooling over a chocolate before reading your post:P

I took a saltbath today too but didn't stay as long. I tried to clear out creatures from my aura with affirmations. It worked, at the end I tried to remove the influence of the attachment and I think it work to some extent, what i was left with was a part of myself that is a little strange. A really weird persona or something, something to do with my ritual alter and I felt out of place, not quite myself but I've been there before too. I guess its a part of the demonized thing, it has popped up every once in a while before in other versions. Very decisive and strong. But not quite predictable, something was lurking.

I've been wanting to travel for a long time but have not done so, that has been on my mind lately..I really love to travel:)

Lotr is on screen here and it's not fun:? Loaded wih stuff..

I look forward to the new year:)

[HeadSpace]

I was just sitting around watching a movie and there was a sting in my left eye, then I tought of the implants and heard congratulations:? But I'm not sure..

It stings now too, I guess the real thing is more discrete..

[HeadSpace]

I was out doing something and visiting a place I was living in, last time I was there I was deeply into the programming part and things have changed since then. But once there things came back, pure manipulation. While driving the car I got a sting in the right side of the head around the ear and I changed..At the start of the drive I had retieved a more proactive healthy stance again..

Now someone has ben hanging around messing with my memory and my brain, I feel it. pressure and stings and coldness, numbness and that stuff.

Not fun.. I found a star tetrahedron pendant at alibaba.com, pretty much the same as the one swerdlow had in his shop. I think I'll try that out soon.

Does anyone know what kind of imprint or effect the pendant has?

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just had a serious blow to the head from astral, it was painful and I immediatly started crying:?